State of Confusion

Alex woke up the next day alone in her room. She was trying ro remember what happened last night. She was sure Carlos slept beside her. She remembered cuddling each other to sleep but where is he now?

She checked the clock on her bedsude table. It says 9:43 a.m. It's a Sunday. Normally, she spends Sundays resting but today, she feels like she has all the energy to do any activity.

She got on her bathroom after getting out from bed to take a shower. She wants to look fresh when she comes out from her room. Just the thought of spending this day with Carlos makes her excited. Now that she is sure about her feelings for the man, she would start acting like a real woman, maybe it would take some time to get used to it.

After taking a shower, she opened her wardrobe to look for clothes she can wear for today. All her clothes are men's clothing. Most of them are loose t-shirts, long shorts and jeans. She decided to choose shorts and a blue shirt. She tied it on the end so it wouldn't look too big for her. She also applied powder and liptint and hurriedly went out from her room.

She reached the living room empty so she decided to go to the kitchen. Maybe they are preparing for lunch and knowing Carlos' personality, she was sure he is helping in the preparations. She was disappointed to find the kitchen with no one.

"Where's everybody?" She thought.

She went outside and found the driver cleaning his father's car.

"Good morning. Where's everyone?" Alex asked.

"Wooh! Ma'am Alex, is that you? Why do you look so different?"

Alex could feel her blood gushing through her face. She tried to hide her cheeks. "Is it not good?"

"You look so pretty ma'am. You should always look like that. I'm sure your dad will be verg happy."

"Where are they anyway? Why is no one preparing lunch? Where is Carlos?" Her voice became softer upon mentioning his name.

"Mr. Carlos is playing golf now with his friends. He said he wanted to drive on his own and he used the other car. Your mom left with him, I don't know where she went. And your husband.."

"He's not my husband!" snapped Alex which made the old man surprised but he was smiling.

"Sir Carlos left very early, maybe before 6 a.m. A car picked him up."

Alex was so disappointed and left the old man without saying any word. Why didn't he even left a not or send her a message? He's very rude to leave without even letting her know. She went back to her room and washed her face. She also untied her shirt and went back to her bed. She checked her phone hoping she got a message from Carlos but there was none.

"He should never come back here again!" She shouted. She threw her pillows on the floor and lied on her bed covering herself with her blanket.

After a few minutes, she stood up, got her phone and called someone.

"Hi, babe. What's up? (pause) "Sorry, I was busy with basketball practice and you know what happened to my granny recently so I spent more time with her. (pause) I miss you. I want to see you. I miss your kisses and your hugs. (pause) Please don't get mad anymore baby. Let's meet now. My treat. We can eat anywhere you want. (pause) Yes, baby. See you after an hour then. Please wear something sexy okay? (pause) Yeah, see you."

It was Michelle, her ex-girlfriend. What happened last night almost made her forget about who she really is and what she really wants. She is Alex Lopez, she can get any woman she wants to date with! She was lost for a while and was tempted to give up her realy identity but now, she found her way back. No one, not even Carlos can make her forget who she really is.

She opened her closet, got a white shirt and a jacket and black tattered jeans. After changing clothes, she put on her baseball cap and sprayed perfume. She left her place in a splash to meet the person she was talking with.

...

"Baby!"

A woman wearing thick make up and mini skirt hung her arms on Alex neck hurriedly when they met. She is wearing crop top which reveals her figure.

"I miss you so much, baby." She kissed Alex's lips and hugged her again.

Her name is Michelle. She was Alex's gf before she met Carlos. They have already broken up but Michelle still likes Alex and whenever the latter calles the former, she would happily oblige.

"You look so beautiful, today."

"Thank you. Do you like my outfit?"

"Yeah, you look so sexy. I want to spank you."

"I know you will come back to me. Why don't we order something and get back to my place. My parents are on a holiday so we have my place all by ourselves." Michelle gave her a tempting look and Alex knew what her gf wants. What she likes about her is her aggressiveness especially in bed.

"I would love that."

The two went to a burger store and bought food for themselves. Michelle wrapped her arm around Alex waist and hugs her from time to time. Anyone seeing them would be envious to Alex since Michelle is indeed very sexy and pretty. After getting their orders, they went straight to Michelle's place.

Alex couldn't help but feel uncomfortable with the situation. It was not her first time to go to Michelle's home. Actually, she has stayed here maybe once a week when they were still a couple. She knows the place very well and she has spent intimate moments with her everytime they are here but now, she keeps thinking of Carlos. She checks her phone from time to time expecting a message or a call from him but nothing came. It is already 2 p.m. and she can't think of any reason why he wouldn't send him a simple message explaining why he left without a word. She promised herself that if she gets a message from him, she would go home immediately and stop playing with Michelle and the longer she doesn't hear from him, the more she gets mad at him.

"What's wrong? You're very quiet?" The two are now in Michelle's bedroom. She sat on Alex's lap and started playing with her neck.

"Nothing. I'm just tired."

"Does that mean you can't touch me today? I will be disappointed if you don't do what you usually do with me. I missed you so much."

Michelle started kissing Alex. Alex closed her eyes but didn't move. She couldn't stop imagining kissing Carlos. Michelle started undressing. She got Alex's hands and put them on her chest.

Alex was just staring at her. Normally, she loves to be in this situation where she could explore her girlfriend's body but this time, she doesn't feel anything. She doesn't to disappoint Michelle but she also doesn't want to do anything with her.

Michelle lied on her bed and was teasing Alex more by playing with her boobs. Not wanting to make her feel bad, Alex played along and started carressing her body. She knows well how to satisfy a woman and she is loved by her girlfriends because of this skill. She licked Michelles boobs and played with her private part. She started moving which made Michelle moaned loudly. Her moans become louder and louder as Alex moved faster and faster. She did it until Michelle reached her climax.

Alex could feel a sense of guilt inside her which she didn't feel before. After washing, she apologized to Michelle and left immediately. She got home and still didn't receive any message from Carlos. The anger is now changed with worry. She is worried that something happened to Carlos that's why he couldn't send her a message. She feels gulity for playing with Michelle's feelings and using her to forget about Carlos. She is confused about who she really is now and what she really wants. The things that she enjoyed doing before doesn't excite her that much anymore.

Is she really in love with Carlos?