She is in the emotional hell

Noah is growing faster and becoming stronger day by day.

I can't believe, the simple words of Alpha made him stop all his naughtiness.

He didn't do anything stupid to hurt himself or anyone or anything from that day !

He listens to me.

If he doesn't like something, he tells me rather than breaking anything !

He reaches my waist now within two months and I am sure, he is going to be the beasty one like his father and the Alpha.

I am enjoying my motherhood so much.

I love him and he loves me back, even more than I do !

He doesn't eats without getting me eat with him. He helps me in everything I do.

He helps his father as well and loves him too.

They share a friendly bond more than the father-son one and I am glad they do !

Noha shares everything with Daniel and that makes me relieved.

So much have happened in such a little time.

Alpha killed his brother the day Noah was born. He's been preparing himself to become his brother, so that he can take his place and get to his mate.

I am surprised, he took this long to kill his brother.

He was torching her way too much and he couldn't see her hurt, yet he waited !

Alpha and Daniel made rounds around the home and office of his brother and got ready to enter the home and his mate's life.

Dani doesn't leaves Alpha alone.

He is new to the human life now.

I mean he was a human once, but he got used to be a wolf and forgot how to behave like humans !

So, to avoid any accident, Dani makes sure to stop him before it becomes too late.

Dani isn't giving me the attention and time he should now a days !

I mean he is busy with Alpha and giving his all time to him.

Let it be, to think about it only hurts me and nothing else.

I'd rather focus on my child than getting upset with my mate and Alpha !

" Noah, dinner time ! "

I called him to leave for a hunt.

" Mumma, let's go far tonight.

I don't like hunting closer to the pack. "

Noah said without looking in my eyes. That's surprising, he never talks without looking into my eyes !

" And why is that so ? "

I asked.

" Everyone teases me for taking you with me while hunting ! "

Noah said looking on the ground.

" What ?

Why ? "

What happened ?

" Because they say I am grown up now and should hunt myself and not take you everywhere with me. "

Noah said pouting his lips.

So, innocent and naive my child is !

" Hmmm.

Is this what THEY say or what YOU want ? "

I asked him.

" What ? "

Noah asked confused.

" Do you want to go hunt alone ? "

I asked him.

" No Mumma !

If I wanted to hunt alone why would I've asked you to go far ? "

Noah said.

" Do you want me to come with you ? "

I asked.

" Ofcourse Mumma.

I love hunting with you.

You tell me a lot of interesting things about many things in the forest and about our pack which nobody tells me otherwise ! "

Noah said with sparkling eyes.

" Baby, if you are not ashamed of me being with you and if you want me to be with you then, darling you don't have to pay attention to what others say !

They'll say something no matter what you do.

So, it's upto you what do you want to focus on ?

If YOU don't want me, then stop taking me with you and if YOU want me to be with you then, don't think about anyone else than YOU ! "

I told him caressing his back.

" Mumma, if it's my decision to make and only my life is going to get affected, then why do others think it's their duty to influence it ? "

Noah asked a matured question !

Alpha is right, he is way to mature for his age.

" Baby, it's called society !

They are like, we don't care what's happening in OUR lives but we definitely want to affect YOUR life !

And it's upto us, what do we choose as our priority ?

If we make the society our priority, our life will become more peaceful; but we won't enjoy it !

We won't be able to do what we actually want to do.

And if we make our happiness our priority, our life won't be much peaceful; but we'll be the most happy individual on the earth !

Do you know why ? "

I asked.

" Why ? "

Noah asked not knowing the answer.

" Because baby, not everyone have the guts to make their own decisions and face the consequences without blaming others ! "

I told him cupping his face.

" What is your priority, Mumma ? "

Noah asked innocently.

" My happiness ! "

I told him with a smile.

" Have you done something that didn't made your life peaceful but happy ? "

Noah asked.

Now what should I tell you love ? My life was nothing but hell before your father came in life !

" Yes baby.

I've heard so mean and bad words for me and yet I didn't let the society get under my skin and did what I wanted to !

It made them pissed at me for not doing what they wanted me to and it actually gave me satisfaction for getting under their skin without even trying ! "

I said.

He nodded, but I know he didn't got what I said.

" They saying mean things can never hurt me physically, so why should I let them control my life ?

It's my life and I have every right to spend it the way I want to.

They are no one to tell me what to do."

I said making it simple for him to understand.

" Wow, Mumma.

It sounds so right ! "

Noah said finally understanding what I meant.

