Chapter 114 Cancelled Wedding 1

 I woke up the next morning, I guess it was pretty late cause I could already see the sun sneaking it's way into the room. I got into the bathroom ignoring the raps from Gaius on the door. I stroded into the bathroom, to brush and bath, before getting into the closet to get dressed in one of his shirt.

I got out of the room, and headed to the formal dinning room for breakfast, I dug in and started eating. "Madam, gifts just came in from your relatives from Thailand!" Elena said trembling. I darted my gaze to her and parted my lips, "Take them upstairs Elena!" I continued eating.

"Baby!" Carie walked in and hugged me from behind, I tried to smile since it was Carie. "How are you Hazel? You left everyone shocked at how outspoken you were with Alex!" She started. "Don't speak about that man, I don't want to talk about him!" I continued eating. "So how did you settle things with Lukas, did you guys make out...?" I asked changing the conversation quickly and Carie blushed.

I felt incomplete when I couldn't find her the previous day, but it's a good thing she's here now. "We made out, you know how addictive my baby is? But that doesn't mean we're settled, I still haven't forgiven him yet!" Carie bent her head coyly staring at the food on the table. "I know Alex bailed out of the party which was totally wrong, but that doesn't mean you'd cancel your wedding!" She said meaningfully.

"I don't want a wedding party, what's the use of having one when our marriage is pointless!" "What made you change your mind? If I could remember vividly, last week you were more than happy about your wedding!" Carie asked a little perturbed.

"Last week I was foolish Carie, I was stupid to let useless, impossible imaginations fill my thoughts!" I took a sip of the juice and wiped my lips with a napkin. "You still haven't told me what brought about the change of heart?" Carie said.

"Alex ruined the party, and I thought it was cause he hated parties, but no I was wrong. He ruined my party cause of Berverly!" "What do you mean cause of Berverly?" I could feel irritation in her voice. "I saw Alex kissing her, right in front of our room. I thought it was a dream before, but when I pinched my thighs, I knew I wasn't dreaming!" I forced my tears back in as I breath out to calm the excruciating pain in my chest.

My heart felt heavy as it was not near calming down, I just tried not to cry before the stiffened Carie. "We can't possibly let them win Hazel, you need to get married to Alex!" She blurted out like a desperate person. "I don't get we're already married!" 

"I know you are, but people don't know you are!" She stated. "What's your point?" "All, I'm saying is, this wedding will make everyone around the world know you're Alex's real wife and if she does anything, people will only see her as the other woman. You're his real wife no matter what anyone says!" 

"And do you know what that makes me in less than a year? A certified 'WHORE' Carie, I can't expose myself to the world in such manner. What's the point in showing anyone these stuffs when I have less than a year to leave?" I said. "You still don't believe you have a place in this family do you?" She asked as if not wanting to here the obvious truth.

"Last night cleared all of my doubts Carie. I finally remembered what I actually was in this family. I realized I was nothing more than a replacement to his lover by your family cause they had an issue with her at that time!" "That's not true!" 

"I understand you've been my greatest cheerleader, but it's time we embrace the truth Carie. I actually let my heart run wild for the first time without using my brain. I don't want to be like my mum, I don't want to end up like her. That's why I have to be very careful!" I explained as I wiped my tear drops with the back of my hands.

Ending up like her was my greatest fear, I watched her suffer all those years till she finally fell ill, I and my aunt were her only comforters. We were her only hope, maybe my family has its curse of finding the wrong people all the time. This was one of the reasons I was never interested in the thing called love.