Miss You Dad

After My and hazz little argument.. we both get clam.. and we both go downstairs and cook lunch for us.. well today is last day we are living here.. and I want to go to see dad.. so I told her about this to her..

She said we can do after lunch.. and I am agree on this.. i don't mind in that.. the lunch go well.. after long time we both cook together and eat together.. and talk all nonsense. And laugh.. joke around.. and talk about our prank and all this stuff..

Aunt Lucy also told us about what we did when we all are kids. And laugh.. she also show us our photos.. damn.. we look so cute. And still troublemaker.. Aunt Lucy said story about all this.. how Gray come to kitchen and grab chocolates and hide to us. And run to me and hazz. And how we three of eat chocolate.. damn.. we laugh.. thinking about that.. I want to little again.. and live that day.. can I do that.. if it did.. I never want to be old..

After lunch.. like me and hazz decide we both go our rooms and get ready for meet to dad.. and I am happy that I finally going to meet him.. after long time.. I miss him.. I know I accept mom's relationship with Grayson's dad.. and I also call him dad. I don't mind for that... For me he's also my dad.. but still my biological dad is also important to me..

We both left the house.. and hazz said that she want to drive.. so I didn't said to anything to her.. I told to stop for second to flower shop.. so I can grab it for dad.. and she did what I said to her.. I get some flowers... And we both are again our own way to go..

When we reach there. Hazz told me to and meet dad. She said she will be join me after that.. and I agree with her.. maybe she want to talk with Alex.. I don't mind in that.. I get out to the car. And walk where my dad's grave is..

When i reach there.. I stood there.. and looking at dad's name.. Jake Benson.. my dad.. who's my hero.. my everything.. I know how much he loves for me.. cares for me.. he never ever get angry on me.. after giving him that trouble..

I remember when my high School teachers and principal are complete about me that how I just prank on them. And I talk with them. And skip the classes.. but still all this doing things. I always get A's in my all subjects.. well how.. study is most important to me.. and I like to do that. But I don't like the way teachers teach.. so that my problem with them. And dad know it.. when he heard complete about me.. he just ask me that did I do that. When I nodded with my head. He laugh. And tell me that how proud of he is with me that I did that.. he's always got save my back.. and Always stood my side.. but I never did that things that he didn't like it.. to hurt he's feelings...

In other side.. mom always hate that how dad spoiled me like this.. she sometimes mad at dad that why he didn't punished me.. to tell me where I am wrong.. dad also told stood that time to for me.. and that's most like about him.. but after when mom get mad to him.. than me and Dad we both go to kitchen and make mom's favorite dish for her to forgiveness.. and like she.. she's always forgive us.. and than when she ask what I did this time. And than I explain her that.. she laugh.. and told me that I am same like my dad.. my dad also like this.. and than me and Dad also join her.. and like this I love my family..

I know when dad left us.. I saw her mom.. how she broke down.. but I never leave her.. not only me.. but everyone.. we always stay with her never leave her alone so she feel lonely.. and now I am happy for her that now she has Tobias to take care of her..

I seat down there.. and lay down flowers to Dad's grave..

" Hyy Dad.. i am back again.." I said and smile.. and I know my voice already crack.

" And I am also leaving tomorrow.. but i just can leave it like that.. without seeing you.. " i said..

" I missed you dad.. " and like this tears fall out in my eyes..

" I know.. I know that you don't like it when I cry.. but dad still.. I just .. forget it.. everything is going to be fine.. mom has Tobias.. I call him dad.. he's nice person.. and he is good take Caring of mother.. and i can see mom like this.. I know she still love you.. but still.. she's nothing without you.. and somewhere I see tobias are with her.. when she feel Alone.. and you know he also want love.. after gray mom gone. He's also alone.. and after long time they both are happy with each other.they find there happiness with each other so why not. So I can't help it.. " I told.. and wipe my tears..

" Gray's had twins.. can you believe that's he's now father. And yesterday Bobby come to me.. and apologize to me.. I forgive her. Like you said.. when people know there mistake and they really want to change.. give them chance. And forgive them. And like you said. I did this.. I forgive her long time ago.. but she feel guilty.. and I don't like it.. but now we both are in good terms.. " I said to dad..

" And good news.. our little hazz. She's going to married.. and also she's pregnant with 3 weeks child. Can you believe this.. our little haz.. " i said and laugh..

" The wedding is in Vegas.. like she told us that she want to married in Vegas.. I am so happy for her.. " i said.

" And about me.. well let me tell you. I also happy.. I AM doing well in my business.. and I get success in that.. Tobias also helping me out for it.. he's like you dad.. the father finger.. Always stay by my side.. when mom force me to settle down.. he's just like you.. but still.. he's not you dad.. I still miss you dad.. " I said. And again cry out loud..

" I love you so much Dad.. " i said.. and seat there.. little bit... I didn't cried.. but still stay there.. seating there talking with Dad.. I feel great.. I feel like I am with my dad.. and I am sharing things. Like we used to do..

" Bella.." I hear hazz voice.. I wipe my tears. And turn around and look at her. And smile..

" Hyy I am done.. I was about to come.." I told her. And get up on my feet..

" It's oky Bell.." she said to me.. and come to me and hug me..

" I know you miss him.." she said to me. And I didn't stop. And cry her in her arm.. hugging her tightly..

