Martins

Grey said he was going to stay in New York only for a week, but he didn't, he stayed there for almost a month.

He kept on apologising that he was sorry and that another business meeting came up and all of that, but I couldn't blame him, his income came from his hard work.

Most of the times, I'd spend my day working and the days I was free, I usually visited my mother and we had fun.

I woke up one evening and went into the kitchen to get some ice tea from the kitchen and saw someone in the pool.

I thought it was Grey , but when I looked closer, I saw Martins.

I walked outside to where he was.

"You know Martins, sometimes I begin to wonder between the both of us, who actually lives in the house" I said and walked over to the pool and sat beside it.

He laughed, " well this is kinda like my house too so I guess we are sharing it" he said.

"You live alone?" I asked him.

"Sadly yes, unlike you, you have someone to talk to and all, I don't" he said.

I felt sad for him a little.

"What about your boyfriend? I mean he could come over sometimes" I suggested.

He shook his head," uhhh, we kinda broke up" he said a bit sad.

"What? Why?"

"I don't know... like.. let's just say, he's this kinda person that always needs attention and all and needs someone by his side and you know I'm like really busy all the time so..we just had to you know, split up. But we are still friends tho, he calls me once in a while to check up on me" he said

"I'm sorry" I said not knowing even what to say.

He giggled, "it's cool"

"So I've been wanting to ask tho, how did you meet Grey?" I asked.

"Highschool" he replied.

I stared at him shocked," you went to military highschool??"

"Yeah, you're surprised??"

"And graduated there?" I asked again.

"Yes"

"How? I mean you don't look like someone that would have survived that place"

"Yeah obviously I couldn't, Grey was the one covering for most of my falls and all" he said.

"Wait, how did you guys even become best friends" I asked.

"It's a pretty long story" he said scratching his head nervously.

"We have the whole night" I said and sat down more comfortably.

"Okay uhm, so, yeah I realized when I was younger that, I don't know I wasn't really into girls and all and was more attracted to guys, so I use to have this diary, since I couldn't tell anyone because you know, they are judgie and all.

And so, till I got to military school, I kept on pouring out my mind in the diary, any guy I ever crushed on and all of that

Then when I got to highschool, honestly I had a huge crush on Grey,call me weird or whatever, but I did.

Like you know how Grey is, he was so reserved and calm and handsome and cool and all, so I also wrote that down too . And unfortunately, I just got a new diary, so I wrote down my crush on Grey and all my nasty fantasies and all about him in the new one.

So one day when I was going back to my dorm, I forgot the new one in class without knowing, I checked in my bag and saw the old one, so I thought I had carried it.

Also unfortunately I slept pretty early that day , so I didn't know what was happening.

I woke up the next morning and every one was giving me gothic stares and all and I heard my roommate was moving out.

I didn't understand what was going on until I went to school the next morning and saw pages of my Diary being printed into larger sizes and was everywhere in the school block.

Maybe it would have been better if I it was the old one, because it wasn't about any student in the school, but it was about Grey, everyone started giving me stares and whispering and talking and all, you know how highschool is. Then across the hall, I saw Grey standing beside his locker with a copy of it in his hands.

When he turned to look at me, I was expecting a very disgusted look, or maybe he'll walk up to me and probably try to strangle me or something,. But he didn't.

School for me that day was hell, I couldn't even concentrate on class because even teachers heard the news, and unfortunately we learnt reproduction that day and so my bio teacher stressed on the ' man and woman' part and not'man and man'. But it wasn't my fault I was attracted to him and there was unfortunately nothing I could do about it.

I couldn't even eat in the cafeteria, I heard some guys whispering that I use to stare at them lustfully when they were naked but it was all I lie.

I was very picky about who I was attracted to and the only guy I was into back then , was Grey.

The worse happened when I was summoned by the principal.

I knew I was going to get expelled, because they didn't even allow Female and Male relationships.

He called me a lot of things and told me that if this information reached my parents, they'll be so much disappointed in me.

It went on for weeks and I started having suicidal thoughts and all.

I'll never forget that evening that I was sitting under an apple tree alone by myself drawing when Grey came and sat beside me.

I was so scared I thought he came to warn me or kill me or something.

Before now, Grey and I have never spoken before although we were in the same class room.

He told me he I shouldn't be scared that he's not going to hurt me that he understands that it's not my fault although it was kinda creepy. But he said something crazy, he said that if someone that is gay has never been attracted to you before, then you're not handsome enough.

He said that he had forgiven me and that I shouldn't worry about a thing, that he would handle everything.

He started standing up for me when ever people made fun of me in all.

He even told the principal to drop all charges against me that if he doesn't have a problem with it, then no one should.

We became really close friends, very close, so close people started thinking he too was gay, but he cleared their thoughts when he kissed Makenzie on prom night in front of the whole school.

