Beisei bo(Hopeless)

After ten minutes my people found the car in front of a Graveyard but not Sasa.I can't live without her near me.I was desperate.They search in the graveyard and all they found is her Parents Tombstone bathe in a blood.

I am sure it was her blood but still I can't just give up.I have to found her body.But after searching I can't find a single clue of her where about.

I lay on our bed and found an envelope.It was like a will..I read it like again and again.I hate myself.She thinks she is not good enough.She thinks she is burden.Why did I let her feel this pain?Why did I ever agreed to Taylor?Why don't I refused it like the last time?

Tears pouring from my eyes and I was startled to hear my door got kick open and Joe standing there with a tearful of his eyes.

"Alex,what the fuck did you tell her?"

"Shhe was gone before I told her a thing."

"Are you happy now?I wish you are."

"No,I feel like shit."

"Well,I don't believe you.Not now,not ever and We are leaving your Gang."

"What do you mean leaving?You can't leave,you have to help me find her."

"Not anymore..Even in my death breath."

"So, Derek's with you at leaving the gang."

"Yeah..We can't keep hurting a friend.So goodbye.Hope you have a beautiful family with Miss ...Ohh...it doesn't matter to us."

He left.. Everyone left me.My loved,my friends.What have I done??...

I can't go on living like this..I kept searching for a months now but no news.I went to Taylor and I break the engagement after that Taylor start to become my nightmares.

After three months I got Vedios from Taylor.He might get tired of trying to call me.I open it and saw a girl wearing a bag in her head,tied up to çhair.Taylor beat her up.And cut her throat.I am sure it was Sasa.

I gather my men and went straight to Taylor base.We killed everyone that stands in our way.When i enter their House Basement I search for it.And saw Taylor keep stabbing the girl head.I shot him,again and again.

When I take the bag off I can't even see her face.Her face is torn apart.I was shock..The body is the same as Sasa..So,,all this time he kept her.Tourture her,and now he killed her.It's my fault.It is clearly my fault.

The reasons for her death is me.I was the reason..So I start drinking more and more.I met many girls and slept with different girl hoping to burn my feelings.But it can't go away.

I am not Alcoholic and every single day I need to get my hand dirty.Thinking the one I killed is me.The one I torture is me.

After a year I was invited to attend a Ball.I tried to no go there as it was held at Z City..Next to M City and it is at the day of Sasa's death.It will remind me of her again.

But still I need to go there as I wanted to gain territory at Z City.So i booked the tickets.I was at the office when I got a called. Misterious called.

"Hello."

"Hi,buddy,So.. Tomorrow is the day.Are you planning to go to her."

"I tried but I need to go to Z City."

"I am so sorry for your lost.Joe is never the same.He cried since this morning."

"Tell him I am so sorry for the way I act.I feel like I lost myself."

"It will get better.i hope."

"Everytime I closed my eyes I saw her being stab by Taylor over and over again."

"I would feel the same if it happens to Joe.Anyway try to stay clear."

"I will."

"Bye."

So I hang the phone looking at Sasa picture.. It's been a year,a year without her,a year without her complain.I missed her so much..I fucking miss her.

If she ever come back I will definitely treat her better.

I went to my bed and wait for the sun to rise.When I wake up,I went to the bathroom for shower.After that I rush to the airport.You might think I am stupid for not taking my own plane.What can I say,,it reminds me of her.How she used to being a bitch and flirt with my employee.

I tried to sleep but a girl beside me start to flirt with me.Her name is Beck.

"So,what do you have in mind Alex?"

"Have you ever have sex in the plane."

"No,but that's a turn on."

"Why don't we do it?"

"Ok,,wait you at the Washroom."

She make her way to the Washroom..After 5 minutes I followed her.Thinking her as Sasa..They have the same hair colour Black..Same height but this girl is chubbier than her.

(Warning,,Big warning it's a only for adult.If you read don't blame me...I already warned you.)

I knock the door and here she is.Looking all horny...I get in and put her on the basin table and kiss her hard.

I touch her breast,soft like a cotton candy.I kissed her neck,and bite a bit to leave a mark.I let my hand roam around.She did the same.I am getting not so hard.

I put my fingers at her clit,rubbing like it was some game.I hear her moan and put my hands at her mouth to covered her moan..I dip my fingers in...Man,,she is wet...I finger fuck her faster,harder and she reach ...

She open my zipper and put my pants down,she try to get up but I force her to get down and I fuck her mouth...Thinking Sasa giving me a blowjob ..I cum all over her face,but I didn't stop...I fuck her till I get hard.

I pulled her up and bend her down...I push myself inside of her..She moan,so I put her panties in her mouth to silence her.I fuck her and slap her ass over and over again.

I pulled her hips so hard I can see my own hands leave a mark...After a few minutes we both climax..

She got out and I stay there wash my face and looking for excuse to not feel guilty.