Chapter 14

Rey's POVMy eyes flash open. I turn quickly to see a woman who sits next to me. She looks to be rather short and older.

"Where am I?" I ask frantically. I can't remember anything.  

"You're at the resistance base." The woman says, her voice weak and shaky. She seems to know exactly what I'm thinking.

"I know you can't remember much," She says displaying an empty smile. "It's a side effect from the medicine we gave you."

"What did you give me?" I demand, sitting up and looking around.

She winces at my words and looks down at the floor.

"Just something to clam you down. Your memory should come back soon."

"Why did I need to be calmed down?" I ask, ready to run.

"My son-" She pauses, closing her eyes tightly. "Ben left you here." She looks as if she might fall apart. Everything seems to be crumbling around me. Images flash through my mind.

"Ben," I gasp out. My stomach flips and I start to feel sick again. I look up at the woman, incapable to speak.

My head falls into my hands and I feel overcome with emotion again. She wraps her arms around me.

"I know you don't want to talk about it," She says whispering. "I don't know what happened between you two, but as soon as you want to talk about it please come to me. We need to get as much information as we can get." I look up at her angrily tears falling.

But then remember she is a general. I can't necessarily blame her. It's her job. Still, I can't help but feel like she doesn't have the best intentions.

I just hug her back tightly.

"I want my son back." She says, her voice cracking. ______________________________Finn's POVI stand out side of Rey's room with a tray of food in my hands. My hands shake nervously. I look down on the food and take a deep breathe.

I don't know what I'm supposed to do. She hasn't told me anything. I want to help her but she won't let me. 

This is all fault. . My fingers grip the tray roughly. He hurt the only person who has ever really cared about me.

I compose myself and knock on the door.

I wait for what seems like forever until the door creaks open. Rey's head peeks through.

Her eyes are red and tear stains run down her cheeks.

"Can I come in?" I ask, looking at her sympathetically. 

She swallows hard and looks down on the floor, as if contemplating. She moves over and let's me through. I look around the room, analyzing the mess it is. I set down her tray of food and pick up the other one, that hasn't been touched.

"Talk to me," I sigh. "Please."

"There isn't much to say." She spits.

"Please. At least tell me what happened." I go to reach for her hand but she recoils and steps back.

"You really want to know what happened?" She asks angrily.

I nod and tilt my head, unsure if that was right answer.

"Ben-" She closes her eyes tightly, as if pained. "Kylo and I fell in love. I love him, Finn. I finally saw him break through but it was all too much and he left me. I pushed him too hard." She clenches her fists and her jaw tightens. I start to feel sick. I can't help but feel hurt. She is with the man that tired to kill me. She said it herself, right before the battle, that he was a monster. That scum brainwashed Rey- that's what had to have happened... Right?

"Goddammit! I can't even think straight!" She yells. She runs her hands through her hair.I am beginning to think that Ren's anger rubbed off on her.

"Rey, I can help. Just let me." I step forward to her but again she backs up, more forcefully this time.

"No, Finn. You really can't. Just please leave. I can't do this right now." Her eyes start filling with tears. As much as I want to stay I decide not to go against her. I have a feeling I'd make it worse anyways.

I look back at her.

"Please come to me when you're ready to talk." I plea.

She doesn't say anything and closes the door.

I press my head against the door and sigh.

I'll get that sick bastard for what he did to Rey. _____________________________Rey's POVI let the scolding hot water run down my body. The water seems like tiny silver bullets shooting past my face. I push my face into the water. Stinging streams of water run down and my hair gets dragged into my face.

I feel numb. I feel

My eyes close and a memory plays out in my head.

My eyes flash open. Again, I feel sick. I can't get him out of my mind. It's haunting me. Every time I try to rest, a memory floods my mind. Thoughts spin around in my head like a sand storm.  

He hates me. He wanted to cause me pain and it's all my fault for playing along. This was his plan all along- it had to have been. He wouldn't have done this if he actually loved me. He told me he was scared of hurting me but that's what he did. In the worst way possible.

I feel completely drained of energy- and life. All I want to do is sleep and not have to wake up. But sleeping would require dreaming and I can't do that because I know be there. ________________________________

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