" It's hurt hazz.." i told her..

" Shhh.. it's oky.. you are going to be oky.. I know you are strong person.." she said to me.. and rub my back to clam me.. and after flow minutes later I clam down..

" If you oky.. than we should go.." hazz said to me.. and I broke the hug.. and she wipe my tears. I nodded with my head. And we both leave the place..

Before we leave.. I once again turn to dad grave and look at him.. I never had guts to tell him good bye.. never in my like.. because I know that I will come here again.. I will meet him again.. I know i can leave this city and every leave behind for new start. But still I will back again.. for reason.. for anything for that.. but I still come back back.. this is my hometown.. and that we never leave and never forget about it..

Me and hazz both leave the place.. it's already night.. so we didn't stop anywhere.. we straight go to house.. plus everyone is worry about us that where did we go.. and most importantly hazz is pregnant.. we can't just take risk for that..

When we reach home.. aunt Lucy and uncle jhon there already there. And Alex come downstairs to us.. he's staying in guest room. And than they know that we both are arrived.. so we straight go to the dining room and start to eat food .

" So tomorrow when we are going to go for Vegas..." Aunt Lucy ask..

" We are leaving in evening 5 o'clock in to here.. and it's 11 hours flight.. we probably reach there in dinner time.. " Alex said to us.. and we all are nodded.

11 hours travel.. thinking about it.. I remember my last encounter with that draw boy.. what he did in flight. And how he seduce me. And make me hot.. after that I didn't hear about him.. I mean i didn't even know that why I have to think about it. And why the hell I am thinking about it all of suddan.. we just meet there by chance. It's not that we will meet again.. so stop thinking about that asshole..

" Bella.. can you hear me.." hazz said. And I just break my thous..

" Sorry I just zone out.. so what you are talking about .." i said to her. And eat my food.

" I was telling that after yesterday. We are going to be to bussy.. plus we are going to be explore there. Like we always do... " She said to me.. and I smile at her. And nodded with my head..

" We will.. do you think what you have to do.. any plans.. I mean places we can go and enjoy hmmm" i ask her.

" Yeahh I made research.. and it's my dream Bella.. so I know where we have to go.. and where not.. it's just that I am spend all days with you and Alex.. " she said to me with happy tone..

" It's just not us.. I mean Grayson and Bobby also join us.. plus  Shawn and Alex cousin also coming this time and also his friends to.. I mean we all are going in big groupi.. " she said and I smile at her..

" Than it's cool. I thought I have to be guys third wheel here.. " i Joke around.. and they laugh.

" Ohh come.. it's not going to happen.. how much I engage with Alex.. but for me you are still my first choice.. " she said to me and wink at me.. and Alex face drop..

" Baby.. " Alex want to said. But he didn't said to her. When hazz look at her. She just nodded. And like this I see that how he's whipped in little finger.. I am happy for that looking at this..

" Chill Alex.. I will give to guys privacy time to time.. so you don't hate me for that.. " i told them.

" See she's not like you.. learn something to her.." hazz said. And me Aunt Lucy and uncle jhon laugh at her. And Alex.. Alex got embarrass fir that..

" Don't do with the poor boy.." Aunt Lucy said to haz..

" Mom you supposed to be my side.. not he's.." hazz argue.. damn her hormones.

" He's also like my son.. so shut up.. don't mess with him.." aunt Lucy said. And Alex this time control he's laugh. And smrik at hazz..

" Okk guys.. desert time.." I quickly change the topic.. and hazz lighten up.. and like this her mind divert to the food..

After dinner.. I went to my room. I didn't check my cell phone and anything.. I have to see if everything is okay or not..

I open my laptop.. and started to my work.. and see there is lots of panding files. That I have to clear it out.. and also see there any new updates.. I also see that how much work done.. it's just two days. And still my thing about that how fast will be finished this work...

I started drawing the designs.. and also searche some of for to the mall.. and also I see there is lots of mail that. I didn't check..

I see there is some of people are want to work with me... And some of people are selling some shops.. and some of clubs. And hotels.. I have that mails. And I also get contact there.. Tomorrow i will be going to the mail them. And talk about with them.. I also see I had money in my back account..

Every weeks. I got money in my account.. whom I just savee give half of it to mom and half of I take to use it or invest it.. this time I am not with mom.. so when I get chance I will give her money.. 

After that.. I close the laptop.. and get warm shower.. so I can sleep well.. when I get in shower.. I close my eyes. And get relax.. and than again.. my mind think about him.. they way he give her pleasure.. it's make me hot in shower.. I really want to stop thinking about him..

Why I suddantly think about him.. he is last person so think about it.. i also feel that he's now fucking some girl for himself enjoy the ride.. he don't care who's the girl.. what he do.. he just know one thing. How to fuck her. And I know right now he's doing it..

Whatever he do.. why the fuck I  care. And thinking about him.. he's nothing to me.. he's just fuck boy.. and popular  famous play boy.. nothing else.. there is nothing special about it.. so I have to stop think about him..

I get out the shower. And wear short night wear. And  see last time check the time. And close my eyes and sleep...

Tomorrow going to be long day.. like just today go.. but whatever is that.. all gose well.. i don't want any tanstion.. or any problem.. I just want to enjoy this vacation.. and enjoy hazz wedding..