Broken

Rizu POV

"Mom who's that?" I say looking at a picture of mom with a man wearing a white uniform. Mom looks down at me and smiles as she pats my head. "That's your father." she says. I tippy toe up to get a closer look to the picture and take hold of it. Once I grabbed onto it and used both of my hands to hold it carefully.

I look down seeing this man who looks built and strong. We wore a white hat that said marines on it and had black hair with piercing grey eyes. I walked over to a mirror in my room and stared at myself. I looked back down at the picture seeing that I had his eyes and hair, along with some other features that blended in with the woman next to him in the picture, my mother.

She had light brown hair with a fair face that showed happiness. She has shinning brown hazel eyes and plump lips and she was lean and skinny. My mother was a beauty from what many in the town had called her.

I looked back up into the mirror having my reflection stare back at me and I trace my face with my hand and smile. "I look more like mom though!" I say happily coming out of my room to hug her leg. Mom chuckles at me and picks me up. "Of course, your my cute daughter! But you still have qualities of your father~" Mother cooes to me. I giggle at that and she takes the picture out of my hand and places it back down.

Mom sits down at the table with me in her lap. I move around and look up at her. "Mom?" I ask her and she looks down at me as she hums and pats my hair. "If he is my father than why isn't he here?" I ask and she stops patting my head. She looks down at me and gives a small smile. "Rizu, your father is a busy man. He's a marine and has lots of work. He hasn't met you yet and you haven't either so when he does come home, it'll be a surprise!" she says as she looks out the window.

I nod my head and snuggle into her hold. "M'kay! I can't wait to meet him!" I say and gently fall to sleep.

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The scene changes.

"Mom!" I yell as I see her on the floor. She looks up at me wearily and smiles gently. "Oh Rizu." She says and tries to get up off the floor. I rush to her and help her get up and guide her to the bed. "Mom, you shouldn't be getting out of bed. The doctor said that you should rest." I say and she nods her head and lays back down.

"Sorry Rizu...." Mom says gently to me and pats my head. I shake my head. "There's nothing to be sorry for." I say as I hold her hand. She chuckles a little bit and takes her other hand to cup my face. "There is....I'm sorry that you couldn't get to meet your father. I tried to get him to come home and I'm sorry that you have to take care of me now." She says as she coughs.

My eyes widen and I rush over to the counter taking out the medicine and a glass of water. I come back and place it at her bed side as I help her sit up. "Mom, you need to take this." I say as I place the medicine in her mouth and pass her the cup of water. She takes it and passes the cup back. "Thank you." She says as she lays back down.

I place the cup down on the night stand and sit next to her. Mom looks over at me and smiles as she lifts her hand to pat my head. "Rizu." she calls out to me. I look up at her face. "Rizu, if something goes wrong I want you to stay strong and remember all the things I've told you before." she reminds me as she looks over at the picture frame of her and my father.

I nod my head and hold her hand tighter. "Yes, mom. I'll stay strong and I'll become a good person and do all the things that you taught me. So don't worry I'll become strong and one day I'll see him so don't worry." I say referring to my father.

She looks over at me and smiles. "Thank you Rizu and I love you." she says as the scene changes yet again.

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"Mom!!!" I cry as I hug onto her cold body. I cry harder and the house feels as if has dropped a couple degrees. "Mom..." I say before I fall asleep and fall to the floor.

"Rizu! Rachael!" the doctor calls out as he enters the house and sees his patient pale and the daughter on the floor. He drops his medical kit and walks over to the bed and pulls a white handkerchief over her face. "I'm sorry." he says as he picks me up.

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I stand out in the rain where my mother's grave is. I stare blankly at the gravestone and tears come out. I continue to stand out in the rain and I soon hear footsteps. "Are you Rizu D. Tamashiro?" I hear a stern and gruff voice. I turn my head towards the voice seeing a large body and look up.

I see this built man wearing a white uniform and a marine hat. I squint my eyes as the rain continues to pour down and lightning strikes where I get a view of his face. My eyes widen and a memory flashes through my mind. "Father?" I mumble out and his eyes widen for a second and turns back to his stern look.

