chapter 3 In a teenagers world there is no happy ending

The day of the funeral

Alexa went into a serious depression she didn't even want to carry on with the burial, I didn't know what to do. A month ago Alexa was more than fine and she was happy.

I sigh… let me not make this about a month ago cause I've lived with a bipolar person half of my life, today she's happy the next minute she is something else.

I can be sad with her. I won't try to cheer her up. I will let her grieve the way she wants to.

The funeral went fine but it was just us three who were representing the family and the rest were just people her uncle knew. I can't relate to it. I buried my grandmother alone, when she died. Sad truth but it made me strong. Losing her was a gain and a loss at the same time. I cried till I had no more tears left to cry for her anymore I just got sad.

Hopefully Alexa gets through this. I am here for her.

"What's so interesting outside that window?" she asks. I did not realize how much I was thinking, while I was looking through the window I spotted my parents' car.

"I think I just saw my parent's car pulling in the driveway, I'm not sure who told them I'm here ugh… I despise them".

"Why so much hatred towards them"?

"It's complicated family matters, plus you're already not looking well. I don't want to stress you even more. I'm here to take care of you, my princess charming ". I say cupping her face.

"Well we must go shake more hands, show appreciation, respect and serve more scones and tea, and check if your parents are really here so you can introduce me?"

"Do I have too?"

"Yes, come". She says holding my hand as we walk out.

Are they really my parents or is my mind just playing tricks on me? I feel like they are the cause of all the deaths I come across...?

"Good Afternoon Mr & Mrs Rennison".

Rennison? what… whose last names are my parents using I thought we were Grammar, they haven't noticed me yet cause I am looking down wearing a white scuff over my head covering my neck and a part of my face because it's cold and my lips are quivering.

Alexa holds right my hand as I'm forming a fist and intertwines it with her hand because she can see that I'm fuming with anger underneath the scuff.

"We send our deepest condolences', let this make you stronger than you are Miss Paige. we know you have the strength of your uncle". Said Mr & Mrs Rennison.

"Can I interest you in anything to drink Mr & Mrs Rennison?" I said, both their faces were in shock.

"Romina, what are you doing here? How do you know each other"? Asked my dad with a loud tone.

"Small world I guess and I should be the one to ask you that after letting me bury your mother alone".

I said with tears in my eyes. "But Romina you are selfish, your mother paid for everything all you could do for once is thank us, be grateful".

"Grateful!?" I let out a heavy sign.

"If it wasn't for Alexa I would have entertained you but I am not going to. I respect her and not everything has to do with money." I said and walked back inside the house leaving Alexa standing in front of my parents.

"I think you shouldn't stay any longer, I know you are both my Uncle's friends and he is grateful for both of your presence. Now please before you cause another scene, leave thank you." Said Alexa and left them standing there.

She ran after Reo but Alexa couldn't find Romina, the funeral service ended and Reo is still MIA. Alexa sat down on a chair in the kitchen, took out her cell phone and dialed Romina's number as she was doing that Romina walked in the kitchen door and asked. "Who are you calling, you look very concerned?"

"I am calling you. She says and signs… "means was calling you where have you been"?

"I'm sorry I needed to clear my mind and I didn't want you to see me stressing because you're going through a lot. I was at the back, I apologies". I said and walked to her.

"Okay fine I understand but you also need to understand that when you have each other you don't have to do things alone this time".

"Okay, I am not promising but I will try". I said and she pulled me in for a hug.

"Can you help me pick up the paper cups outside?"

"Yes, how are you holding up everything aside from everything?" I asked as we walked out to the front yard and picked up the paper cups on the tables.

"To be honest with you Reo, I am not good. I was never good. I am just good at pretending that I am good if it wasn't for you. I don't know if I'd still be alive or not. The day I met you and saw you cry my heart ached strangely when I spoke your eyes suddenly glittered with fear, hurt, anger and curiosity your eyes, never in one place wondering around like a scared puppy, I found it surprisingly cute that day I had been with my uncle he was so sick it pained me to the point where I had committed suicide multiple times but never succeeded". She said and set down on the green grass, I sat right next to her and she continued.

"I couldn't bare the being alone in this world. he had been sick for three years but this year he became worse, the doctor said he had 6 months to live but it turned to three long painful years that was before my parents died, my father was addicted to cocaine he died of an overdose my mother was an alcoholic she was beaten to death, my older sister loved my mother I like her too but..."

She let out a heavy sigh.

"...But not when she was drunk their behavior damaged me mentally they had to take me to a psychiatric hospital."

"I hated it there. When I got out of there I went to live with my uncle. He gave me a healthy lifestyle".

"What happened to your sister?"

"Followed her first loves footsteps drug overdose".

"That must have been hard to deal with. I'm glad that you're okay and healthy".

