Suga Pov

As I sat there surrounded by my friends I cried and they held me and kept me company. After a while I saw everyone leave but the person who stayed behind was one of my best buddies, it was Jin he saw that I had calmed down and so he wanted answers to what happened. "So Suga, what happened and where did that girl from last night go?" I looked down to my hands and spoke in a shaky voice "I don't know why, but she was breaking down when I woke up and when I asked what she was doing she exploded, her honey yellow eyes burned with rage and fear. And it all just got worse from there, I hurt her...I let out the monster inside of me. I lost my grip on the horrid thing I swore to never let control me again." Jin nodded as if he understood what I was going through.

"I would be lying if i said that i fully understood everything that you were going through but "

There was this certain irritation that came with his " But."

"But , what"

Hey youngster don't be getting smart with me

I smirked at his rebuttal and chilled my nerves. " I'm Sorry" I muttered.

"Yeah, yeah now if we can get back to this whole bonding moment." He face pouted

"I don't think that your seeing both sides which, is usually hard to do but if done for the right reasons it can be Rewarding in many ways"

You say that as if you ='ve experienced it all

I haven't experienced it all but I have experienced what it was like to fall for someone and be too late to tell them so let me ask you something.

Do you really like this girl?

I was in shock as I began to question myself.

"I know that i don't want to see her hurt and that she is one of the most beautiful people i have ever seen inside and out but after today i can't say with complete confidence that what i feel for her is real lo-"

Love, yeah i think that you shouldn't give up on her from what i'm hearing but that you should take some time and allow yourself to process your emotions and then go from there and if you don't mind me saying. He looked at me for confirmation and I gave him a nod.

You're in your 20s, you're a solid man who deserves to be loved. I know that these are things that you have missed out on as an Idol but you only live once you should enjoy these experiences and enjoy the feelings that you have.

I didn't know how to respond. I mean I was being irrational. I mean I've only known this girl for a little while but . I feel like i could know her and I want to know her. I just need time.

Time to think.

I think JIn sensed my nervousness as he stood up and patted my back before leaving. I signed as I laid down and stared at the ceiling.

" why couldn't I have just meet a girl and had a hot Jamican fling. NO I had to get emotionally involved." I groaned and laid down and curled into a ball.