AM NOT THAT STRONG

people call me tough, thet call me brave....they don't see how it is to play tough.

Am not just the smart girl you want mr to be, I break down when no one is looking.

My whole life I just play the character you want me to be.

I make mistakes...playing perfect is hard.

Don't call me weak for feeling fear, don't call me a coward for giving up....I never lived for me...just you.

Am allowed to break down!am allowed to cry and hate everything.

I am not that strong

Even if i try to be perfect, i do it all wrong

Am broken

Am a mess

Try to understand me

Try to get me

Maybe then I won't feel so alone

On those days I feel so low

Tell me its OK to lose, its OK to fall, its OK to feel pain, instead of calling me worthless for giving up

you say you want me to be strong like a warrior, but you call me words like... a failure...and still blame me cos it made me feel inferior.

I just want to be good enough

fine I'll never be

but just do something for me

I know am not enough, but when you curse me, atleast feel a lil remorse

you can't cause thats what conscience does but i guess you lost yours.

all you see are my flaws

your words cut deeper than claws

am broken, so I Lee these thoughts in closed doors