"Guess the universe kept me for you". she said.

"If wasn't for my trust issues I would have showed you all my scares in the start"

"It's okay I'm not going to love you based on who you were or what has happened but I will love you for who you are becoming for the women that makes me happy".

Oprah Winfrey said: you don't have to hold yourself hostage to who you used to be, or anything you ever used to do.

"You really do love literature, did you really bury your mother's mother alone?"

"Yep I did".

"That sucks". She says and giggles, I look at her, smile and we continue with the cleaning up.

This year has taught both Romina and Alexa a lot.

When you live with no fear life is less threatening.

I hope that both of them have gained in these experiences because we might think we have enough time with someone than within a few days, a few months and a few years later you wish that their absence were less and their presence were more, to share moments with us.

"We are forever together right"? She asks.

"I like living in the now with the things that have to do with emotions because we are still young and I don't want to hurt or get hurt but it's the people we meet and the choices we make right?" I said not wanting to hurt her.

"Well Reo, let us do just that, let me take you on a date tonight at eight pm".

"Never been on one before".

"And it will be our first date ever since we started being friends".

"Oh yes, but we have a problem".

"Which is"? "I don't have a dress to wear".

"Don't worry you will wear some of mine".

"Oh…that's such an insult, have you seen me, do you want me to lose that much weight? I wouldn't fit in any of your clothes have you seen my ass, my thighs and my boobs".

She giggles "you're cute, no I am not insulting sorry if you felt that way I didn't mean too and yes, I have seen everything and I think you are perfect the way you are and we are going shopping".

"Sorry I overreacted and isn't it late for shopping, cause it's around six pm".

"Really wonder where we will find a last minute dress, you know what a friend of my uncle owns a boutique so we can call her and ask if she has a dress for you there so she can come over here and you will choose the dress of your choice sounds good?"

"It sounds promising, can you please choose a beautiful dress?"

"I will see you can count on your princess charming to save your day". I chuckle, you're hilarious.

"Now let me go get my phone inside".

"Don't you think we should go inside, I'm freezing outside?"

"Oh yes, yes come please make yourself at home".

"Thank you".

"I think you should go get ready, I will choose the dress for you and prepare for our date madam is that fine with you?"

"Yes, it is thank you".

She made the call toTiff for the dresses. Luckily, Tiff just had new dresses that were just delivered this Friday, she is on her way with the dresses.

The dresses are gorgeous I took a dark red dress for Reo with glittery fabric like Romina eyes when we first met, the dress has a thigh high slit showing of her beautiful skin topped up with royal red earrings and a necklace made of crystal gemstone Carnelian which is a warm stone that boosts confidence and the power of true expression.

Alexa took a black mermaid dress for herself and she asked tiff to get Romina ready while she was busy setting up the table and she still needed to get herself ready, she asked one of the house helpers what she needed they told her that they got it covered she should get ready too.

A few minutes later Alexa was all set and done waiting for Romina outside in the cold weather.

I walked out the door looking beautiful, Alexa couldn't stop herself and said.

"You are beautiful Romina, always been beautiful".

"I feel beautiful thank you, you are gorgeous yourself, I am in love with that black lipstick you got on it suits you, are we having dinner outside in this weather if so I am freezing".

Alexa lets out a short laugh.

"No, come let me show you".

She took my hand and we both walked towards the guest house where a white carpet was leading the way to a house with huge glass windows that showed a table for two. The setting is like a magical forest with no fairies. I am so blown away by what she has done in such a short time. Alexa pulled out a chair for me.

"Thank you". I said.

"Hope you're not allergic to anything".

"I am not but I do hate sushi, did I tell you how that mermaid dress sits beautifully on you, for once your hair is loose on your shoulder I mean that it's not in a bun I'm the one with a bun and it has a bounce, this weekend has been nothing but the worst yet the best weekend of my life thank you Alexa but I should be taking care of you".

Alexa blushes and giggles and says. "It doesn't matter, it gives me joy, I love the way your dress just glitters with your eyes".

"Thank you". I said and blushed.

We spent the whole evening eating, speaking and dancing the night away and we walked back to the house and got ready for bed, because it was cold we cuddled to sleep.

"Reo, are you asleep?"

"No, want to talk?"

"Yeah, Uhm…listen just know what ever happens you're the better part of me and you're all I have, sweet dreams".

I didn't answer because what she said was not a question, it was a statement all I did was to cuddle her tightly .

Their relationship worries me because one of them is not completely telling the other one everything that's at risk or maybe I'm wrong perhaps she is waiting for the right time.

Alexa has been through a lot. Having Reo has been the best part of Alexa's life and that's been good for Alexa, they both have been through a lot at young age in a teenager's world there is no happily ever after, no fairy tale but you and your hidden demons.