Jowell (protagonist) is a 15 year old highschool teen who isn't good at studying and doesn't have a friend and a family to take care of him except her grandma. One day he found himself lonely and sad, he is on the verge of killing himself but he suddenly remembered something and made it his inspiration and strenght do move forward and build a better life despite the reality's harshness towards him will he succed at doing it?

A guy dies and reincarnated as Emiya Shirou?



I don't own the characters and the cover isn't mine.
English isn't my first language and my writing skills are pitiful.

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After hitting his head on a rock, feeling nausea and pain all over his body, Lei, holding on to the walls, walked towards a strange light that was far from him.  Not knowing what kind of light it was and whether it was just an illusion, he simply moved his feet. He was afraid to stop, because once he stops the fear overtakes his mind completely. 

Having already spent several hours on empty walks through the strange labyrinth, he had long lost hope that Longwei was somewhere here.  As for Yun Qi, he was calm for some reason, as if he knew that everything was fine with her. 

Brushing away the sweat from his forehead, from his face and the clotted blood that froze on his face, he panting hard tried to calm this feeling of nausea that literally choked his throat. 

Plunging into the night, the labyrinth which seemed to have no end foreshadowed something dangerous ahead. 

Through the deathly silence, hearing only the sounds of his empty stomach, Lei slowly began to lose touch with himself.  Pain, images before his eyes and extreme fatigue,  he felt like he killed millions of beasts. 

Licking dry and chapped lips with his tongue, he fell thirsty.  Leaning against the wall, he raised his eyes and the bright night with a hint of moonlight gently touched the high rocks. 

Seeing the light in the distance, he considered it a star, and stretching out his hand to dispel those visions before his eyes, he clenched his fist and grabbed something.
"Longwei."  he whispered and his own whisper echoed loudly in his head, thus waking up waves of pain. 

Taking off his waistcoat, heavy belt, he unbuttoned his shirt and took a deep breath. 

The warm wind wrapped around the skin. 

Having let down his hair, which was covered with mud, he stood up and smiling to himself said, "I must go." 

"What is the meaning of your life?"  suddenly he heard the same voice that they heard in the forest. 

Grabbing the sword, he looked around but only stumbled upon another rocky wall. 

"Who is there?" 

"What is the meaning of your life?"  someone repeated the question. 

"I'm going crazy."  he told himself. 

"You've lost your mind long ago."  said the voice.  Now the voice sounded right under his ear. 

Looking around, Lei suddenly began to feel suffocated and the rocks around him seemed to begin to approach, wanting to squeeze him until the atoms split. 

"I have not lost my mind. I have not lost my mind."  Lei repeated until his voice sounded so loud that somewhere in the distance the flapping of the wings of birds was heard. 

"Are you so sure about this?"  again the question. 

Walking quickly forward, Lei did not notice how he walked completely barefoot, he looked like he spent an eternity in a desert forest. 

"What is the meaning of your life?!"  the voice repeated its first question. 

Covering his ears, Lei tried to ignore the fact that someone was walking around him who was definitely a figment of his imagination.  But knowing, feeling that his imagination will not leave him just like that, he replied, "The meaning of my life, meaning, there is no meaning." 

"What about love? Lei, what about love?"  a voice asked him and Lei could hear a certain laugh that was fraught with mockery. 

"Leave me alone!"  Lei shouted, waving his sword around. 

"The meaning of your life is love. The meaning of your life is love." 

"Shut up!" 

"The meaning of your life is Longwei. His soft skin, his red lips, his beautiful eyes in which you see the whole universe. The meaning of your life is his breath, his arms that wrap around you when you are so close to him." 

"Stop it! Stop it!"  Starting to run as fast as possible, Lei bumped into the rocks and fell to the ground. Standing up, he kept running until the maze penetrated his whole mind. 

"The meaning of your life is another person. But what a pity. What a pity."  the voice spoke incessantly.  Sounding from the front, then from the side, or even somewhere far away. 

Stopping, Lei closed his eyes and tried not to think about anything, thereby remembering the words of the spell. 

