Fear

When I arrived at the Kingdom of the Lost, Drew wasted no time in learning about my powers as a young caster.

Each day we discovered something new about myself as we grew closer to one another.

It had only been three months since I came here but the time flew by so quickly I barely noticed.

Drew was by far the kindest man I had ever met in my life. He was patient with me as I discovered the limits of my abilities and never once expected me to be a princess.

Being able to practice my magic and not have to worry about being perfect or having to take responsibility for anyone was so...relieving.

I was still in pain over Oliver but the more time I spent with Drew the better I felt.

"Behind you!" Drew yelled  pulling me from my thoughts.  I quickly threw fire at the monster we had created together.

"Raven he likes fire." Drew laughed.

I groaned and threw water next. I watched him shrink back into the toy he was before we brought him to life.

"You weren't paying enough attention. You could've been hurt." Drew said and I sighed.

"I'm sorry. Can we just move on?" I sighed. I was aggravated that I had thought about Oliver again.

"Alright, let's get back to the basics and see how you handle your powers during different emotions." He says.

"We've been doing this for months, Drew."

"And we'll keep doing it until you learn to control yourself. The last time you lost control.."

"I know!" I groan.

"Don't be angry with me." He frowns.

"I'm not...I just hurt my own feelings again."

"I know." He said and I frowned.

"I told you to stay out of my head." I said and he smiled. He had the gift of mind reading and it sometimes got annoying.

"I told you to stop keeping it opened to me." He said and I rolled my eyes.

"Can we just get on with whatever we're doing this time?" I asked.

"Close your eyes." He said and I obeyed.

"Are you ready?" He asked.

I nodded in response and wait.

"I'm sorry for this, Raven." He said and I felt his power surround me. I opened my eyes to see that I was now in the dark.

"Drew." I said and I heard him move in front of me.

"Don't be afraid." He said and the lights came on. I was in the middle of a thousand spiders.

"DREW!" I screamed.

"Don't scream. I'm right here." He said and the spiders started moving towards me.

"Drew." I cried.

"Raven just stay calm and use your power." He said and I sobbed. I was deathly afraid of spiders.

"I can't Drew...I'm scared." I cried and the spiders got closer.

"Fear is only in your mind Raven." He whispered and the lights went out again. I cried as I felt the spiders start to crawl up my legs.

"Drew!" I cried and light exploded around me. I felt a weight lift off my shoulder as the familiar warmth wrapped around me.

"Good job." Drew said and I fell to my knees.

"Are you okay?" He asked.

"I hate spiders." I said and he nodded.

"I know that's why I used them. " He says.

"What's next?' I asked and he looked away from me for a second.

"Your strongest emotion is rage. You killed thousands of men last time your rage was released." He said and I frowned at the memory.

"I'm sorry for this one as well, Raven." He said and disappeared again. I was scared to see what he'd do with this emotion.

"I remember having too much to drink with Eric then waking up this morning in bed." I turned around to see myself and Oliver walking.

"Did I say something?" I asked.

"We're almost to the Kingdom of The Lost. Let's just focus and we should be there by nightfall."

"Are you nervous?"

"No. As soon as we get you there and I know you're safe with your father then I'm free." He said.

My heart hurt at the memory. How could I have been so stupid back then?

"Did you really think I was that stupid?" The memory switched and now stood Sophie.

"Let me go you stupid bitch."

"I only let you get this far so that you could lead me straight to your father." Sophie smiles.

"What does he have to do with any of this?" I asked.

"He has everything to do with this! You should have never been born in the first place!! But your slut mother couldn't help but seduce him." She turns to Oliver

I hated this part

"Oh, I almost forgot about the little pet of yours." She laughs.

"Don't you fucking dare." I spat at her as she held a dagger to his throat.

"Awe he is a handsome little fellow. No wonder you lusted for him." She says.

"I'm warning you."

"Oh? Is the little brat angry with me?" She smiled. "What If i were to just..." She took the dagger and plunged it into his stomach.

"NO!" the memory stopped and another began.

"What has gotten into you?" Oliver asked.

"Please Drew not this one."

"What do you mean?" I asked him.

"You never ask for sex." He said.

"I don't like rejection and I felt like you didn't want me." She said and he raised up.

"I would never reject you. I don't ask for sex because I respect you hell I want it daily but you don't show signs that you want me too so I keep it to myself." He said and I felt my tears fall remembering this memory.

"I don't show signs? Really Oli? I'm horny about 80% of the time." She said.

"Are you horny now?" He said and she giggled.

"Considering I have the love of my life inside of me..." She froze and stopped speaking.

"You love me?" He asked her.

"YES I FUCKING LOVED YOU ASSHOLE." I screamed

"I'm sorry I didn't mean for that to come out." i said

"Raven look at me." He said.

"DONT FUCKING FALL FOR IT." I cried

"Raven." He said.

"THATS ENOUGH." I screamed and the memory ended and another started. "Drew please stop."

"What cast?" I asked as light surrounded Oliver.

"When he came to this realm I casted on him so he'd always protect you." Dad said.

"Was that the only reason you stayed with me all this time?" I cried and smacked Oliver across the face.

"Raven wait." He said and grabbed me.

"Don't ever touch me again." That one ended and I felt my heart break again. I knew what was next.

"Was that all I fucking was to you Oliver...a fucking whore. Someone that you could just toy around with and play with as you please..." I started.

"Raven please let me explain." Oliver interrupted me and I growled at this memory in hatred

"I'm done." I said and walked away again.

"Raven please...." I threw all of my power at the memory of Oliver and screamed. "I HATE YOU." My power wrapped around me as my anger built up.

"Fight it, Raven." Drew said and he appeared in front of me.

"Raven, calm down." He said and I growled.

"Don't tell me to fucking calm down...you caused this....you're supposed to be helping me control this not set it free." I cried and my power grew hotter around me threatening to explode.

"Raven, listen to me." Drew said.

"You control your power Raven. Don't let your hatred for anyone get in the way of who you are and what you can do." He said and I growled thinking about Oliver. He deserved to be hurt just like me. He deserved to have a broken heart.

"Raven, don't wish anything on him. He'll learn in time what he missed out on. Karma will get him." Drew said pulling me from my thoughts.

"Karma takes too long." I said and my power got hotter.

"Ah fuck it." Drew said and came up to me. What he did next I was not expecting. He put his hand on the back of my neck and pulled me into a gentle kiss. All of my rage and hatred melted away as my cheeks fired up and my power calmed down.

"W-what?" I asked and he smiled.

"Shall we get back to work on our creations because I have more monsters in mind." He said.

What the hell just happened??