Shattered Trust, Uncertain Future

I have no one to share how i am feeling so i am sharing with you.

Saad he is the one i love the most and I accidently hurt him. But he won't forgive me. He wouldn't give me second chance. Its painful to asking forgiveness and more painful to let him go. I know i deserve punishment but i need him with me.

He said he will be here with me no matter what happen but. He forget he is treating me like i don't exist in his world.

This thing piercing my heart. I want him in my life. I got one person who was sincere with me and i hurt him.

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I find Saad alone, his gaze distant. i take a deep breath and approach him.

I: Saad, I need to talk.

Saad: (turns slowly, a flicker of pain in his eyes) What is it?

I: I can't bear this silence anymore. It's killing me. I know I messed up, but I never meant to hurt you.

Saad: (voice low) I know you didn't mean to, but the hurt is there.

I: I understand. But please, just listen to me. (tears welling up) When I say I love you, I mean it with every fiber of my being. You're the only person who's ever truly seen me, and the thought of losing you... it's unbearable.

Saad: (sighs) Look, I care about you too. A lot. Maybe even more than I should. But trust is a fragile thing, and it's shattered right now.

I: I know, and I'm willing to do whatever it takes to earn it back. Please, give me a chance.

Saad: (silence hangs heavy) I... I need time. Time to process everything, to heal.

I: (nodding, voice trembling) Okay. I'll wait. But please, don't shut me out completely.

Saad: I won't. But I can't promise anything more right now.

I: (a single tear rolls down my cheek) Okay.

I turn to leave, your heart heavy with a mixture of hope and despair. As you walk away, Saad calls out to me.

Saad: Wait.

You turn back, your eyes searching his.

Saad: (a hint of vulnerability in his voice) What you said about wanting me... it affects me too, you know. More than you think.

I: (a flicker of hope ignites) But then why...?

Saad: (cuts you off) I was scared. Scared of letting myself get too close, of getting hurt again.

I: (softly) But isn't love worth the risk?

He doesn't answer, his gaze locked on mine's. The air crackles with unspoken emotions. In that charged silence, the future remains unwritten, a question mark hanging over my relationship.

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i stand frozen, his intense words hanging in the air. The vulnerability i glimpsed earlier is replaced by a possessiveness that sends shivers down my spine.

i: (voice trembling) What do you mean by "mine"?

Saad: (steps closer, his gaze unwavering) I mean, if we're going to be together, it has to be on my terms. You'll need to understand that I'm not like other guys. I expect complete loyalty and devotion.

i: (backing away slightly) But that's not fair. A relationship shouldn't be about control.

Saad: (a hint of anger in his voice) Maybe not for everyone, but for me, it is. I've been hurt before, and I won't let anyone walk all over me again.

i: (heart pounding) I understand you've been hurt, but that doesn't give you the right to control me.

Saad: (softens slightly) Look, I don't mean to scare you. I just want to be honest about who I am. If you can't handle that, then maybe we're not meant to be.

His words hit me like a punch to the gut. The man i thought i knew, the one who cared about my feelings, seems to have vanished.

i: (tears welling up) I need time to think about this.

Saad: (sighs) Take all the time you need. But remember, I'm not going anywhere.

i turn and walk away, your mind reeling. The future you once envisioned with Saad feels like a distant dream, shattered by his possessiveness.

Days turn into weeks, and you wrestle with my emotions. A part of me longs for the connection i shared, but the other part is terrified of the controlling behavior he expects. i reach out to friends and family, seeking their guidance and support.

One evening, my phone buzzes. It's a message from Saad.

Saad: I miss you. Can we talk?

i stare at the message, my finger hovering over the reply button. The decision i make will determine the course of my relationship, and possibly my own happiness.

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