Chapter 4 - Sweetness of the night

My heart hit my chest wall so hard that I felt like someone stabbed me with a knife after learning about Xavier's former mate. Of course, I was aware that the lord was not mateless. He even accepted that himself earlier. I was quiet. The maid continued about how lady Evelyn was.

''Lady Evelyn is the strongest female wolf right now. She is a rare alpha female. She is really strict and not as kind as you, My lady. She hates it when someone disobeys her and hurts her pride. She cut me off once because I was late to pour her tea," she said.

From what I heard, I already did not like the woman. Was it possible that the lord had still gotten feelings for her? Did he really like a bold woman like lady Evelyn? And if she was the woman from earlier, she was extremely pretty as well. I felt an unusual tightness in my chest.

When they prepared me, I took a look at myself in the mirror. The rose gold gown and the makeup with the natural flowers all over my body were making me look like a spirit from nature.

"You look so flawless, my lady. We have never prepared someone as gorgeous as you. Surely lord will not be able to stop him tonight," the maids said cheerfully.

Hearing such vulgar remarks, I blushed hard. There was no way I was mentally prepared for that. I had just met him for a few hours. I shivered thinking about the night. I was already feeling so timid and nervous.

When the maids took me to the bed-chamber of the alpha lord, it was my turn to be astonished. The maids thought my beauty would dazzle the lord. But looking at the lord, I was lost for words for a moment.

The lord had prepared himself as well. The white, embroidered silk robe was exposing his perfectly packed chest till his abdomen, hanging barely over his shoulder. His soft, wet hair was loosened. The fragrance of the citrus was encircling the whole room. His alluring sharp features were making him such eye candy.

The maids were almost drooling by his appearance. I was not able to look away. I got so nervous that I forgot to move. Soon the maids left the room. We were alone for the night. I was as solidified as a statue.

But more than feeling nervous, I was feeling miserable. He had a mate. This enticing man was not even mine, to begin with. Yet, if we were to spend the night together, what would that make me? I felt like I would go into a hypoxic state if he had taken any step.

I did not know why Xavier agreed to prepare for the night. I could not stop the inevitable part of the marriage. The maids assured me that Xavier had always been a man with dignity. However, desiring his wife would never hurt his dignity in any way. I felt the knot returning in my gut.

It was hard to tell if he would spoil me without my consent. I was timid like a tiny flower in his garden.

I was tired. Shortly after, when I noticed the room, I could not take my eyes off its magnificence. That enchanting fragrance, the flowers all over the wooden wall, everything about it was so pure that I was enchanted.

From his eyes, I couldn’t tell if he liked what was in front of him or not. He stared at me and smiled. Dimples appeared on his cheeks, making his smile even more angelic.

I was standing there quietly, lowering my gaze. I was polite but not weak.

But when he got closer to me, my body shivered. I was aware that I wouldn’t be able to resist since I was so faithful to my duties. But my heart ached as he got closer. Since it was my first, being nervous was natural.

But I saw an unusual sadness on Xavier’s face as my body shivered by his gentle touch. I did not know what he was thinking.

"My Lady," Xavier called me gently, lifting my chin. He was standing just a few inches away. My mind was going crazy.

"Yes, My Lord," I replied in a tiny voice.

He got closer to me. My body was shivering on its own. Here it comes. I was aware of what he could do next. A pile of ominous thoughts started floating in my mind.

"You should take it off, My Lady," he said gently.

"Pa-pardon?" I was startled. My body shivered one more time. He was indeed indicating my gown. It was rational for him to want such a thing. But I could not approve of that and I decided to take the very step to inform him of my belief.

"If you do not take this off, it will hurt, My Lady," he said, putting on a calm appearance.

How could he utter such vulgar words? I closed my eyes and said, "Forgive me, My Lord! This is not possible for me. Even if you try forcing it on me."

"What?" He asked surprisedly. "Why would I force it on you, My Lady? If you want to sleep with those thorny roses on your gown, I will definitely respect your wish. But it would be better if you take those flowers off. My maids probably went overboard while trying to give my lady the best look."

"What?" I asked him back. I was staring at him flatly. I could see the mischievous smile on his face. He was talking about the gown and I assumed he wanted to do it.

I felt so embarrassed. He clearly did it with purpose. He was making fun of me and I just fell into his trap.

''You- you were asking me to take off the flowers?" I asked him skeptically. I was not able to fathom if he was serious or not. How could a man let such an opportunity slide? It was our first night and he had every right.

"Of course, My Lady. I was only talking about the flowers. But if my lady wishes to take off something further, I would not resist. My lady has every right and I am bound to fulfill it," he said mischievously, smiling at me.

My ears were turning red from his shameless remarks. He was a spoiled alpha lord indeed. But my heart had calmed down. He had cleared it that he would not do anything to me without my consent. But my heart was aching suddenly. Why was it happening? Did he maintain such dignity because of lady Evelyn? I could not think any further. He interrupted my thoughts and called me gently.

"You must be tired, My lady. Let's go to sleep," he said softly.

I was startled. I looked up, and our eyes met. I felt like a huge weight was being lifted away from my chest. By watching his gentle smile, I finally relaxed and nodded.