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Sometimes I act like I know but i'm really just a kid, or am I? I don't know at this point. I don't even think I am alive right now.

Nothing helps. I just need to understand when I should power through and when I need to talk to you.. But I can't. I'm the bully in my life I am mentally and pysically unfit. You must think i'm insane but i'm not.

The world has made it quite clear that a burden to this world is the exact refelection of me, not her. Not my past-self, She was too innocent for this world, they killed her, Or did I?

I don't know, all I know is sometimes I drown in empty thoughts.

It's quite comforting. At least I am helpful to those who need to get rid of their frustration.

I understand, I can't do anything right, I have no will to do anything. How long can I keep this act up?

What if i give up right now? I can't not because of others but because of her... I didn't realise how hard her life was going to get everytime I breathe it feels like im being stabbed by spirits...

maybe if I had some time to myself?... No, I don't know what I would do to her she is embedded in my memory. I'm sorry... I was the one who killed you, but right now I wish i could lay beside you and ask you what I can do now? i wish i can take a trip down my memories and meet her again... meet me again.