Stop loving Paul?
Ivy began to digest the sentence with difficulty while breastfeeding Derion. She never thought about stopping loving Paul. But she had almost managed not to need Paul by her side because having Theodoric by her side had made her more than enough.
Ivy didn't even want to meet Paul with the intention that she didn't really express her feelings for Paul. Besides that, she only wanted to focus on Theodoric.
But since that incident, feelings for Paul have grown stronger. Like playing tug of war. But when Theodoric said he would punish her until she stopped loving Paul, Ivy didn't know whether she could or not.
Being watched by her husband while breastfeeding Derion while she too was thinking about Theodoric's words, made Ivy feel embarrassed.
Between being afraid to start a conversation and being embarrassed because indirectly, her husband paid attention to the exposed parts of her body to breastfeed her son.