I miss you.
Yesterday and for the last few days I've been numb. So many things happening in such a short amount of time. Like when the sea has been calm for far too long and suddenly a storm came out of nowhere.
I ended it again.
You were already going through enough and I decided to add the cherry on top.
Looking back none of it is as intense as before.
The pain I mean. The affection.
I think it was too much to handle so my body was forced to dull it.
I've never felt this alright without you.
I don't want to go back honestly.
But I still miss you. So much. I'll write here to avoid writing to you.