" Because darling, it is ! "

I said pulling him closer to me into a hug.

" What do you mean by peace ? "

Noah asked.

" Peace can be anything according to everyone. We can't define it. "

I said.

" No, no.

I am asking about what you just said that, not peaceful but happy. "

Noah said.

" Oh, that one !

That peace is, not having to answer people about whatever you do.

It's peaceful, like doing anything we want and nobody would ask, why we did what we did ?

What did we got by doing that ?

Just do it and be happy in your life is the best peace to have !

But the tragedy is, no one would let you alone and be peaceful for a while.

They'll want to know why did you went out of the flow ?

Is the conventional way not enough ?

Do we think it's wrong ?

Are we trying to destroy the conventional one and replace it with new ones ?

They do all things in the world except for trying to understand that it's our life and we can do whatever we want ! "

I said remembering the phase of my life when I was the slut and bitch for my own pack !

" I am sorry Mumma, I put the others my priority instead of me.

I don't care what others think about me, you will come with me while hunting as long as you can !

Let's go now, I am so hungry. "

Noah said wrapping his arms around me.

I kissed his forehead lovingly.

" Ofcourse darling.

Let's go to the...

Wait...

What's it... "

Dani is trying to contact me.

I need to concentrate.

' Kath, Luna need our help !

She is in danger.

She told Alpha not to follow her and I can't help her, can you please... '

Dani said with the mind link we didn't disconnected as he wasn't being close to me and we didn't have any other way of communicating.

' I don't trust her ! '

Alpha growled.

' Alpha, I swear I don't hate her anymore.

I won't hurt her.

Let me help her and prove my loyalty to you ! '

I said assuring him.

' Alpha, please trust her.

Luna needs help right away.

She is hurt way too much. '

Dani said convincing him.

' But she... '

Alpha was doubtful of my intentions because of my past record.

' I know I've said mean things for her, but it's past now Alpha !

I said that because I had liking for you then.

Now I have my mate and my pup.

Just trust me, please ! '

I said.

' Ugh...

Ok.

Get some herbs on your way from Cathsia, she is hurt. '

Alpha said agreeing to let me help her.

' Add your blood to the paste, it'll heal her injuries... '

Dani said.

' That's not happening !

Don't you dare use your blood... '

Alpha growled angrily.

' Alpha, our blood have healing properties.

Her injuries will heal super fast and she won't have to bear the pain for long time ! '

I told him what he already knew.

' But... '

Alpha said not agreeing with me.

' Rick, please.

Try to understand ! '

Dani tried to make him see I was right.

' She is my to be mate !

Why don't YOU understand, I don't want anyone else to use their blood for her other than me.

You know it influences the person ! '

Alpha said getting anxious.

' Alpha, I am a female !

Which way could I possibly influence her ?

It should be fine.

I am not asking Dani to do that.

Even I won't let him do that !

But right now she needs help, please let me help her.

Let me take her to you and then she is all yours ! '

I said urgently.

I know I am not her fan, I never was ! But now that she is in immense pain and away from Alpha, I am feeling like helping her to get her back to him !

' Ok, fine ! '

Alpha said accepting our plan with irritation.

' Now hurry up and get her some medicines. '

Alpha said.

' Right away ! '

I said to him and he disconnected our link.

I turned to the little hopeful and anxious pair of eyes.

" I am sorry, baby.

Mumma needs to be somewhere.

I can't accompany you this time.

Come with me. "

I said grabbing his hand softly.

" Where Mumma ? "

Noah asked.

" To Cathsia. "

I said and he followed me like a good boy.

I know he is scared of her; almost half of the pack is scared of her.

But I know she is such a sweetheart.

She never hurts anyone nor does she pokes her nose in anybody's business.

Knock knock

I knocked at her chamber's door.

" Who's that ? "

Cathsia asked.

" It's me, Katharine. "

I replied.

" Oh, get inside. "

Cathsia said softly.

I entered her chamber and Noah hesitated at the door.

" Oh, look who's here !

Come on in darling, I won't bite you ! "

Cathsia said to Noah with a warm smile.

" Cathsia, I need some medicines.

Alpha just told me that... "

I came straight to the point we don't have much time.

" Luna needs help !

I know.

Here, I already have the herbs ready for you. "

Cathsia completed my sentence for me and handed me the bag of the herbs.

" How did you... "

I was surprised at her words and action.

" Don't think about it, you won't get it. "

She said.

