I'm so dummy

I start breaking everything in my room, and yell out loud "I hate you Scarlett! I hope you'll be as sad as me. Have fun with your family, while I am stuck here alone!". My mind is in rage and I am not thinking about how much I love her, I am just focusing on how she will spend tIme with her family, having a good tIme. 

"You're stupid Scarlett, just go to them and don't ever talk to me again. I don't care about you, I am glad you left" I say, still yelling. 

"I am better off WITHOUT YOU" I yell, while crying hard. "I hope you'll stay with them FOREVER, because that's where you belong. With your FAMILY and not me. I HATE YOU, SCARLETT, AND I HATE YOUR FAMILY". I say with a very cruel tone. My jealousy is stronger than ever, and I can't stop thinking about how happy she seems to be with them, while I am stuck here, angry and sad.A few moments pass, and I start to realize how lonely I am now. I look at my phone knowing that Scarlett won't come back. "Maybe I went too far", I say to myself. My anger turns into sadness, and I drop on my knees crying "W-Why did you leave Scarlett? Please come back... I need you". Immediately I go to her house, freezing as it rains and I am wet. I start knocking on the door, hoping Scarlett will open it and give me a hug. 

"Scarlett... Please, I am sorry. I didn't mean everything I said. Don't go, please" I plead. 

Scarlett opens the door and she is surprised to see me It's only been 3 mins since she left my house..... 

I look at Scarlett with puppy eyes "M-Scarlett..." I say, trying to hold back my tears. I start to shake a bit, and my body is cold. The door is opened, but I am still outside, hoping she will take me in and hold me. 

"Scarlett... Please, I am sorry. I didn't mean what I said earlier. I am lost without you, I miss you. Please forgive me.". I fall on my knees and hold her hand "Just please don't leave me... Not on Christmas Eve. I want to spend Christmas with you Scarlett... PLEASE". 

Scarlett sighs and wraps her arms around myneck, she kisses his cheeks "It's alright Carter..." 

My heart starts to beat very fast and I hug her tightly "I was very childish Scarlett... I shouldn't have said any of that." I look at her with puppy eyes "I am just so scared Scarlett, I am scared that you'll leave me for your family. And... I am scared that you'll leave me for someone else." 

"I love you Scarlett, please... Don't break my heart like that. Please always choose me... Always choose your Carter" I say while hugging her tighter. 

I hug her again and bury my head into her chest "I never wanna be away from you Scarlett. ". I kiss her on the cheek and smile. "So dummy...". She then takes my hand and drags me in the house, her family was surprised.. 

Her family start to look at us with a confused look on their faces. She was supposed to help them, and now she's back with her crying boyfriend. "I can explain..." Scarlett says, looking at her family. 

"We were supposed to bake cookies." Scarlett's mother says with a confused tone. "And I was supposed to decorate the Christmas Tree!" Scarlett's little brother complains. 

I follow Scarlett inside her room, soaking wet and shaking. Im still holding her hand, trying to stay away from her family. 

"I will explain it later" Scarlett says as she opens her bedroom door. She locks it and then she looks at me. My legs are shaking from the cold and all the emotional turmoil I went through. 

I look at her with a relieved tone "You're back Scarlett, don't ever leave me again." I say while looking at her with sad puppy eyes. 

I watch Scarlett go to the bathroom, and I stay in her room. My body is shivering, and I just can't wait to get warmer. I take off my wet clothes and notice Scarlett's family talking to her downstairs. 

Scarlett comes back with clean clothes and puts my wet clothes to dry. Then she takes off her jacket too, revealing her T-Shirt. 

"Thank you Scarlett", I say as I take off the wet clothes. I look at her, and I see that she is also a bit wet, but not as much as me. 

She then notices my dirty hair "Hmm let's wash this dummy" 

I smile at her "Yeah I guess I am a dummy, my hair got dirty while I was outside." 

My legs are still shaking, and I lean over the bathtub and sit down on the edge of it. I look at Scarlett who is starting to clean off my hair with soap. 

