Chapter 8 : I really mean it the enemies to lovers troupe is so overrated (2)

Mark wasn't the type to overthink . In life , there are some things that are not worth stressing over ; It was best to just let them go even if they puzzle one to death .

Mark had just entered inside when he felt his tummy twist with a sharp pain ; he almost blanked out at the pain and he grabbed a bar tightly.

That was strange; he did not remember eating anything weird .

The pain came again and Mark felt beads of sweat roll down his back; Without alerting anyone , he walked into the male bathroom and closed the door.

Perhaps I just need to deficate...

He pulled off his pants only to see spots of blood in his underwear.

At that moment Mark felt his world collapsing.

He had started testosterone as early as 16 years old; before that he used puberty blockers . Mark have never had any moment to be experience the life of a female except when he was younger.

Men don't have periods...

Mark rubbed his eyes to check if he was dreaming but the blood was still there. A Sense of panic overwhelmed him and he felt himself hyperventilating.

He grabbed his phone and called Miss Angie. She picked it on the second ring.

"Bon Choco.."

"Mom help me !!!" He didn't know why he felt that his voice was suddenly a pitch too high; he tried to calm himself with it's the dysphoria talking but nothing was working " Mom please help me !!!"

Miss Angie sounded like she was panicking " Mark what happened? Where are you ? "

" I was having a tummy ache and then I went to the bathroom ; all of a sudden, there was blood in my underwear " He pulled his legs on the toilet seat and wrapped his arms around them as if trying to comfort himself " Mommy I am scared; does it mean that I am too much of a female for the testosterone to even get rid of my periods?"

"Mark calm down ; It's rare but it's not the end of the world okay? " There was rustling sounds as if she was putting on clothes " Men too have periods okay?"

Mark felt tears run down his face ; and he rocked himself even harder " Mom I am scared "

"I am coming over "

Mommy don't disconnect...

But the line was no longer talking; the tears spilled even more and he put his head in between his legs.

Due to starting hormones early , his dysphoria have always been very mild ; Even when some annoying people would call him Martha and people will point out his small Adam apple, he have always felt he was good as a man.

But now he didn't feel so sure anymore; he suddenly felt that he was a little too short , a little too round , a little too temperamental, a little too ...

"Mark ; are you in there ?"

It was Jason that was speaking ; for the first time, Mark was grateful for his voice.

"Jason... " He didn't care about his sobbing voice " Jason I am scared..."

"Open the door "

Mark opened the door a crack and Jason stretched in his arm.

He didn't even think twice before he grabbed hold of the fingers and put it on his chest.

He felt a slight tremble before Jason asked in a soft voice.

"What happened? I waited for you for a long time and even thought something happened to you outside ; if not for a patient telling me she saw you go into the men's bathroom...."

"I got my period " He rubbed his hand like it was some kind of comfort blanket " I have never had a period in my life ; I didn't even know that it could even be a possibility for me... "

"It's okay Mark"

"It's not okay... " Mark felt himself crying again " Women get periods; it's a proof I can never fully be a man , no matter how early I started ... "

Jason voice cracked "Mark... "

"What am I going do? What am I...."

He felt Jason fingers tighten in his own.

"Mark I know you might not take whatever I am saying seriously right now but you will always be son enough for Miss Angie , you will always be baby boy enough for your friends, you will always be Matron Zhang sweet boy with a maiden heart , you will always be Eric GeGe and you will always be man enough for me " He felt Jason rub his fingers gently " We don't need you to be a total man ; we just need you to be Man enough and that's who you already are "

"Even with my periods?"

"Even with your periods "

Short drama by little Sunshine.

As a teenager ,Jason have never understood the concept of gender . He have always felt that trans people should be on their own, Cis people should be on their own.

That was also how he felt whenever he heard those hateful classmate gossiping about Mark.

I feel uncomfortable around him ....

Mark is a handsome guy but I can never date him ; it would feel like I am fucking a woman....

He's too cold ; is he supposed to be cold despite being trans ?

He doesn't have boobs , I have seen him topless numerous of times but what do you think is down there . ..

At first he didn't care about the comments about the guy named Mark ; he was way too cold , way too irritable and always ignoring him.

But after he fell in love with him ; he couldn't help but feel that each sentence was a bit malicious.

Yes he was cold but mark will give up his personal comfort to help someone in need.

He made An Le feel like a Queen , even when people called her ugly and fat .

He cosplayed as a girl once when he saw that their model ditched the school anime convention.

He was a great dancer.

He liked to act spoilt towards his close ones.

He was temperamental but he would never hit a woman.

He had the most beautiful smile.

He had the most beautiful heart .

And He fell in love with Mark because of all those things; not because of what was beneath his clothes.

Mark will always be beautiful enough for him , Mark will always be man enough for him.