Depressed

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~~ A Few months ago~~

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Ewrites: Ask him. I am not afraid if I will lose interest in him or I will get bored of him or if I am not serious about him, what I am afraid of is, what if this was the case with him?

Loon: I will ask him then. Ok?

Ewrites: Hmm sure.

Loon: Oye Kiddo get your ass here

Rwalker: what the-

Loon: Just want to ask you

Rwalker: What is that now-?

Loon: E

Rwalker: You mean Erie?

Loon: yes her.

Rwalker: What about her?

Loon: You serious about her?

Rwalker: Ugh what do you really mean by that?

Loon: You like her? Or what? Just asking.

I know you like her.

Rwalker: Ah then why ask me?

Loon: I want to ask...

Rwalker: just get to the point Loon

Loon: are you sure you like her? Or just playing with her? And then let her go off living your own life and not giving a shit about her?

Rwalker: Loon

This is the first and the last warning.

Loon: You warning me kiddo? [Laughing face]

Rwalker: if you even said some shit like that about me being serious about Erie. I will find you and kill you for sure

Loon: What?

Rwalker: Of course, sure as hell that I am not going to do something like that to her

Loon: Eh~

Rwalker: I am serious

I am not playing, I am not sure about her thoughts….

Loon: really?

Rwalker: You want to die?

Loon: you can't kill me

Rwalker: then get this. I am not gonna let her go, I don't care about her religion too, I AM DEAD SERiOUS ABOUT ERii.

Loon: [Eyes emoji] you mean that Rw? 

My nickname there was Rw, short-form lol.

Rwalker: yeah I do for sure no doubt and don't ask that again

it is embarrassing

Loon: Oh yeah it is, more it is cringing [Laughing face]

Rwalker: anything more to ask?

Loon: nay that is all.

Rwalker: thanks then. I am not going to ask why asked me that, you not gonna answer anyway.

Loon: yes…

Rwalker: See ya

Loon: BYE~

Then I went, took quick screenshots of these texts, and sent them to her quickly. 

Now many of you might be thinking I am a jerk to do all this shit, to fool her, to trick her into this making her believe that Loon was another person. But you know what? I didn't felt guilty or bad at all that time. To me, it was just me trying to get a girl interested in me and make her love me the way I do. I saw nothing wrong with that. instead, I was happy. 

Her reply to those screenshots was:

Ewrites: I am gonna die! 

Dead.

Loon: haha what happened?

Ewrites: damn…

She was embarrassed to say anything, on the other end I was trying my best not to grin in front of my mother and father.

Ewrites: If he can sound this sweet then he better ask me out now.

Damn this made me happy as fuck.

Then as Loon, I continued talking with her.

As I was still not sure about her feelings, I asked her what she felt about me as Loon.

Loon: you up for him if there is not any religious matter? (Just asking)

Ewrites: I'd say yes

Loon: hmm Yes you say. May I know the reason? (if it is allowed to)

Ewrites: IDK why my stupid ass has a soft side for him--- please don't ask, it's embarrassing.

'Hmm, soft side she says, maybe it is pity? That she will pity me if she didn't love me back? Dunno.'

Loon: how you fell for him?

Ewrites: dunno, he did some voodoo tricks on me I guess….

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Loon: So you are in an argument huh? I suggest that you flirt with him.

Ewrites: I did try that but he….

Loon: well then did he flirted back?

Ewrites: ….flirt back, I don't remember him ever doing that thought... He just adds a bunch of '...'s

That was true. I mean I was embarrassed, I had zero experience. 

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Ewrites: wait- I had never flirt. I am bad at those

Loon: Hmm why?

Ewrites: very bad at those

Loon: O bad. But I saw you both flirting over in the group chat many times.

Ewrites: You think I've dated before? [Laughing tears face]

Ewrites: He was once talking about the famous 'her' we all know

Loon: yeah 'her' and I will kick you if you say you don't know who that 'her' is 

Ewrites: And he just went- 'I would not tell it to her through texts. it is better said in real life.' 

And yeah when I did said this. I knew she knew who she was, more like I wanted her to take the hint that this 'her' is no one but Erin herself. But to this, her reply was 'Oh okay.' the fuck?

Loon: Lmao [Funny face] he is really mad in love, so what he gonna meet you and tell you? Lmao. really dumb kid. [Cat laughing face] 

Ewrites: Yeh guesses so…. Too dumb.

Loon: you know her right? 'Her'

Ewrites: She's one heck of a dumbass. See? She's staring at me through the mirror

Loon: yeah named Ewrites. So lucky to have someone who likes you so bad and gets angry when ppl ask him shit as I did before. And you even know that he likes you. Miracle.

Ewrites: But I wonder what he even saw in me he knows I'm anemic and have health issues. He knows very well how stubborn I am. He knows my father and two elder brothers would kick him if they get to know him. And idiot still likes me?

Well to tell you guys the truth. I liked her because I thought it was possible for us to get together. I wanted my first girlfriend to be my last girlfriend. In other words. I wanted to marry my first girlfriend. So when I came to know she is fourteen and is American too I saw a possibility of both of us together, then I came to know about her religion and shit but still, I didn't give up.

On the other hand, we used to talk for hours with each other. I don't really want to bring up the cringe and flirty texts of us. But yeah we did talk and called each other a lot. Eventually, her elder sister also came to know about me. She used to tease Erin saying she should date me which thrilled me and made me happy. That was a lot of fun. Maybe the best days of my life I guess?

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End of the flashback.

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"Fuck my life. I want to die." Tears started rolling down Ryan's eyes. They were not tears of happiness, but sadness and depression.