Are you talking this pup too with you ? "

Cathsia asked eyeing Noah.

" Ofcourse not !

I can't take him to the other end of forest at this hour of night !

Would you please look after him ? "

I asked.

" Ofcourse, why not ?

And I have some food for the baby.

You like burgers, don't you ?

Somebody went to town today and got those for me. And I even have some chocolate ice cream ! "

Cathsia said to Noah.

" I...

I can try th...

Them. "

Noah stammered.

He is shaking with fear.

I pulled him close to me,

" Baby, you don't have any reason to be afraid of her.

You know, she is the one because of whom, you came in this world safely ! "

I told him trying to get him close to her.

He must feel comfortable with her after I left !

" What ?

How ? "

Noah asked curiously.

" I'll tell you the story, your mother needs to leave now. "

Cathsia said reaching her out for him.

" Be back soon, Mumma. "

Noah said and hesitatingly put his hand in her.

" Ofcourse baby.

I'll be back by the time she finishes telling you the whole story.

Be a good boy and don't trouble her, ok ? "

I said.

" Ok. "

Noah nodded.

" Now, give Mumma a kiss and say bye. "

He kissed my cheek and I pressed my lips to his forehead and left for Luna.

I carried my gown in my teeth and turned.

I started running as fast as I could and followed her and Dani's scent.

When I reached there, Dani was in her wolf form and guarding the hut she was in.

I turned and got dressed.

I put the herbs in a bag and went to him.

" Is she hurt too much ? "

I asked concerned.

' Yes, she is bleeding bad.

She got hurt at her knee and the feets.

Make sure you cover all her injuries, ok ? '

Dani said.

" Yes, I will.

You stay hidden close by. "

I said.

He purred in approval and vanished in the darkness.

I got in the hut,

" Oh...

Who are you ?

What are you doing here ?

And oh my god, you are badly hurt ! "

I said to her.

She was sitting on the floor her back pressed to well for support and her legs stretched out.

" This is my home, who are you ? "

Jenifer asked me confused.

" Oh, I didn't know it is your home.

Nobody came here for a month or two so, I thought nobody lives here.

But what happened ?

Why are you this hurt ? "

I asked her trying to get her to take the herbs I got for her.

" It's none of your business.

Just get out !

And why did you came here at first place ? "

Jenifer said confronting me.

She have such a mouth...

' Katherine ! '

Alpha growled in warning.

' I am sorry, Alpha. '

I said.

" Oh, it is my business !

I am a...

You can call me a doctor.

I am Katharine.

I practice herb science and I treat people with my medicines. "

I said.

" Why are you here ? "

Jenifer asked me.

" Listen, I am sorry.

Nobody came here for months now and I couldn't find a place to stay, so I started living here and practice my profession.

I'll leave, now that you are back.

But please let me treat your injuries, they are looking bad ! "

I said trying to get her to let me use the herbs already !

But she is stubborn.

" I can't trust you !

What if you give me some dangerous herbs instead of the medicinal ones and hurt me ? "

Jenifer said doubting me.

" No I won't, I promise !

I am a doctor, my duty is to save lives at cost of mine if it takes, why would I hurt you ? "

I said sounding genuine.

" I don't know !

May be I lost the capacity to trust people ! "

Jenifer said sadly more to herself than me.

" Oh dear, what's wrong ? "

I asked.

I need to get her talk to me, otherwise she won't let me treat her.

" I don't know.

I've been living my life in a particular way, with particular people and suddenly I realised, my whole life was a lie !

Like my life was a dream, I opened my eyes and suddenly nobody is the person I've known my entire life till now. "

Jenifer said pain in her voice.

She is definitely talking about Alpha !

" Life plays bad games with everyone, dear.

That doesn't mean we should stop trusting everything !

It is life.

We are humans, we need partners to spend our life.

We can't spend it all alone.

We all need someone to go back to, when we feel everything is falling apart ! "

I said trying to get her to think of Alpha for what I said.

" But what to do when, the one you run to everytime is the biggest myth you ever believed ? Where to go then ?

What to do ? "

Jenifer said helplessly, tears forming in her big olive eyes !

I feel bad for her.

" Just trust your heart !

Believe it and do what it asks you to.

Because, heart is never wrong.

Sure it'll take time to make decisions, but it won't give you a wrong one ! "

I said.

I am determined to change her perception towards Alpha.

I am gonna make her thinking positive about him.

They both have suffered for so long, they both deserve the happiness with eachothers.

