Unexpected

I was there nearly a month. Everything was begining to get better. I was in therapy both private and group. I was taking different types of classes. Learning and growing as a person and a mom. I was not in no way ready to leave but I knew I was making progress. I got to meet some really cool people while in the program. On both the single side and the family side. At this time I was in a relationship with a girl named Trace. We liked each other a lot when we were younger but I moved away. Long before we ever made it to anything more than friends. I was too afraid because I wasn't sure. I knew liking the same sex was wrong. So I did my best to ignore my feelings. When I moved back with my family. I just let our friendship end. My that I didn't care. I just didn't want to hold onto something I believed would hurt me. So I focused hard on my now husband. We ended up not connecting. We went our own way again. On a positive note. Which brings us back to the original conversation. My mother in law and her kids ended up in the same program. Specifically because of me. She wanted me to meet and get the chance to know my brothers and sisters on my fathers side. We were getting along. Then I met this guy named Kimo. At first we were a whole happy family. I knew he wasn't the cream of the crop but he was mine. No strings attatched. We were moving a bit fast though. At first it was going so smoothly. Then my mother in law got jealous. I started spending more time with his family. Calling his mom, mom. Having family dinners with his family. Having family outings with his family. I'd bring my siblings along and invited her. She just kept refusing so I stopped trying with her. Then she started creating problems between myself and Kimo. Telling him I was cheating and doing things I wasn't doing. Eventually it got so bad he started being mean to me. Always accusing me of going out to screw around. At this time the only time I went out was appointments and work. We started fighting more. He began getting physical with me. Then it got really bad. He punched me, choked me and a few other things while my kids were at school. That evening I caught him using my mother in laws phone. He was talking to another girl. So I broke it off with him. I kicked him out. I didn't care if he had nowhere to go. I was not going to stay in a relationship that was abusive for me or my kids. We were together nearly an entire year. Thankfully his true colors began to show long before it got really serious. Then about a month and a half later my period was missed. I assumed it was from stress and that it was just running late. I had a job interview. I needed to focus. I got dressed and headed out. I got the job on the spot. At the school academy of science k-12. It was extremely hot and I missed the bus. So I had to walk back to the program. Halfway there I ended up fainting. When I woke I was in the hospital. Apparently my body gave out. Oh and I was 2 months and about 1 week pregnant. I decided not to tell anyone. Since the doctor told me there's a chance the babies wouldn't make it. They were pretty low lining. Then on my way home I saw him with his ex. Pain struck my heart. I held my head up high and just kept going. I began gaining weight and I started to show.