Honestly now I don't feel anything for that idiot, he's like a brother to me now" Martins finished.

The whole story was surprising.

"Your parents? How did they take the news?" I asked.

"Oh they freaked out and disowned me" he said and laughed pained.

"I'm sorry" I said again.

"Stop saying that" he giggled.

"So uhm...not like I care or anything but...Grey dated Makenzie?" I asked.

"Naaa, they were just playing each other, or maybe it was Grey playing her. It was never an official relationship. Just benefits kind of stuff." He answered .

"How did she take the news when she heard Grey was getting married?"

"Oh she freaked out and threatened to kill you a lot of times, then Grey made it clear to her that it was never an official relationship, there was no strings to be attached.

"Do you think if she sees me today she's gonna hate me or something?" I asked.

"I don't know, we haven't heard from her since then. Last thing I heard was her moving to Italy and I haven't heard from her again." He asked.

"How close was she to Grey's family?" I asked again.

"The thing is, she literally followed Grey everywhere, even when Grey didn't want her to follow him, so Grey couldn't tell them that she was for just sex, it'll be creepy, so he told them they were dating, but they weren't" he answered.

"So why did he kiss her in prom?" I asked again.

"Because he didn't want people to think he was gay" he answered.

I allowed the information to sink into my head.

"Before Grey and I got married, and apart from Makenzie, was there any special person in his life?" I asked afraid of the answer.

"Like, if we didn't work out, someone he would have gone for?" I added.

"Grey had a lot of girlfriends, a lot honestly that I can't count. Most of them, his father forced the relationship for profit , and most of them threw themselves on him.

But honestly, I don't think there would have been another substitute, not any that I know of, he was always dealing with whores" Martins said and I couldn't help but chuckle.

"Yeah honestly, and I'm really curious tho, how come you guys have been together for this long and you haven't had sex yet? I mean, Grey is a sex addict, why did you think when Makenzie brought the offer he accepted quickly??"

I laughed harder.

"I don't know" I said with a shrug.

"Wait let me understand, is it that you're not ready or you're scared?" He asked.

"I really don't know, I'm just... really I don't know..scared ...I don't know..it's like...I don't know" I stressed frustrated.

"Hey it's okay, it's not a problem tho, just know he's always ready, I know Grey" he said and chuckled.

Then his face became serious.

"Uhm Bella? Is Suzie still, you know, upset with me?" He asked.

"I honestly don't know, like, we haven't talked about you yet, and whenever I bring up a topic, she'll just end the conversation" I said.

"Oh" he said sadly.

"But it's not your fault" I said.

"It's just that, I don't have I'm really feeling bad for her and all" he said.

"It's okay, it's just that you know she's trying to settle down now and all and probably she felt like you were the one and all, then you were gay. Not like maybe you had a girlfriend and all I know Suzie, she would wait for you both to break up or break you both up by herself..

But you being gay means impossible."

He sighed and ran his hands through his hair.

"Suzie is sweet and all honesty, like I would definitely go for her and all, if I wasn't... you know, but there's just nothing I can do about it, sadly, and I miss her, like a lot, we've spent hours on a phone call arguing about nothing sensible actually and I enjoyed her company.

But after that other day and then Christmas day and all, we really fell off. And I've tried talking to her, I've texted her so many times, but she never replies them, never even reads them.

And I miss our friendship" he said sadly .

I felt sad for him a little, honestly.

"I'll try talking to her again" I said.

"Thanks" he said.

"You're a really good friend Martins, honestly Grey's lucky to have you in his life" I said smiling.

"Trust me, I need him more in my life, without him I don't think I would have been able to survive back then, maybe I would have just committed suicide and ended my life back then. I'm just really grateful to him" Martins said.

I smiled.

"He really missed you tho" he added calmly.

"Like you don't even know how bad he did. Worse was when you got into that coma, Grey was fucken stressed and scared." He added.

"I don't know what he sees in me" I said wrapping my arms around my body.

"Neither does he, I guess you just used a very strong voodoo on him" Martins joked. I giggled

"I'm just scared that everything is just gonna end, and I'm gonna loose everything as usual. Happy moments don't last in my life Martins, it doesn't, something bad just initially happens and everything just ends bad" I said sadly.

"Well, to be very honest right now, I don't think there is anything horrible that could happen right now. Because now you know the whole story, you want to stay,he wants to stay, what could possibly happen? And I know Grey doesn't cheat and he's definitely not playing you, so if anything is eventually going to happen, it's going to be from your angle,so you have to avert it" Martins said and I nodded.

"Thanks Martins" I said.

" You can thank me better by making me some lasagna" Martins said grinning.

I giggled," you're such a foodie" .

"I know" he said grinning like a three year old.