Chapter 73: IS ANY FAMILY NORMAL?: MAGGIE
After the court hearing I had a hundred conflicting feelings swimming in my head. Shock, denial, and disbelief were the ones that consistently repeated at the news we heard from the court. The day the emails arrived replayed over and over, in particular my reaction to the possibility of Noah's relationship to Molly.
When the judge disclosed the results, I may have looked quiet and calm - I had no choice except to portray that exterior for Noah's sake, but inside my head I had hundreds of unanswered questions: images of Shona at various stages of her pregnancy, at Molly's birth, and ever since then. For years I had pressed her about who the father was, and every time Shona had responded with, "What does it matter? He'd probably deny her anyway, and I don't want her growing up feeling rejected."