A thirst [3]

In that instant, all the anger from earlier had dissipated, and Jiwoo felt melancholic at the moment. Her sudden change of emotions managed in bringing shock to her as well.

However, she truly found herself being exhausted. Her last life was a battle, and deep inside, she was aware of how other people took her to be.

Nevertheless, she thought that it would all be alright if it she kept standing tall until the end, not causing herself to break down due to other people's criticism.

However, in the end of the day, she was an ordinary girl, and despite of how she thought she had gotten used to it, new insults always managed to pierce her heart.

She constantly thought on where she had gone wrong in her previous life. However, blaming herself and looking down on herself was not something Jiwoo preferred, and therefore, she decided to put the fault on everyone beside her.

She was right; they were wrong. That was the principle she went by and only why she was able to hold her head high throughout everything. 

Since she was right, there was no use in trying to feel down about what they had said. Calling them jealous in her mind, Jiwoo did not find anything wrong within herself.

When conflicting thoughts began to rise within her, she preferred to not think anymore. After all, that made everything simply more troublesome.

However, after taking over Shin Daerin, Jiwoo had met with the warmth. Although it was not in her family, it seemed that Shin Daerin was a person liked by many, and that was why, at her workplace, many people adored her.

Moon Jiwoo was clearly aware of how that did not belong to her. No matter how warm she felt due to those actions, at the end of the day, she reminded herself that she did not earn them by herself.

Her inner thoughts conflicted at that moment, and she found herself becoming depressed. That was what happens when she is unable to sort out her thoughts and emotions.

It was an usual for her to go by the motto that she is the best. However, now, she wondered whether or not she was being delusional due to that.

That change of emotion within Jiwoo did not go unnoticed by Minnie, and Minnie was aware of how Jiwoo was struggling. However, fate was not something Minnie could go against. 

"Jiwoo, what are you thinking? You know that you can't have such thoughts," Minnie voiced out, "Didn't you say that you don't want to become an ugly monster? For that, you need to drink blood, and only that man will be able to provide you with blood for now."

'I won't become an ugly monster if I kill myself before reaching to that point. Don't you think so? I don't like the idea of being controlled, and all of this is too tiring for me any way. Would not all of this end if I kill myself or will you be making me live again?'