Ch.59

(Matt Pov)

After an hour of Alice, Rosalie, and Edythe prepping the area and Bella for the turning they were going to start. However, just as they were going to start to turn Bella, as Emmett, Jasper, and I were standing outside smoking, Edward showed up. He seemed a little crazed as he ran from the woods and saw us, making his way toward us.

"GUYS! Is Bella here?! I know she came here! Where is she?!" Edward says firing one sentence after the other in a pissed off state.

"Well, it would seem you have your answer. Alice, Rosalie, and Edythe are in the process of turning her," I say and sigh as I put my cigar down, seeing Edward become even more angered.

"Get the fuck out of my way!" Edward screams in anger, as he tries to rush inside the house. Though Emmett and Jasper are holding him back.

"Edward, you can hate us all you want after this, but remember I told you I would turn Bella with or without your approval," I say and he turns to me with nothing but extreme hate.

"Matt, you stupid asshole! What the fuck do you know about being a vampire?! You just cursed your cousin to an eternity of suffering!" Edward says with venom in his voice and trying to break out of the grips of Emmett and Jasper, to no effect.

"I know that she would come to resent you and find any means necessary to turn into a vampire for you! That your stubborn stupidity on your feelings of vampires would keep you both from finding true happiness!" I say with an annoyed growl. Though Edward narrows his eyes and seems to want to respond, but I continue.

"That if somehow she remained a human, that one day she would die and then you too would die from suicide. If you die, then the people who care for you will fall into a depression like Alice. Plus I'm not going to let my cousin die, to satisfy your self-righteousness. I'm immortal now too, and I don't want to lose everyone I know one day if I can help it!" I say trying to get him to see things from another view, then his one side.

After a few moments of tense silence, and slightly more struggles from Edward, he calms down a bit. The tension released from his body and acceptance dawned on his face. Seeing this I motion for Emmett and Jasper to release him, I could still stop him if needed anyway. The others couldn't hear this, since they were turning Bella in the basement, but I could hear it. I heard Bella's last breath as she died a human and will now wake up as a vampire.

"Maybe you're right, but how do you know she won't regret this one day? What if she wants kids and I could never give that to her, now she won't be able to either way," Edward says as he sighs and sits on the ground emotionally drained.

"She might regret turning years, decades, or centuries from now, maybe never, I would never know. All I know is, now you both can spend eternity with each other," I say patting his shoulder in reassurance, as he just sighs.

"Plus it's too late now, I can hear her heartbeat has stopped and she is one of you all now," I say and they each look at me surprised, though Edward rushes into the house. I don't stop him as I said it's too late now.

"They are in the basement!" I shout after Edward who is looking around for them and he rushes to the basement upon hearing me.

"You know Edward isn't wrong about having kids, Rosalie always wanted them, but now we can never have a real family of our own," Emmett says with sadness in his voice. Jasper just pats his shoulder and so too do I.

'Soon, soon I will make you all gods,' I think to myself and sighing to myself seeing Emmett in emotional pain.

Walking inside we head to the basement after Edward, who is already there with Bella. As we enter the basement I can see Bella and Edward standing by a mirror looking at her, Bella has blood staining her mouth a bit, seems they gave her some blood after turning. Alice, Rosalie, and Edythe are standing by a table where they turned Bella and are just watching them. They all turn to us as we enter the basement, but Bella looks nervous seeing me and that confuses me a bit.

"Matt….Maybe you shouldn't be here. I just turned and could lose control hurting you," Bella says nervously and Edward puts a reassuring hand on her shoulder. Though the others just smirk at her knowing how strong I am, especially Alice.

"Bella, you should be worried you might hurt yourself. Matt is like a fucking unstoppable train on the move," Emmett says with a laugh and breaking the tension that Bella had, as she gives me a curious look.

"You're saying he's stronger than you?" Bella asks Emmett, knowing his power after turning is having superior strength to a normal vampire.

"In his bear form, unimaginably stronger than me, and in his human form, well still stronger than me but maybe not much," Emmett says with a thoughtful look as I roll my eyes at the situation. Then I slowly approach Bella, making her take a step back still nervous.

"Bells just relax, you won't hurt me and I would never hurt you. You're my sister," I say to her and slowly approach her, she relaxes a bit. Then standing in front of her I give her a familiar hug and she tenses up in the hug but then relaxes returning the hug.

"From what they were telling me humans smelled good, like good food, wolves smelled like dogs and you all smelled like bears. Though you smell like a winter breeze, fresh air, and snow," Bella says while sniffing me in the hug.

"You're the same weirdo as you were before you turned, glad you didn't change much," I say with a chuckle and she hits me in the chest, though with her full strength as she still hasn't learned to control herself. The sound of her hitting me was like a loud bang or shotgun blast and she quickly panics pushing off me and inspecting me to see if she hurt me.

"Matt! Did I hurt you?!" Bella yells and lifts up my shirt inspecting me nervously.

