Running-in

Lou Cheng was waiting for his girlfriend to be touched by his attentiveness and consideration while washing the cup. He had not expected to be met with such words at all. For a time, he was dumbfounded, aggrieved, and a little confused by the situation.

If I thought of you as an outlet for my desires, then why had I held back so painfully every time?

If I thought of you as an outlet to my desires, then why had I bothered testing the waters before daring to take a step further every time?

He turned around and saw those complex and indiscernible emotions were mingled in the girl's eyes. Then, he inhaled a mouthful of air and worked hard to keep himself calm. He tried not to turn the explanation into an argument. "There's no way I'd think of you like that kind of tool. Plus, the reason why I dared to go forward is only that you didn't turn me down every time. If you dislike it, you can tell me or express it directly. I'll hold back and not force you to do things you don't like!"