Chapter 1: First story
As a child, it's normal to play outside till your mother calls you once the dinner is ready.
I once also became a child. I don't like my childhood memories but I'm glad that I have a childhood friend who's still with me now.
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First, my family is uh how should I describe it? As a child, I thought that my family is perfect that's all I can say cause I still don't know many things. All I can understand is the tactics of the game or how to play the game.
Since I was a child, maybe three or four years old? My brother starts beating me up until now. My brother and sister are just my half-siblings so maybe that's why my brother doesn't like me. At least my sister and my mother are so kind especially my mother, my superhero. Mom always works hard for us, coming home late so just the three of us left in our house. My brother and I gap is like eleven or twelve years gap. He's super strong, I experienced all kinds of beating. I still have a scar on my head from him.
The father I know as a child is the man who made me feel sick about my body. As a child, I don't know about sex. He continues raping me, maybe it started around I'm eight years old below. I don't know what that is. He made me watch porn and suck his d**k. It continues until I got my first period, even though I don't know what that is first. My mother doesn't know it maybe three days before my first she got to know about it.
It continued until I got to know what he was doing to me. I got aware of what it is, and that day I'm still sleeping with my parents so when my mother is asleep he was touching my body. I want to cry and shout but he said to me that if I said to my mother what he was doing, my mother would kill me so I keep quiet. When my parents gave me my room, I lock my door. I attach a three-padlock but when it's already midnight he starts unlocking it. I can't sleep peacefully at night because of what he's doing.
I'm always guarding myself just to watch myself so he can't unlock my padlock. I'm scared, the trauma stayed.