"Relax, I'm fine. I'm much more durable than you can imagine. Plus looks like you hurt yourself instead," I say pointing to the hand she hit me with as it is cracked from the strength behind the hit and my durability. Seeing that she begins to panic about that.

"Calm down Bella, vampires can reattach limbs in the worst case scenario. As long as they have the missing limb and enough blood to start the healing process. This is a minor injury considering everything, you just need a little more blood and your hand will be good as new in an hour or so," Edythe says taking her hand and inspecting it while handing her the blood they have down here. Calming down a bit and drinking the blood Edward hands her quickly, she turns to me.

"Damn Matt, what are you made of? I was told vampires are their strongest at the beginning of turning. Are all bears like you?" Bella says to me having relaxed and returned to her normal self.

"No not everyone is like me, I'm a special case. Though they are more durable than the wolves and stronger. You would kill a wolf easily if you knew how to fight, while a bear would be your equal in a one on one. Though that's the thing, wolves are never usually alone, but in a pack of three or more, and neither are vampires really alone, usually in pairs at least," I say explaining the very basics of strength between the there known species that they all know so far. Considering there are many types of shifters and other supernatural beings in the world.

"Makes sense I guess," Bella says with a shrug.

"I'm sure you and Edward have a lot to talk about, plus if you want an in depth discussion or knowledge of the supernatural world, ask either Carlisle or either of my grandparents. They all know a lot about the supernatural world and I'm sure would love to give you a history lesson," I say to Bella and gesture for everyone to leave the basement, giving her and Edward a moment alone.

"Yeah, maybe one day," Bella says nodding to me as we all leave the basement, giving her and Edward some alone time.

"How good is the foundation of this house?" Emmett asks me as we leave the basement and I just roll my eyes ignoring him.

"Why does that matter?" Edythe says confused and not knowing what Emmett is implying.

"You know in case they start to shake the house, it doesn't collapse on us or them," Emmett says suggestively and we all sigh at him, now Edythe is looking at him with a deadpan look.

"This is why we don't hang out as much anymore," Edythe says annoyed, and walks away from Emmett who is just laughing. Sighing I just walk back outside to finish my cigar and Jasper joins me, with Emmett quickly following us outside too.

"No seriously though, did we do the right thing?" Emmett says with some surprising seriousness in his voice once we are back outside smoking our cigars.

"That we will never know, as there are too many paths in life, and each decision we make only opens up more paths to walk down. Some decisions close off other paths permanently, like turning into a vampire, but we only know the outcome when we reach the end. Right now I believe we are still at the beginning of our paths and haven't even reached the middle," I say thinking about the fates and the many lines they control and weave. How some paths seem different, but all ultimately lead to the same outcome. Jasper nods his head agreeing with me, while Emmett is trying to understand what I said.

"Never thought you were a philosopher, guess reading as much as Jasper does you pick up on somethings," Emmett says with a shrug and puff of smoke.

"Maybe if you didn't spend all your time jerking it or working out, you could learn a thing or two too," Jasper says with his surprisingly once in awhile comebacks. I break out laughing hearing Jasper and Emmett looks completely offended.

"He's right you know, we found your hidden laptop that has only porn on it. Your hiding spot is shit too you know," I say still laughing and now Emmett seems very nervous.

"Does Rosalie know? No, if she knew I'd be castrated already, don't tell her and I'll do anything you guys want," Emmett says with desperation in his voice. Jasper just snorts in disapproval at Emmett.

"Why do you even need that much porn anyway?" I say still laughing.

"Well, it started years ago, when they first made porno movies. Then Rosalie and I started doing the things in the movies, like role play you know. From there she got bored with the role play in the pornos. Though I secretly have....have come addicted ok! I just wish we could role play like we used to and now they have all this crazy porn out there! So many different things we could do and try," Emmett explains to us, now Jasper is just staring at him in surprise and shocked expression. I too am shocked at how much time Emmett has spent on this topic and 'study'.

"Have you ever tried bringing it back up to her again? Maybe she'd be open to trying it again," I say after processing what he told me.

"I….I….No, I haven't, everytime I was going to bring it up I got distracted and forgot. Then when I go back to the computer I find more crazy things, then all things on there start to pill up and I don't think she'd be cool with half of them," Emmett says thinking this over.

"Jesus Christ," Jasper says overwhelmed with Emmett's confession.

"Well, you should give her the laptop and explain it all. Do it now or we'll do it for you, you obviously are digging yourself into a hole. The only way up is to confess, you can't keep digging deeper that's not how you get out," I say sighing and rubbing my forehead at the craziness of Emmett sometimes.

"Fuck, I guess you're right. Wish me luck," Emmett says as he goes to confess to Rosalie.

"So I put thousand down Rosalie is gonna crush his balls," Jasper says as Emmett leaves.

"I'll take that bet," I say shaking it as we continue to smoke.

"Holy Shit Emmett! What the fuck!" Rosalie yells from their room which we all hear.