I will do everything in my power to get them together !

" How are you this sure about it ? "

Jenifer asked.

" May be not exactly like you did, but I too have faced such situations when, I didn't know for sure what to do ?

Whom to choose ?

Whom to hold on and let whom go ?

Then I closed my eyes and thought about all the times when I was alone, scared, lost and then, asked my heart who was there with me in those dark times ? "

I thought about Dani.

And a smile spread on my face.

I looked at her and continued....

" Look, our own shadow leaves us when the sun sets.

But moon is the one who shows us the correct path when it is dark !

It doesn't matter who was with us at the day, what matters is, who didn't left our side when it got dark !

Do it, your heart will definitely lead you to the moon of your life ! "

I said with a smile.

" And what if, it did asked me to go back to the same person who made me realise that my entire life was a lie ?

The person who kept me from all my loved ones ? The person who turned out to be a monster whom I thought was an angel ?

What should I do then ? "

Jenifer was slowly considering what was I telling her.

I must press on some more.

" Do you think you are an angel ? "

I asked her.

I know she called Alpha as her angel and now she is calling him the monster who killed her family; FAKE family and his own bastard brother !

It's the best to prove her she is wrong considering Alpha a monster !

" What ?

What kind of question is this ?

Why would I... "

Jenifer was confused with my sudden question.

" Do you think ? "

I pressed on her to answer the question.

" I guess. "

Jenifer said not sure of her answer.

" You guess ?

Ok, have you been good to each and everyone ?

Weren't you mean to anyone at some point of your life ?

Did you treated even the meanest and worst person as you treated the good ones ?

Didn't you do something mean or evil or haven't even though something evil for anyone ? "

I asked her.

Everyone had done something like that in their lifetime.

And know she was wishing for husband to die so that, she would be free from his torcher !

" Um...

I guess no... "

Jenifer said admitting.

" See ?

Everyone has an angel and an evil side !

You can't judge an angel by his evil side, this is just not fair !

Everyone is evil for someone and angel for someone.

What you have to focus on is, whether he is an evil or an angel for you ? "

I said and watched her expressions change.

She is considering my words.

" Being selfish sometimes helps you to make the right decision for yourself !

And the way you are telling me everything was a myth for you, you must now think about yourself and your happiness only.

You too deserve to be happy ! "

I said with a smile.

" Who are you ? "

Jenifer asked suddenly.

" Wha...

What do you mean ? "

Her sudden question surprised me.

Does she know me ?

Did she realized that I am here as Alpha's lawyer ?

" You said you were a doctor, but you told me many useful and good things just like a philosopher and a guide ! "

Jenifer said with a smile.

" I am glad, I could be a help to you.

So, now please let me treat your injuries. "

I said.

She nodded in approval.

I turned my back on her and crushed the herbs Cathsia gave me.

I bited my hand and added my flowing and warm blood in the mixture.

I waited for hand to heal and then turned around.

I cleaned her wound with fresh and clean water and applied the paste on her injuries.

She hissed at the burn it caused on her open wound.

I covered those with the clean cloth and tied it so that she won't bleed or the paste won't get away from her injuries.

She was looking at me like she wanted to say something, but was not sure wheather to ask me or not.

She sighed in defeat of her conflict and finally said,

" Katherine, can I give you a bit more trouble, please ? "

Jenifer said sheepishly.

" Anything my dear... "

I said and before she could say anything...

" Aaaauuuuuu.... "

Robert howled in the nearby area !

What the hell is he doing here ?

" Was it a...

Did a wolf just howled ? "

Jenifer said scared.

She turned pale to hear him howling.

She is shivering in horror.

" N... "

I tried to deni, but she was talking to herself than me,

" I've been...

living here for my half life...

I've...

I've...

Never heard a wolf howling this close to this vicinity... "

Jenifer was scared to death.

" Don't worry, dear.

He'll go his way.

The wolves don't hurt humans... "

I tried to comfort her.

" They do ! "

Jenifer almost screamed in panic.

' Alpha, does she know about you being a wolf ? '

I asked.

' No. I didn't told her ! '

Alpha replied.

" Did you saw one ? "

I asked her to confirm who it could be ?

" Yes !

A...

A big brown wolf...

dragged a man from our group in the forest, few months ago !

The other men...

tried to save him...

But they got only the remaining of his clothes the next day ! "

Jenifer said shivering in fear.

' Robert ! '

Alpha and Dani echoed with me together.