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"Taste of freedom without fighting back is useless."

8 Year Old Jungkook's POV 

I looked desperately towards the main door just to see a slight glimpse of my beloved dad as time was passing by he felt tired as I was about to give up the door opened slowly and a young boy with broad shoulders entered with a drunk wasted man on his back the little boy looked at his dad helpless drunk state with his doe eyes "Appa your back!" I ran towards my dad with a big bunny smile for a warm hug but halted on my way after hearing my father words "Go and pack up your things. Seok Jin will take you back with him tomorrow." 

I looked at my dad then at the young man who was standing beside my dad with a questionable expression and my dad noticed it and continued "I have being assigned next mission from tomorrow. So you will live with your elder brother again." dad looked at the young man with broad shoulders "SeokJin you can leave now but be back tomorrow" Jin looked at his uncle then at his son and nodded "Alright uncle. Good night." and he walked out. 

"But dad- didn't you came home yesterday itself?!" "I did and now I need to go again." dad said in a hoarse voice as he loses his tie "Appa you promised me that you will be at my sports day! You will watch me getting gold medal, did you forgot?!" I clunched my hands in fist from anger "I haven't forgotten anything I remember but next time." father settled on the couch "You said that last time as well appa. You promised me last time too and broke it."

His dad looks at his son and nods simply "Sorry. Next time I am busy tomorrow fine?! Now go sleep."

"Why can't you skip your mission for tomorrow dad? Please don't go tomorrow" I held dad's hand and asked in a pleaded tone "Jungkook tyna understand your appa. Missions are important to me so are you. Who do you think I am doing this all for huh?" father crouched to my level and held my fragile face in his rough hands "I don't know-" I replied while covering my nose as alchohal smells comes out from dad mouth making dad chuckles at my behavior "It's for you. I am completing missions for you so I can have money and make you study in best university. Get you out of this living hell."

"Appa-" I helds dad's huge hands in my small ones and looked at dad "Appa there's still time for me to go university. Don't stress up from now on." I caresses dad's hand and looks at him with puppy eyes "My dear son you don't understand but time flies faster then anything. In some few years you will start your university so I need to make future plans." 

"Appa trust me I don't want your money. I will be fine studying in a normal university. Right now I want you Appa. I want to spend my time on you. I need you Appa. I need my dad not the money." I tried to make dad understand but fails as I notice disappoint on dad face "Jungkook." dad states in a strict tone and stands up abruptly "Don't you ever try to understand me?! I am doing this for your future! I want to give you everything I never had still your unhappy! How ungrateful you are Jungkook!"

"You are the one who never understand dad. You never was capable to understand me nor mom! You are the reason I lost my mom atleast she used to understand me but you snatch away her from me!" I shouted in a angry tone at dad done by dads behavior "Don't you dare raise your voice at me Jeon Jungkook! I ain't responsible for your mom's death I said you earlier to not bring up the topic. Go back to your room."

"No dad you're the reason mom died. She just wanted your time like how I do right now! She wanted to spend her last moment of life with you! She didn't wanted to you to worry about her so she never stated about her cancer to you! I saw her crying late at night because of you! You didn't spend your time with her when she begged you to! You are the one to blame you're the reason my mom died! You're a murderer-" as he was about to finish the sentence he received a harsh tight slap on his face from his enraged dad. 

"I dare you to utter a word more about your so called mom and I will make sure you face the devil I am resisting within myself." father stated in a threatening tone while clenching on his fist which send down cold shivers down little Jungkook's spine

I looked back at dad with teary and hatred eyes "I hate you. I hope you just die at your this mission and never come back to show me your irritating face!" I shouted and ran back to my room ignoring father screams calling him back and locked himself in my room quickly. 

The next morning I walked down while rubbing my eyes just to find dad already left for the mission which hurted me deep down, I knew what I said last night was wrong but I just wanted to make dad stay. As I was about to cry I heard a familiar voice from behind "Jungkookah?" I turned around just to find my cousin brother Seok Jin Kim with a apron and a spatula in his hand "Jin hyung?"

"Yes Jungkook it's me Jin. I packed your clothes come and have breakfast then we can leave to my house, my mom and dad are waiting for you!" Jin smiles at him "When dad left?" I asked ignoring Jin brother's words "Uncle? I don't know when I came I didn't found him in the house. Maybe he left at night for the mission himself? Don't worry uncle must have informed dad. You can ask my dad once we go my home okay?!" Jin looks at me for a happy response but earns a small nod in return. 

Six months passed. It's been six month since Jungkook's dad left for the mission as always there was no calls or letter from him this time as well. His dad left the night he had argument with Jungkook because he somehow felt guilty for hitting his son for the first time he didn't knew what to do so leaving before he wakes up was the best option for him. 

Jin drove Jungkook to his home and Jungkook got along with Jin's parents as they were friendly and fond of Jungkook adorable face. Few months passed by. Today is 1st September. Jungkook's birthday. He turned 9 this year. He doesn't likes to celebrate birthday so there was no celebration going on. It was a normal day. Jin was studying and his parents were out for work while Jungkook was playing video games for two hours now. As it was his birthday today he didn't wished to study and everyone agreed on it after all he doesn't wish for more. 