"I feel like you are taking care of me like I am a child". I say with a giggle 

Scarlett smiles "But you're my little boy" 

My face turns red and I try to protest "I am not a little boy! I am an adult male." I am starting to feel embarrassed by her words. 

As she cleans off my hair, water falls on my face and it feels good. I hold her hand, and sit on the tub's edge until they are cleaned. 

"I am not a child, Scarlett" I protest. I feel a bit angry because of what she said. "I am a grown adult, do you understand it?" 

Scarlett smiles and kisses my forehead "Yeah... That's why you immediately came to my house after you literally told me to never talk to you" 

My face turns red, and I feel a bit guilty. She was right, I acted like a big baby, but only because I love her so much. 

I sigh and turn my head to look at her. "I told you to never talk to me, because I was angry at you." I explain, still slightly angry. "That's because you hurt me by leaving... " 

I look down, feeling a bit ashamed. "I was scared Scarlett, I was scared of how lonely I was." 

Scarlett hugs me tightly "Awhhh" she then helps megets in the warm water as mybody is slightly shaking. 

I get inside the warm bathtub and I feel good and my body stops shaking. I sit by her legs while she cleans my hair. 

"Mmm the water is warm.." I say, while closing my eyes. As she washes my hair, I relax and forget everything. 

"You're taking care of me Scarlett... I like that.. But Im still a tough guy... Dont forget.. " I say in a very soft voice. 

Scarlett laughs "Yeah... Tough" 

"Yeah. I am not a little boy." I say again, looking at her with puppy eyes. "I am not your child Scarlett" I say, while looking away. 

I feel comfortable now, and my anger turns into affection for Scarlett. My head is very close to her legs, and I start to lean into her. "Scarlett, can you please hug me?" I say with a soft tone, feeling that comfort I need right now. "And... Maybe can I sleep here tonight? I don't want to go back home" I ask her as I lay my head on her legs. 

Scarlett smiles and gives mesome kisses "Of course, everything for my little boy". It's funny cus I'm a lot taller than Scarlett and younger than her with some weeks...Mhmf. 

My face turns red, and I turn away. I feel embarrassed, but happy at the same tIme. "Scarlett, I am not your little boy... I am an adult male". 

I look down while hiding my blush. She is right though, everything she does for me shows that she treats me like a child. It can't be good, if she sees me like that. But right now, I just want her close, I need her love. "So please stop saying that I am your little boy..." 

She smiles and kisses my cheek again "Alright thennn mwah " 

My face is as red as a strawberry. It feels like she is mocking me now. I smile "Stop Scarlett, I am a tough guy, I mean it". 

"Can you do one more thing for me?". I ask with puppy eyes. "Can you sleep with me? I don't think I'll be able to sleep alone" I say, feeling like a child who wants comfort from his mother. 

She pinches my cheeks "So tough..." 

I try to look away, as if I don't give a damn. "Stop Scarlett, I mean it. I am not adorable... I am not cute... I am not your BABY!". 

I bite my lips, trying not to smile. I am trying to look tough in front of her, but it's hard when I am so close to her body. "Now let go of my cheeks..." I say, while looking like a child in love. 

She then helps me wash my body since I'm just laying in the water and complaining like a kid. "Well fine... You hungry? We haven't eaten all day" she add. 

I nod my head. "Yeah I could use something to eat". I look at Scarlett with puppy eyes "But right now I need your cuddles. You're my best medicine" I say, smiling at her. 

"Do you mean it Scarlett? You want to cuddle with me? Even if I am not your little boy?" I ask, wondering if I can really be close to her again. 

She smiles and nods. She then helps me get out of the bathtub . 

She wraps a towel around me and starts to dry me off. I stand there for a moment looking at her "Scarlett... You're not leaving me right? It's just that... I am scared that I am not good enough for you". I look at her with sad eyes, while looking for some reassurance. 

I don't want to lose this girl, I don't want to go back to how I felt before. I don't even want to Imagine what might happen if she leaves me like that. Please Scarlett, just stay with me.