Me

After a few hours of attempting to sense the essence of the heavens and the earth, unable to cultivate, I stood up stretching to fine Rose sitting on her back steps staring at me.

"Dinner is ready whenever you are @*$#@&." Rose said

"Huh? Wh...at did you say.." as my vision went black.

Thrust into a realm of darkness devoid of anything just loneliness and nothing..

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'Am I Dead again?

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'No.. I don't think so.. I was meditating then I saw... Hazel? No it wasn't her.. she's dead.. long dead.. more than 30 years by now... '

A light suddenly flashed blinding me, when my eyes finally normalized I was watching myself walking down the busy streets of New York city on Earth,

'Ah this is when I last saw her alive.'

A young man in his younger 20s short curly black hair, sullen brown eyes that looked like he had missed several nights of sleep, he wore a black leather jacket and torn jeans a ringing emitted from his pocket, "Fuck.. I'm late.. I don't know why I'm even going to this stupid reunion in the first place.." The young man said to no one in particular as he walked.

Horns blaring and sounds of people shouting as they push their way towards their destinations.

During his journey a few young men should checked the young man causing him to fall, "Ey yo watch it G." Said one of the two men.

"You hit me though.. sorry my bad..." The young man mumbled as he tried to stand up and continued towards his old school.

Upon arriving I decided flip up my hoodie and stick to the back of the gymnasium. Seeing my old school mates successful and married made me depressed and almost as soon as I arrived I decided to go out for some fresh air. Taking out a cigarette, lighting it and taking a long draw.

"Hey why didn't you come say hi Jeremy?" I turned to see a beautiful woman with her hands on her hips looking at me warmly.

"Hazel? Is that you? Sorry.. I didn't think you would come so something like this.."

"Pot kettle Jeremy, I only came since there was a chance you would show up." Hazel said.

Standing up I walked over to her, "You look amazing Hazel.. it's been almost 10 years since graduation... since you went to that prestigious university overseas.." I said slightly sad remembering those times.

"I could have been better.. I sorta wish I stayed but I had to get out to see the world ya know?" Hazel Said as we sat down on the bleachers.

"Nah.. not really.. I couldn't be brave and leave like you did.. but why come back.. I mean it's great to see you again.. but I figured you'd be a top model by now." I said as I took a draw from my cigarette.

"Unfortunately my mother is sick so I decided to move back in with my parents.. to be the good daughter... putting my life on hold for the family." She said with a frown.

After a small silence

"So Jer.. how have you been?"

"Eh.. I haven't tried to hurt myself again if that's what you mean.."

'Ah.. I remember when I lived on earth, in that town I always felt like an outcast, out of place.. I felt my life was backwards.. I felt so alone.. my parents abandoned me when I was young.. I never searched for them.. never wanted to. I had no siblings, no friends other than Hazel.. but just before we entered high-school she became distant, in our second year of high-school I tried to confess to her but she rejected me and being weak minded and broken I tried to take my own life.. until the day of my death as Jeremy Kest I had those scares to remind me of my failed attempt.. when I woke in the hospital Hazel was there.. she told me she couldn't be with me but remained my friend.. after that day she spent more time with me, until we graduated and she left New York to study in Paris or something.

I continued, "No... I'm I'm fine Hazel." Rubbing my arm.

She smiled though I could feel something hurt in her eyes, "Gimme your phone number let's get a drink soon and hang out like we used to."

"Alright.." a small smile grew on my face as I give her my number.

"Hey Jer.. do you ever feel like you weren't born in the right body?"

"Yeah.. I feel that.. but you are beautiful.. why would you want to change that?" I was slightly taken aback by her question.

She seemed to hesitate, "Its just hard Jer.. that's all... anyways come in dance with me."

"What? Dance? You know I have two left feet.."

"Pleaseee." Hazel pleaded

I put out my cigarette and finally followed her back inside, she seemed happy, she definitely was able to act.

'We danced until the party ended for once I didn't care about other people's gazes, somehow she was able to make me forget my worries about my shitty life.. unbeknownst to me her life was just as bad if not worse.. I never got to meet up with her.. we never saw each other after that day.. a few days later she took her own life.. drug overdose I was a wreck.. I drank, slept and cried for weeks after that... years later I found the meaning to the question she had awoken my soul.. I was midway through the process of gender transformation I accept myself for the most part.'

'A few years later Hazel's father was arrested after he was found guilty of sexually assaulting his daughter for years.. I was angry.. I was on the way to visit Hazel's grave when I died.. stabbed by a man who was in opposition to transitioned people.

A bight light enveloped everything, "Ugh.. where am I.. who am I.."

"Hazel darling you passed out in my backyard yesterday I brought you to my bed to rest." Rose's voice spoke as my vision cleared.

"Halzel... right.. I remember everything now.. I had forgotten who I was.. or who I used to be.."

Sitting up in the bed I turned to look at Rose's beautiful face.

"Rose my name isn't Hazel." I admitted.

"The moment I stepped from the teleportation array you reminded me of a dear friend that I had forgotten, thank you and also I'm sorry." As our eyes met

"Could you tell me your name then? In all honesty you actually remind me of a long lost friend as well." Rose said taking my hand.

I smiled slightly before turing to her with a resolute face, "My name is Lithia."

'I am Lithia Eventyde, Jeremy Kest is dead, Hazel is dead.'

"Oh well its a pleasure to meet you again truly Miss Lithia.