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The Search For My Fantasies

An average man named "Lyle" who does not have any special qualities. He searches for his impossible desires. The fantasies which he belives exists somewhere hidden from him. A story of a lazy man who loves to read novels about the supernatural. He did not believe that these things did not exist. He refused to accept it. He had nothing but questions like "How to use real magic? How can I sense ki? What is outside this world? Do legends speak the full truth? Is science and technology the only way to go forward?....". He lives an average life and acts normally but wishes to find the answers but knows that he is extremely limited in what he can do to find them. For years he lived his life thinking he will never find them but still he never gave upon these thoughts because it was the one thing that made him feel like he was living. Finally he stumbles upon a thought which led to more questions and among which finally an answer. That was his starting point and he swore that even if he dies he will unravel his questions and the endlessness around him. See how he meets a special someone, escapes his cruel fate and survives. Watch him take the new world by storm as he follows his dreams that became even more impossible as his desires started peering into the far reaches of infinity and beyond.

EonElemental · Fantasia
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28 Chs

Arrival

(Few years back)

-- ??? POV --

How much time has passed? I can't remember anything. What was I doing? Why am I struggling like this? Isn't it better to just give up? Yes... I want to rest. I am tired. If I just give up, it will all be over....

I had kept following the trail of spiritual remnants for days... or could it be weeks. No.. it could have been months or even years now. As time passes on I continue to lose my power. I can't recover due to inadequate energies in my surroundings.

When all my remaining power fades. What will happen then? Will I finally find peace or will it be my absolute disappearance.... I don't want to continue any longer... I want it all to be over... I think I had already died once... If my spirit also dies... Could I finally... ... ....

'Is that what I really want?' - ???

A voice? From where? Who?

'Didn't I promise myself that even if I die I will become one?' - ???

This voice... I think I know...

It's my own. There was something I wanted to do. Something I could never truly give up on. I see... I really don't want to end like this. I want to survive and live. I want to do the things I love and more. I wanted to be free and unshackled. I wanted to be and do the impossibles...

'Because that is my happiness. That is my life.' - ???

Ha-ha. I wish I could actually laugh. Even if I give up or keep on traveling only to fail, the result is the same. But if I keep on going, there could be a chance that I may find something that can help me.

Also when I had died I continued as my spirit, so If I lose all my remaining energy then is it really my absolute disappearance? What if even then there is something I can do? I don't know what it will be or feel like. Maybe death and birth or creation and destruction are not what I actually think they are.

I can remember some things now. I see... During all this time I wasn't just using my remaining power to travel but also to heal myself. I can remember the fight I had that caused me to end up like this.

That abomination hadn't absorbed any of my power or memories. It was only disconnecting them from me. It was going to absorb it but only at the very end.

I should better focus all my power for this journey. Healing myself can be done after. Now I can only keep following these remnants and hope I find something. But if I fail... I will deal with it then.

(Time passes)

The remnants are starting to decrease. I don't have much spiritual power left. I can feel the pain starting up. The only thing I can do is keep moving forward without deviating.

(Time passes)

My power is no more. There are no remnants left to follow as well. I can only feed on my self to move now. It hurts so much. I try to follow the most likely direction.

(Time passes)

Keep going.. It's unbearable.. Ignore the pain.. Don't stop.. Forward..

(Time passes)

Feel.. Something.. Energy.. Powerful.. Violent.. Deadly.. Must.. Avoid.. .. Urgh.. .. Can't.. Powerful..

*RUMBLE*

*CRACKLE*

Strange.. Alive..

*RUMBLE*

*CRACKLE*

(Fainted)

-- ??? POV --

I woke up due to the presence I felt. Strange... are the gods trying to do something due to what happened years ago. I guess they would. Even if it was my children who started it, I should have... There is nothing I can do about that now. Maybe it is time that I should reappear again.

It looks like something has fallen into the world.

I went near to see what it is. It looks like... a human Soul? Why is a human soul here? Is this the result of somekind of magic experiment?

I kept on looking at the soul. So many questions. He looks like a pure soul, not tainted by anything, that's good. Why is he so stable and unusually strong? He fell from the sky and looks badly hurt. Did he travel here all own his own with any protection. Which planet did he come from? Did his real body die? Why didn't he reincarnate? There are signs of spirit attacks on him it seems. All his power is exhausted and even his memories are disconnected.

