Ever since

Ever since they first started dating, no ever since they first met one another. He has always maintained a certain distance. He made sure to remain calm in front of her and never showed her how much he truly cared. At first it worked, he got closer to her but kept her at arms length. It was the same with her, she relied on him. But, there was still a wall between them.

That wall slowly started to crumble when she took the initiative to reach out to him first, and accept his confession. There wasn't a time limit to his confession. But, Sumire must have felt pressured.

Tohs gaze fell on the girl who was busy planning the rest of their trip. Since she returned to his place earlier. Sumire seemed intent on not talking about what happened earlier. But, after she took the initiative

to boldly kiss him without blushing. His mind has started to wander to dangerous thoughts.

Perhaps she isnt as innocent as she made herself out to be. But, even if that were to be the case. He shouldn't act like an idiot and test it.

'Think, before you act.'

How many times has he told those words to his patients? How many times did he tell them to control their emotions better, and not let others see what they are thinking?

So many times, and yet here he is breaking his own rules.

"Sumire, I'm going to take a shower. Do you want to join me?"

Sumire shakes her head. "I'll cook dinner. Go ahead."

Her reaction seems normal. It's a shame, he liked seeing her bashful expression whenever they kiss.

"Toh?"

"I really am going crazy because of you." Toh mumbled.

How is it possible to desire someone as much as he does her?

Sumire tilted her head innocently. "Is this the part where you kiss me again? Or, should I do it?"

Hah.

"Just one kiss won't be enough."

Sumire switched the stove off and perched herself on the counter.

"Okay, I'm ready." Sumire declared.

His lips curved amused at her suggestion. 'If she isn't careful, I will fuck her on that counter.'

Toh shakes his head and takes a few steps forward as he leaned over and kissed her. Such delicious looking lips. He has never tasted anything so good.

Sumire is playing with his hair as he catches his breath. "Beautiful."

"Yes?"

"During this trip, you said you don't mind getting physical. Is that true?"

It was a plea, not a question.

"Yes."

He could really use another shower. His entire body had been burning up the entire day. It didn't help how he realized how hard he got after that brief make out session in the food court in the mall. This was the reason why he

"Tell me what to do."

Huh?

Sumire's cheeks flushed red but she didnt avert her gaze and looked at him directly. "Is there a way to help you, uh calm down?"

Oh.

Oh.

It takes him a few minutes to understand what she was implying.

Toh frowned, realizing something. She knows what to do because of her ex boyfriend. The image of her between that man's legs, made his blood boil.

"Toh?" Sumire said puzzled.

"Let's go to the couch."

Sumire nodded and Toh led her to the couch.

"Are you comfortable now, beautiful?"

"Y-yes, my knees wont hurt like this."

Toh chuckled. "Another time, I would like to see you on the ground for me. But for our first lesson, I want you to be comfortable."

"So, you do want me to touch you?" Sumire suddenly said.

"Of course."

Has he ever said anything that would make her think differently?

Toh wanted to question her but found the girl's gaze on the buttons of his pants.

"Uh." Sumire laughed awkwardly. "Um, I'm afraid I haven't done this in awhile. Let me just check how this works again." She turned away and takes her phone out.

Toh raised his eyebrows. He was curious what she was reading but seeing her ears turn red and her cursing. He could guess. His gaze is gentle when Sumire suddenly turned back to him.

"If you don't want to, we don't have to tonight." Toh said seeing her pause.

Sumire shakes her head. "I-I have done this before."

She has but with a bastard that made it very unpleasant for her. Toh lifted her up slightly and cupped her cheeks as he leaned down and kissed her. It takes Sumire a few minutes but eventually she relaxed. As jealous as he is about her being intimate with another man, it happened before they were together. So, he truly has no right to cause a fuss.

When he saw the cuts and scrapes on her arms, Toh abruptly stopped her.

"When did you get these?"

At those words Sumire looked away. It takes him a moment to process. She didn't get these from a fight, she did them to herself.

'How careless of me. I've been so preoccupied with us being a couple and other matters that we haven't been having our weekly talks about her well being.'

He frowned and traced the scars slowly with his fingers causing her to flinch.

"Is it painful?"

"A little." Sumire mumbled.

"Why didn't you say anything?"

"Things have been good between us recently. I didn't want to destroy it with my issues."

Indeed their relationship has been going very well. But, who cares about that when she is suffering? Toh hugged her tightly.

"Do you want to tell me?"

"Ah, it's just-I-I've had some nightmares recently."

He urged her to tell the details and eventually she gives in.

Toh's gaze darkened hearing the details of her 'nightmares.' That dark shadow she keeps mentioning, it sounds like Lucifer.

"Toh-I-I don't want to--sleep tonight, can you stay awake with me?"

"You'll have to sleep eventually beautiful. But, for now we can stay awake." Toh nodded.

Sumire tugged nervously on his sleeve. "I-I want to make out."

His gaze softened at her request. "Alright." Toh cupped her cheeks and sees Sumire close her eyes. The girl's body was trembling and yet she was still clinging to his shirt.

She still isn't used to this. But he has no intention of stopping now.

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