He then turns his attention to the gravestone that I was in front of. He reads it to myself scanning the stone. 'Hear lies, Rachael D. Tamashiro. A strong woman who became a beloved Mother.'

I stare at this man and he looks back at me as he clenches his hand. "Rizu." he says and I nod my head. "Yes?" I say and he sternly looks at me. "Grab your stuff. We're leaving." he says as he starts to walk away. My eyes widen and I look back at my mother's grave stone. "Mother...." I say being filled full of emotions, not sure of what to think of this. 'Was this my father? Why did I meet him now when your...Why didn't he look upset? Didn't you love each other? Why? WHY?' I ask myself.

"WHY?!"

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I jolt up in my bed and pant out, as a cold sweat covers me. I cover my face with my eyes and feel that tears had started streaming down my face.

I sit there in bed and look out the window seeing that the sun would be setting soon. I wipe my tears and calm myself down. I sigh out as I compose myself and stand up. "I need some air." I tell myself as I grab my mask and head out of my room to go to the dock to watch the ocean.

As I walk out of the building some men who are on duty pass by me and walk to their spots. I continue to walk farther where it's empty and quiet. As I find the spot I sit down and look at the sky and seas seeing the sunset.

I take a deep breath in and out calming myself down from my dreams. I sit there for a while enjoying the sun till it goes down.

I look up at the sky looking at all the stars. I close my eyes and relax even more. As I open my eyes moments later I get up and turn around.

I widen my eyes as soon as I see a figure in front of me now.

'Slap!'

I blink and touch my face with the mask on. I look up and see him....Sakazuki. His figure looms over my with a pissed off expression. "You." he says sternly at me as he looks down at me in disgust.

My eyes widen even further and my breathing picks up. 'What? What is he doing here?!' I question to myself.

"I told you, not to get me involved with you. Much less call me father. I got called in by Sengoku asking me about you and my plans. I don't need to be questioned much less bothered by my former mentor as well. I had already been questioned and been through enough because of the buster call and yet I come back to also hear about you." He tells to me with clenched fists.

My hands start to shake and my brain keeps telling me to keep it together. I try to stand tall and take his words.

"Your not my daughter and I will never consider you one." Sakazuki spats.

'Crack!' my chest suddenly feels heavier and it got harder to breath. "Get that through that head of yours! I didn't need that woman to give birth to you and cause me trouble. But since your already here and I went through all the trouble to bring you here, you might as well become a marine and bring absolute justice. I don't need a weakling and troublesome person like you to become a high ranking soldier. You disgust me." Sakazuki spits out at me.

'Crack!' My breathing becomes rigid and I start to shake. He glares and gives me that same look. After that spat he turns around and heads off. I fall to the ground and watch him walk away. His figure gets slowly smaller and smaller. As soon as I don't see him anymore and is out of sight, I fall down to my knees.

'CRACK!' I lean my body over my knees and start shaking all over and tears start to pour out. 'Not my daughter, never my daughter.' His words start spinning around in my head. 'Damn woman, never give birth to me.' I tug at my hair and push myself deeper onto the floor. 'Disgusting....'

I slowly let go of my hair and slowly unravel myself. 'Weak..Troublesome.....' I think and look down at my hands. "Am I?" I ask myself and I say it again while clenching my hands. "Am I really?" I say again and my tears come out harder.

A vision of my mother pops up in my mind. "Mom...Do you think what he did was absolute justice? When you told me about justice and what he and the marines stand for.....It wasn't what he did." I tell her and take off my mask to look up at the sky.

"Do you think I'm weak, useless, and troublesome too? Do you regret having me?" I ask out as the tears start to dry up on my face and they stop flowing down. I look up at the night sky with a blank look and lifeless eyes.

"What do I have to do?" I ask out again and look down at the waves crashing. I dig my nails into my skin making them bleed a bit. "Yet, no matter what I do...It's never enough....Maybe it would be better if I wasn't born at all."