She's like you

As I looked at our daughter. Love, she's a carbon copy of you. Like even the personalities she got it from you. I am missing you so much, Love. I don't know if I can survive it without you by my side. As I am looking at her I remember our kind of secret dates that was caught by your fans because of your unique laughter. This truly made me laugh and it caught my daughter's attention.

"Why are you laughing Mom? Do you remember one of the craziest things Dad does?" she asked me. At 5 years old she intelligent.

"Yes, sweetie. Do you want to hear it?" I ask her with enthusiasm laced in my voice, as I remember that it's like it happened yesterday.

"Yes, Mom!" She answered excitedly.

"Well, it was our 10th date that time…"

2012

"Jax are you sure that you're okay to have a date at the amusement park?" I asked him worriedly knowing it's not right for him to be seen dating publicly. It is against their contract. We never go to this kind of place but as his friends had said to him, well more on mock him, that I was never treated normally. I just rolled my eyes when I heard that. But knowing him he will do anything that will prove them that are wrong in thinking that. I on the other hand assured him that I am okay with keeping it secret I don't want to be a burden to him.

"I am sure about this Love. Look I am in disguise for this matter. Let us be normal for once." He said assuring me that he was okay even though he was poorly disguised, really a sunglasses and a facemask. That will do nothing since when you look from behind its looks like exactly Jax the Idol who wrote his number at the fan sign event which like six months ago. Also that pet name.. HO! That makes my heart skipped a beat. He looks at me again before getting out of our ride.

"This is okay Love. Nothing will happen. If we get caught, which is never, I have a statement on stand-by in this kind of situations. " he assured me.

"Okay. I'll calm down. And what about that statement? I never heard of that. Did you make already that without my consent?" I scolded him, well more likely interrogate him because of the statement he said which never crossed in our previous date, in calls or even messages.

"I'll tell you that later. For now, let's enjoy our date." Upon saying that he took my hand into his and pull me to the entrance of the amusement park which is packed since it's the weekend, to begin with.

"Two tickets, please. Which one should we ride or do you want to go on the arcade section?" he asked me while purchasing the tickets.

"I want to ride this first" I replied with a smile knowing he knows that we have the same type of adrenaline, which is we're super adventurous as his friends say, we are fearless and we only have one weakness him on the microwaves and as for me my grades.

"You know what to start first love. Okay Gyro drop first then what's next Roller Coaster?" he said smiling, well more likely excitements laced in his voice.

"What are we waiting for? Let's go!" I run with him tagging behind.

We've ridden the different thrilling rides. The sun was almost setting and we are now in the line for our last ride which the Ferris wheel and we're teasing each other. Then he laughed louder and hard which caught the people in our front the back. I heard the whispering that it was like Jax's laughter that they heard. I also heard that they might be imagining things which I deemed not it was him laughing. Well, it was our last ride, and almost at the front we just continue with it be a little wary that surrounds us.

"Finally at the front, we can finally see the whole amusement park and also the fireworks" I exclaimed since it was our last ride agenda

"Hey, I heard that Jax is right here earlier, some of the people said they saw him with a friend or a girlfriend, some said that he was laughing and enjoying his day or rather date." I heard to one of the girls that's behind me. I looked at him giving him a signal that someone saw us. Then I suddenly remember our conversation earlier before we got out of our car.

I just think that it's too early for them to know that Jax is in a relationship with his fan moreover that will be graduating this year, that will be starting to work. though I am not worried about the work part, I am worried about Jax. About his career, about his fans, his group members.

"Love I think someone saw us earlier," I whispered to him, worried that it might become a scandal and end his booming career.

"Well, it's earlier but never too late for them to know," he assured me that it's okay we can face it together. Then he suddenly laughs louder while going inside our cart. I just shake my head in his dorkyness. As we sat on the cart..

"It's okay Love, I already sent a message to my manager to release the statement and send bodyguards for us." He informed me while giving me a wink. That surely, there will be redness on the face. As we reached the top, the same fireworks coming into the air giving us a wonderful sight.

I felt him hold my hand and kissed it. " Look at me Rachelle," He said.

It's been a while he said my name. " It's going to be a big step for both of us and we're going to face it together. It will be difficult at first but we can face it. We have people that will support us, there are also are not." This encouraged me that we can and will can as long as we are happy.

LETTER

Hi, this is Jax,

As you've heard a rumor that I am dating. It's true and she's lovely, kind, intelligent beautiful, in short wonderful. Her personality is wonderful and she's gorgeous. I know it's sudden and conflicts with the contract that I am signed with, but I already talked with our management and they are fine with it as long that there are no conflicts. And she understands it all. I hope that you respect our decisions and will support us from today and onwards

Your Dorky,

Jax