After the future Kahn, the Martial Emperor, revealed the reason he was ashamed to be associated with his original identity as Elric, mainly due to him not changing and nearly wasting his new life in the earlier years unlike the current Kahn, the latter understood how starkly different their lives were despite being the same person.
The future Kahn spoke like a defeated man…
"Even after coming to Vantrea, I did not change much from my old self as Elric.
I was a loner even here and did not rely on others. This made things difficult for me and instead of learning useful skills and crafts such as Blacksmithing, Artficing, Magic, and Combat Techniques…
I struggled to survive like every normal inhabitant of Vantrea for the first 5 years even with my divine abilities.