Changtupa (Male Lead aka Alex)

I am in love with Sasa,the first time I saw her I know she is special.I like how she turns wild an innocent.She looks hot.

I tried to force her to stay with me,cause Derek told me she is single and we are perfect match.But forcing her means pushing her away.I wait a long time to find her and to bring her back.

Finally I found her,in a place I didn't dare to think.A place full of drugs and shits..Where there is no law,she is at the edge of death and I was luckily in time.

I made a deal with her,Hoping to make her fall for me.A one year deal.During this time I need to put my mind in what she wants and dream.Before i even have time to make myself clear Taylor visit me and start putting up his same old proposal.For Sasa's safety I agreed to it.

Never thought he would see her in person.He blackmail me,I can't risk Sasa... There's noway I would put her life at risk ..So I accept the proposal to save Sasa.

It is an exchange ring ceremony..What is she doing now...I know Joe lie to her,but she ain't a person you can control with rules..I'm more than afraid to lose her . That's why Sometimes I am so mean and cruel to her..Hoping I would feel less for her.But I am the one who suffer the most.

I want her to love me and hold me.I'm afraid if I am too soft to her she would get tired of me.Thinking I am too boring or too soft to stay with.Still she is hard like a Goddamn rock..If she is in loved with me I want to live as a normal person.I don't care how hard I'll need to work.I don't care how poor I will become as long as she stays beside me.

After the ceremony I tried to make excuses to see her.But failed..I miss her every second even though she act like a spoiled brat.Even if she didn't act that way.I want to spoiled her so bad.

Taylor daughter is not bad looking, she's pretty,perfect shape..But still I don't like her.She is like a doll,beauty without kindness or brain.I can't stand to see her face Everytime I open my eyes..All her makeup,it looks like a transformer.

If I slap her will her face fall off??If she wash her face will she looked like an old lady??A part from her face you can see her dress.She wore Red Vintage latest edition.But designer dress doesn't quaranty she would looked fabulous in it.The dress make her look Fat..Like a Fat fat.

All those jewelry it's remind me of India.Where the supply truck is decorated with every kind of Shinny things and I want to laugh out loud.Saying "Make way for Supply truck."

The ceremony and After party takes longer than I thought..After the party it was already one in the morning.I want to rush to Sasa but I got scared.If she know she would just leave me.I can't live without her.And yet here I am..Lost my way.

I saw Joe walks towards me,the way he walks I know he is drunk.He pull me up by my shirt collar and look at me,deep into my eyes.

"Who the fuck do you think you are to break someone?"

"You are drunk Joe.Go home."

"Go home?When my best friend heart is being trampled on?"

"Joe, don't start it."

"I am not the one who start this shit.You fucking,you are.I thought you say you loved her.You are liar,bad bad liar.I wish I was never your friend."

"Derek,take Joe home."

"Don't you dare obey this PMS.If you dare do you it we are done."

"Sorry Alex..But Joe is right.I am not on your side."

"Go,fucking tell her Alex.Or I will."

"I can't live without her."

"Why don't you think that before you accept Taylor offer or why didn't you fucking think through."

I know I am not the right one,so I left.And head towards where my loved one is stay.I wish I could turn back time.I knock the door,silent was the only thing that answer me.I called her,but no answer.So I pull out my keys but the door isn't lock.I walk in and emptiness was the only thing I see.

I look in the bathroom,closet and she is nowhere to see.I started to panicked.I don't think Taylor took her.So I look the surveillance Vedios.I saw her walking toward the hall and saw what happened.How she react and after that I saw her walk in the Store room and came out wasted.

After that I saw her walk in our bathroom and when she came out her beautiful hair is now short.And she was changing her clothes and cut her wrist.Why would she do that?

And she laid in the bed for ten minutes and rush out the door and I saw her last look.Looking so helpless with tears in her eyes and Blood dripping down her fingers.

She drive out my car and I order my man to search for her.

(So,,sugar pies,What do you think??You know I was too emotions in the last chapter and this chapter.I asked myself how will I end and I got off and on from the original plot.Hope you all liked my story ...

I must admit I am not a Good writer.Anyway love you all so so so so much...I tried to update everyday so I can entertain you this way.

Stay safe..,.

♥S. )