I am not sorry coz this feels good

I arrived home to see a Ferrari 269 GTB waiting for me. Henry was grinning ear to ear as he gave me the keys. He also asked that I join him for dinner so I did. He confessed that he likes the housekeeper and wants to marry her. I told him that she likes men who are direct so just open his mouth and tell her how he feels. He took my recommendation and gave me a number. It belongs to his therapist. I had forgotten that he had a rough time in the warzone so he had to get therapy to get better. I went to the bathroom and looked in the mirror. The soft serve was staring at me like I was a unicorn. I told her to give it a rest and went to sleep.

I dreamt of the day I stayed in Magazine Mansion. It is a motel in New Orleans. I was chowing down on a bowl of fried crawfish. I saw an old woman walking across the street with a boy. He was barely six years old. I shook my head as I recall seeing her with a different kid every single day. Made me think she was a pedophile. Turns out she wasn't a pedophile but someone who catered to them. I observed her comings and goings and made my move. I pretended to be lost and asked her for directions. It was late so there was nobody in sight. I spiked her drink and quietly followed her. She passed out before she reached her car. I stuffed her in my car. I had a boat for the night. I found out there are places people don't go because of gators. I hopped on boat and pulled my plus one with me. She was asleep the entire trip. I reached the spot where the gators were seen in numbers that would give even the bravest soul cardiac arrest I dropped anchor. I chained her up to the heaviest object I could get my hands on. She woke up as I dropped the weight. She started bargaining with me. Halfway through her pleas, I heard a ridiculous sound that is not welcome in my life.

It was the alarm clock started to go off to remind me that I am not supposed to be in bed. It was time for me get up and go to work like most of the residents of this city. I now understood why people say that the inventor of this device should be shot. I spent the entirety of the shower cursing the person that made that gadget. That devise seems to dictate our entire life. That is hardly fair. I kept cursing the moron that made it till it felt it has lost all meaning.

I got dressed and came down to see Dopey dangling on her ankles. I thought I was hallucinating. Gus gave me a peck on the cheek. He wished me a happy birthday. I saw Brody staring at me with intense eyes. He mouthed a happy birthday as well. Henry walked up to me and gave me a bullwhip. I told him to put it back and pulled out my belt. I used my belt till it broke. I asked Dopey why she decided to be so mean to me when I have been so wonderful to her. I froze for a moment and remembered why. I asked her if she was betrayed because of Dimka because he made it clear that she will never be me. This woke something primal in her so much so that she started to yell at me till her words made no sense. I looked at the clock to see that it was one in the morning. I swore like a sailor. My words made the guys start laughing. I never knew where these guys got the nerve to reset my alarm clock. I didn't know if I should slap them or kick them or shoot them but in the end, I joined them.

Out of nowhere in the middle of my laughter I remembered the ward. I didn't want her to walk in and see this. The repercussion could be dangerous. I might have to kill her or find a way to shut her up. Henry seemed to understand what I was going to say. He happily said that she is at her bestie's house having a sleepover. Gus said that he has a special plan for me and he didn't want any interruptions. She took a hint and promised to wish me happy birthday in the evening when she sees me. We can go out and have a blast. I applauded their genius and asked dear Dopey if she is ready to meet her maker. She looked at me like I was nuts. She proudly said that people will look for her. Brody pointed out that nobody will come since Dopey left of her own will. Her note is clear that she wants to end her life so she has decided to find a place where she can see the stars. No one will believe that she was kidnapped. She wept as I picked up my knife set and started to throw them at her. I am sure she remembers the day she was held against her will and I rescued her. She screamed as the blades started to pierce her body.

I was enjoying myself when Soft serve showed up. I jumped out of my skin when she did. She was upset that she couldn't throw a few punches too. She didn't picked up a knife to throw them at Dopey. I realized that the shoe is on the other foot now. Before I used to invade her dreams but tonight she is invading mine to show me this lovely vision. She was demanding to be included in the attempt to take down Dopey. I was pleased to see her since she is the half of me that remained innocent despite the horror we went through. She is my sanity and in that, I have no problems. She is the real alter ego that my mind made when I was split into two. All this because dad tortured me into becoming this monster.

The real alarm clock rang and I jumped out of bed and threw the thing into the wall. Gus woke up with a start at the sound of my frustration. He started to laugh when he saw that the clock was on the floor smashed to pieces. He promised to buy me another. I asked him not to and he reminded me why we must have those infernal things. He reminded me the following. To remember how precious time is. To make every moment count. To live a life worth having.