Sometimes heartbreak is just that, heartbreak. It doesn't build you, it doesn't make you stronger … it only hurts.
And I hurt.
The worst part of heartbreak is when you don't have any type of closure, when it just happens. When the person that loved you wakes up and decides that they don't love you anymore.
A million things are running in my mind of the possibilities that could have led to him moving on but I come up with nothing. My heart is bleeding and I am crying from the inside. The kind of crying that no tears come out but you can feel everything inside tearing up, you can feel your heart constricting.
I am seated at the bench at the front of the hospital. The snow I falling a little faster and I'm freezing. But I just want to be numb. I want to numb the pain I feel that is consuming me from within. I want to feel less, I want to forget everything.