'It looks like something happened during his reincarnation it seems. Poor child... You must have suffered a lot to get here.' - ???

Let's help him. He can live with me from now on.

Oh, he is already recovering it seems. Interesting... He is absorbing the spiritual and natural energy around him. Wait.. is he... controlling his soul?

I tried to confirm my assumptions. I used a magic spell to look at his flow of power.

'MANA SENSE' - ???

Sensing the spiritual energy flow around him I confirm that he can control his soul.

'Incredible... he has achieved spiritual enlightenment. Did he resist and escape from his reincarnation?' - ???

When has something like this ever happened. To control one's own soul is the ability possessed by extremely powerful beings like me, spiritual entities and gods. But even for us there are some limitations that are hard to break.

I can't sense any type of special mutation, power, energy or talent inside him. Just how....

Well thinking about it myself is not going to give me the answer. Besides I can see his soul is not evil. Since he can restore himself with enough time, let's wait until he is recovered.

-- Soul's POV --

Finally.. safe..

(Time passes)

I have recovered to some extent. Too much of my memories are disconnected. It's going to take a long time to completely heal them. I can recall many things like my dreams, a bit of my life, a nostalgic place called a park, the face of someone and many more. But I can't recall my name or my family, many details about my life are still missing. It looks like some of my memories were damaged during the last stretch of my journey.

Why do I feel sad? I guess it's because I can't remember something important or that something important is now far away.

Worry about that later. For now I have to focus on my current problems. Based on available memories I realised that I have managed to reach a different planet. Unlike earth, it seems this world is rich in spiritual energy.

'Where am I right now?' - Soul

I expanded my spirit field to their maximum limits. Once I sensed my surroundings. I saw or more like felt..

'A beautiful open meadow... Wow' - Soul

I can't see things in colour as I don't have eyes anymore. So I had to make do with my spiritual vision which works a bit differently. But even without colour the world I see is beautiful. It was then that I caught sight of something behind me.

'A grave!' - Soul

Now I feel bad so I move a small distance away.

'This place should be alright. I want to know what type of world this is. There is nature thriving so the possibility of animal life is great. Also the existence of intelligent life may not be zero. The spiritual vitality of the soil and nature around me is incredible, so this is an ideal place for me to regain my lost strength. I wonder if others can see me or not. Lets leave that matter for later. For now recovering my spiritual power takes priority.' - Soul

(Time passes)

It has been a day. The night time here is quite beautiful. The moon is so big in this world. The stars are shining brightly.

I have found out something about this world during my recovery. Along with spiritual energy there exists another kind of power present all over in this world. I can't fully understand what type of power it is due to my inadequate spiritual strength. But from my current sensing abilities I can deduce that this is somekind of particle that is both physical and spiritual in nature. It is highly stable eventhough a small amount itself contains a high amount of energy. It seems to possess many interesting properties which I can't figure out right now.

(Time passes)

5 days has gone. I have spiritually completely recovered. It's amazing that it took only 5 five days. If it was on earth, it could have taken god knows how long to recover.

'Now I can focus on increasing my strength and one day I will unravel this new energy and also recover my damaged memories.' - Soul

Well then, let's.... What? A presence? Where?

I felt a powerful force approaching me. A powerful spirit. Unlike the spiritual entities I met till now, none were as powerful as the one appearing before me. I was on guard. I feet that this spirit is more than a billion times stronger than the abomination I faced. No matter how we fight right now I won't ever win.

From the earth before me a brilliant blue light came and went, and then a glowing blue beautiful woman came out as a spirit. She was wearing a beautiful divine dress, she was floating in the air and had long blue hair that almost reached the ground.

I was shocked and amazed at the spiritual power and the beauty she radiated. Along with spiritual power I could sense that her power consists of the new type of energy I found on this planet as well. Her posture reminds me of kings and queens I read about in stories.

She looked at me and smiled. I almost thought she was my mother. My gaurd loosened a bit. I can't remember my real mother but I knew how I feel when I was near my parents. For some reason the spirit before me gave me the same feeling. If I had a body right now I would be crying. I can feel the sadness of not being able to see or remember my family but it feels a bit different since I don't have a body anymore.

'<How are you feeling?... Have you recovered young one?>' - Female Spirit

I can't understand the language. This is going take some time.

I hope that nobody finds it boring. If it does feel so, please comment. I will try my best to improve.

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