Jungkook's dad never called or messaged him since that day though Jungkook was used to it but sometimes he would feel hurt but as his appearance to others was always fearless he would remain his composure and never show them his broken side as he would escape the situation someway. 

"Yes! Yes! Yaaaaay" I screamed in a happy tone as I won the match for the 10th time but as I was about to do his happy dance I received a pillow which landed straight on my face from Jin brother "Calm down Jungkook don't forget I am studying still." Jin said in a demanding tone "Come on brother lemme have fun just for today after all it's my birthday." I looked at Jin who was busy reading recipe book "Bro make me my favorite food once you're done reading your recipe novel." "Don't you think your being quite demanding today?" Jin said still his eyes fixed on the recipe book "You're no fun man. I'mma just continue the game." rolling my eyes from focused Jin I started to play my favorite game again when then the both young men heard telephone ringing downstairs. 

"Jungkook could you go and receive the call downstairs?!" Jin asked flipping the page of the recipe book "No I can't or I'mma lose the almost winning game! Please accept the call instead of me!" I said fully focused on the screen "How will it feel if I unplug the main switch of your gaming computer right now?!" Jin brother stated making me get up from my seat quickly "You're so unfair to me." Jungkook whined and jogged downstairs receiving the call.

"Who is this?" I asked while fiddling with the telephone wires "Am I talking to Mr. Jeon relative right now?" a unknown deep voice answered from the other side "Eh- yes you are. I am Mr. Jeon's son. Who are you tho?!" "Son? Oh my. I never knew he had a son. Interesting." hearing the response from other side I could feel the man smirking but shrugged it off "Excuse me if you have no work then I am hanging up." I said in a frustrating tone "Work? Ofcourse I have news for you but may I know your name Mr. Jeon's son? Jungkook could feel the smirk again but decided to continue it anyway "It goes with Jeon Jungkook."

"Jeon Jungkook? I see. Well we are sorry to inform you that you're dad is not anymore in the world." words stuck at my throat I didn't knew what to say how to say but I gathered my courage "It's a prank call right?" "Wish it would have been a prank call but unfortunately it's not. We can't find the body yet. I am talking from the agency your dad works for. He died during a mission. We are sorry for the loss." 

Everything seems to pause for a second for Jungkook, he felt numb and couldn't stand a bit anymore longer. He fell hard on his knees still processing the information he just got. 

Just then a voice inside my head ran over "I hate you. I hope you just die at your this mission and never come back to show me your irritating face!" yes the last ever words he said to his dad. It came true? His dad is never coming back? He bid his last unexpected to his dad so harshly and cruely?!

"It's been 30 minutes now. Where is Jungkook? Why he didn't come back-? What if it was dad's call and he gave work to Jungkook that kid can't do a single work." mentally sighing Jin stood up and walked downstairs towards telephone while calling Jungkook's name but didn't got any response. Until he found him sitting lifelessly on his knees he was about to call his name again when he fell down unconscious as he ran towards him "Jungkookah-! What's wrong?! Hang on I will call eomma and appa." those were the last word Jungkook heard before falling into complete darkness and silence

"Don't worry Mr. and Mrs. Kim the little boy must have been startled due to some unexpected news and fainted. There's nothing to worry about it." the doctor stated to the worried couple when a nurse walked out of the patient room "Sir, the boy have gained consciousness the guardians can meet their son." 

I looked at ceiling blank nothing was there I could think off. I wanted to scream but looks like I lost my voice suddenly, I wanted to cry but my tears seems to dry up, I felt so much pain inside but it wasn't showing up, why? Does God have to be this heartless to me?

I turned my head facing the door when uncle and aunt along with Jin brother entered "My gosh Kook I am glad your fine. You scared me good this time I swear." Jin said dramatically holding his chest and walked to the bed "Really Kook. What happened to you that you fainted? Did you lost your game by any chance?" Mr. Kim uttered controlling his laugh "Appa left me." Jungkook said in a dry voice "These pranks don't work Kook. Better luck next time."

Little Jungkook chuckled painfully "How I wish it to be a sick prank but aunt unfortunately your brother isn't alive anymore." Silence. There was a complete silence for a minute but suddenly Mr. Kim got message "What rubbish Jungkook?! Do you even know what your talking about" Mrs. Kim looks at Jungkook disappointed but gets shock when her husband utters "Honey! He's right- Agency messaged me right now-" Mr. Kim looked at his wife with a heartbroken gaze "his body isn't found yet- he died during the mission-"

Jin was quite quick to catch his mother in his arms from collapsing on the floor "Mom- are you okay?" he caressed his mom's back who was already in tears after hearing loss of her favorite brother "I told him to quit those dangerous works but he never listened to me-" Mrs. Kim utters in between crying bitterly she loved her brother alot and always prayed for his health but not everything goes the way people want right?