Ch 21 Rain can't wash away my pain.

A tear dropped down my eye. He was mine before she came but now, I felt like I didn't know him. He was like a total different person. Camilla was brain washing him. She was really evil and clever. My blood boiled. I was angry. She was his childhood friend. How could she not love him? She was in love with him and wanted to separate us. Alaric didn't understand that, he must have thought she would help her but she was the real evil in our story. She was the reason that the pages of our story were unfinished. I never thought I would hate anyone.

" I hate her....." I whispered with gritted teeth. 

" I hate her so much..." 

I was breathing heavily. I imagined Alaric and Camilla together. What if he leaved me because of her? I won't be able to bear it. 

These thoughts were spiralling in my head again and again. I was going crazy. 

 "Ahhhh....." I shouted. 

I kicked the vase, it dropped on the floor with a loud thud and broke to pieces. I liked that sound. I throwed many more vases on floor and throwed a vase on mirror. It broke and scattered on ground. Everything was broken like me. 

I saw myself in the broken mirror. My gown looked shabby. My hair were messy and scattered. Streams of dried tears could be seen on my face. My eyes were red from crying too much. I was pale. Was I like this before? 

" Princess..." Amy shouted on seeing me. I never realised she was in. She watched my state in horror. She came running towards me and hugged me. 

" I wasn't like this before." I cried and fell to ground. 

She sat beside me and wrapped her arms around me. I looked at her and said, " I..sob.... wasn't like.. sob...this...I am not...I.. sob" I cried in her arms. 

" I know princess you don't have to explain..." She said while grabbing me tightly.

I clutched her tightly and sobbed. I looked outside, clouds were thundering in the sky. They were dark and dense like my emotions. After a few seconds, heavy rain started pouring. I looked at Amy and asked," Amy..." I sniffed "Rain can wash dirt away. It can clean the mud on plants. Everything looks shiny after a rainfall, right"

" Yeah, princess but why are you asking that now....." She said while caressing my head. 

" Can it wash my feelings away? Can it wash my pain? I want to bathe in rain that can wash my feelings away forever...."

She looked at me with tears in her eyes and said," I wish it could do that, then I won't have to see you like this." 

I hated rainy days. I remembered my parents death. I was standing in front of their tombs. Rainy days only brought painful memories for me. If they were alive I wouldn't have to come here and I could live happily. I missed them so much.

" Princess, What happened? Please tell me." She begged me. 

" Do you remember I told you I am in love? I am in love with Alaric...." and I told her everything. 

After hearing me, she was speechless. 

" Do you think I am wrong? I can't control myself, I love him so much....."

" Princess, I am with you always whether you are right or wrong and you are the strongest person I have ever seen." She said. Her voice reflected determination. She was really with me. 

" Camilla had everything. She is living a fairytale life not me. She is rich, beautiful and even know Alaric before me but she can't accept that Alaric choose me not her. She is jealous of me because I don't have anything but still he loves me and not her..." 

" Princess, relax....Everything will be fine." She said in a desperate voice. 

It gave me relief. It was more than enough for now. 

Alaric

It was raining heavily. I wanted to meet her so badly. When I met her today, I saw her different side. Did I make her like that? Was it my mistake? Am I doing something wrong? She was thinking very wrongly. I couldn't let that happen. I had to explain myself. I had to meet her. 

I walked out to meet her. I climbed up the balcony and saw the room was dark. I stepped into the room and broken glass came under my foot.

The thunder cracked in the sky and I saw her room. Her room was a mess like a thunder came into her room and broke every object. 

On seeing that , I got anxious. Where was she? Was she hurt? Was she okay? 

" Madeleine..... " I called for her but she didn't respond. 

" Madel...." 

Someone interrupted and said," Princess is sleeping..." 

I saw her maid Amy coming towards me. I didn't notice her before because of dark. Why was she here?

I wasn't anxious about disclosure of our secret. I was more worried about her. 

" Where is she? Is she alright? " I asked. 

"Your highness, she is sleeping. It's better to talk out in balcony." 

I followed her out into balcony. 

" What is happening?" I asked. 

I was dying to meet her. 

" She is fine and sleeping..." She was looking at me with resentment in her eyes" Your highness, you saw the room. It's a chaos. Do you know who did it?" I didn't say anything. I was confused. 

" Princess did all that. Her internal state is even worse than what she did to room and it's because of you. You are responsible." 

" I don't..." I was dumbfounded by that information.

"Pardon, but you told lady Camilla that Princess lives in a fairytale. You don't know anything about her, do you?... She was eight years old when her parents died and she was banished to lone palace. She was abandoned at such a young age. I was just fourteen myself. To say, she was a princess but she didn't even see a gold coin until she came here...." She inhaled deeply. Tears filled her eyes " She used to smile brightly.She was the definition of life itself, but...now..it's like...it's like someone stole her precious smile, Someone stole her life. I want to see her happy and that can only be possible if you stay away from her." 

" She heard...."

" I don't know what is wrong and what is right. I just know that my princess is sad. She is really suffering right now..please." she begged me. 

Tears traced her cheeks.She wiped it and went inside.She closed the door and did the curtains. I saw a glimpse of her sleeping in bed. Traces of tears could be seen on her face. She was pale.

I turned around to walk away. She was lying in that state before me but even after seeing her like this I couldn't stop loving her. 

" I love her only..." I whispered to myself. 

I just wanted to diminish her attraction, I wanted to....wanted her to love me, the way I do. 

I was wet from rain when I was walking towards my room. I was too selfish. My selfishness made her like this. 

" Alaric...." Rick spotted me in the hallway. He rushed towards me and said,

"What happened? Why were you in rain?" 

My mind couldn't respond to his questions. It was still remembering the words Amy said to me.

"Alaric....." Rick said again and pulled me to my study. He made me sit in front of fire and sat beside me.

" I saw her today. She was....was broken. I made her like this.....She couldn't understand how much I love her. She doesn't want to." My heart was filled with her tears. She cried but I felt every drop.

" I can't understand it. It's complicated. Look at you, you are hurt. You are in pain." 

" Without pain you can't feel the happiness of love but I don't want her to suffer through this....She will be broken by the end of this." 

Tears dropped down my eyes. I couldn't do anything for her. She was her own enemy. I could only feel her pain. On the top of that, she heard me and Camilla. She heard only half. She won't understand us now but later.....

Rain had stopped but thunderstorm were still cracking in my heart, my soul. I could only support her from a distance.