I miss you

The morning came. I woke up with dried tears on my cheeks. I dreamed about him again. It was always the same dream ever since. The dream where we are at our favorite spot, our favorite to-go-to spot where its just us, no fangirl and no idol . its just Rachelle and Jax. That spot where we build our holiday home. Its been years since last visit with out daughter.

"Mom? Are you already awake?" My daughter asked while knocking at my door.

" Yes sweetie. Come in. " I softly shouted.

Its like just yesterday that I gave birth to our princess, to our only daughter.

June of 2016

"Love! I'm home!" He shouted as soon as he entered our house. "Love? Where are you?" he asked

"In the kitchen, Love" as soon that I said that, I felt his warm arms embracing me.

"How our princess?" he asked while swaying me in his warm embrace.

"She's doing fine and she settled a bit lower than yesterday." I replied with a smile while preparing dinner.

"You know I can do the cooking right?" he said while eyeing me.

"I know but your already tired from work." I retorted. I remember when he rarely comes home because of his packed up schedules since they've won the biggest award in the music industry which is 'Artist of the year'.

"Nonsense. Love, you'll be always my first priority even if it caused my career. Also the Company and the fans knows that I am already married to you. Which is a blessing since the company and the fans favors us. " He really has a ways with his words.

It was February 2015 when we sealed the deal. I remember that I almost become a runaway bride. I laugh as I remembered it vividly. He noticed that I am laughing so suddenly.

"What are laughing about Love?" He asked me with a smile and with his eyes that only sees me.

"Do you remember on that of our wedding that I almost backout?" I said while laughing

"Oh! I do. You really almost, well not almost but really, but thanks to Jude and to my band that they stopped you on stepping out of the venue. Come to think of it I never asked you the reason on why you almost backout. So why?" he laughs while asking me. I haven't told him the reason on why I did it. I really don't know why is it because I'm super nervous that time or that I'm afraid I will become a burden to him on his rising career.

"Well I think I am super nervous, because to many guest on our wedding and not only that there's some media too. They've been waiting outside of the venue." I replied while laughing so hard. That's when she decided to come out of this world.

"Uhm… Love I think my water just broke" I told him with nervous lacing my voice. With that felt contraction coming as I leaned on him for support.

"Love breathe in breathe out. Breathe in breathe out, just do that while we are walking to car okay." He says with calm lacing on his voice. I know him he's calm at first then.. His emotions will be all over the place.

"Did got the baby bag?" I asked him while doing what I've learned at childbirth classes that we both took.

"I did. Its in the car. It was always there. I also called the others and our parents that the baby is coming." He says as the matter of fact.

"when did you put the baby bag at the car?" "Well since on your first week of Nine month. " he says sheepishly.

"You really are ready. When the time comes huh? Your going to be the best Dad." I told him proudly

We came to the Hospital and I directly put at the maternity ward and our Doctor was already waiting for the both us.

" How are you feeling Rachelle?" Dr. Walsh asked.

To be truth… I was so much painful that my husband answered for me. " I think Dr. Walsh she's so much in pain due to contraction and 5 minutes apart." He answered calmly while asking me to do the breathing exercise that we're teached to the both of us.

"Can I have an epidural? Is it safe with the 5 minutes apart Dr. Walsh?"

"I'll asses first on how far along are you, then will take it from there. Okay Rachelle, just continue with your breathing." She said while giving us an encouraging words as she checks me.

I asked him if called our parents and friends, if he told them that I am giving birth already. He told that they are on their way here.

Present

Its an exhilarating moment that time, that finally we are going to meet our daughter. It's the happiest memory for that both us except of course our wedding day.

"Sweetie? What do you want to eat for breakfast?" I ask my daughter while picking thru the kitchen door.

"I want nuggets Mom." She told me while playing with her favorite doll which given by her Dad the day she was born. She always bring that stuffed bunny whenever we go.

June 2016

I was checked by Dr. Walsh resident every hour on how far along is my daughter was as I can't feel the contraction since they administered the epidural. I heard from the resident that its time. They are rushing around the room to get the equipment ready and they also have an Operating Room on stand by in case if it become more risky on the both us, me and my daughter. As they getting me ready they also informed Jax that its time. I heard that our parents ha arrived together with his friends while mine is stock at the traffic.

"Okay Love, are you ready to meet our baby?' he asked me with excitement and nervousness.

" I am more than ready." I assured him as I felt the pain acme back, the epidural has wear off.

" Okay Rachelle as you feel the contraction, push as hard as you can alright." I nod as I was given the instruction. As I felt the contraction I push as hard as I can…

At June 15, 2016, our beautiful baby girl was born… I am thankful that there are no complication to the both of us. As they gave me my baby girl, for me to carry, my husband says…

"Our baby girl is finally here. She's beautiful Love, like you. And Happy Birthday."

It stunned me. It never cross that I'll be giving birth to our baby girl at my birthday. I smiled and look at her.

"Happy Birthday to Us Louise Moon." Then kissed her forehead.