"Three roads, a turn. Three roads. I need to find three roads."  he kept repeating to himself. 

Suddenly feeling the icy, but not the usual cold winter wind, Lei felt someone's presence behind him.  Not daring to turn around because knowing that if he does that, he will certainly see someone, he whispered, "What do you want from me?" 

"You made another person the meaning of your life. But what a pity that this person will soon die."  said the voice. 

And then, inside Lei, something clicked, something changed, and he rushed forward without wasting time showing his anger. 

Leaving narrow paths behind him, he seemed to know where to go. 

"The meaning of life. Longwei. Life. Three roads. Road." He repeated so as not to hear that voice. 

Not paying attention to the pain in his feet because of small stones stuck directly into the skin, he ran, ran as fast as possible. 

"Three roads!" 

Seeing in front of him three perfectly flat paths that were sprinkled with smooth stones, Lei suddenly heard Longwei's voice somewhere far away. 

"Longwei?" 

"Lei! I'm here!" 

"Longwei!" 

Not knowing where to turn, which path to take, he hesitated in his choice until he remembered the words from the spell, "Turn." 

But which way? 

"Longwei, where are you?"  he asked but there was no answer. 

"Turn. Need to turn."  Looking at the paths that were to the left and right of him, following his instinct, he chose the turn that led to the left. 

"You chose love. This means that your life will be difficult."  this was the last time he heard a voice that now sounded far behind. 

Walking at a brisk pace along a path around which strange plants grew, Lei finally saw someone at the end of his journey.  Although the road was long and there was a feeling that the further he walked, the longer the path became, he still knew that at the end Longwei was waiting. 

"Yun Qi."  he whispered upon seeing a graceful figure in the fog. 

For the first time in his life, feeling a sense of peace and complete happiness, he suddenly wanted to fall asleep. Looking at Longwei and Yun Qi who have become his home and now returning to them, he realized that, the meaning of his life was love. Love in all its forms.

This story takes place in a cold world which has nothing but a curse and endless blizzard. 

Here, on Frosty Mountain peaks, live only warriors. 

Their goals are to stay alive as long as possible and protect the lands from the furious beasts. 

For many centuries, warriors were the only inhabitants of this world. 
Until one day, the day when a warrior named Longwei changes everything. 


This is BL story so expect some romance between characters.



After hitting his head on a rock, feeling nausea and pain all over his body, Lei, holding on to the walls, walked towards a strange light that was far from him. Not knowing what kind of light it was and whether it was just an illusion, he simply moved his feet. He was afraid to stop, because once he stops the fear overtakes his mind completely. 

Having already spent several hours on empty walks through the strange labyrinth, he had long lost hope that Longwei was somewhere here. As for Yun Qi, he was calm for some reason, as if he knew that everything was fine with her. 

Brushing away the sweat from his forehead, from his face and the clotted blood that froze on his face, he panting hard tried to calm this feeling of nausea that literally choked his throat. 

Plunging into the night, the labyrinth which seemed to have no end foreshadowed something dangerous ahead. 

Through the deathly silence, hearing only the sounds of his empty stomach, Lei slowly began to lose touch with himself. Pain, images before his eyes and extreme fatigue, he felt like he killed millions of beasts. 

Licking dry and chapped lips with his tongue, he fell thirsty. Leaning against the wall, he raised his eyes and the bright night with a hint of moonlight gently touched the high rocks. 

Seeing the light in the distance, he considered it a star, and stretching out his hand to dispel those visions before his eyes, he clenched his fist and grabbed something. 

"Longwei." he whispered and his own whisper echoed loudly in his head, thus waking up waves of pain. 

Taking off his waistcoat, heavy belt, he unbuttoned his shirt and took a deep breath. 

The warm wind wrapped around the skin. 

Having let down his hair, which was covered with mud, he stood up and smiling to himself said, "I must go." 

"What is the meaning of your life?" suddenly he heard the same voice that they heard in the forest. 

Grabbing the sword, he looked around but only stumbled upon another rocky wall. 

"Who is there?" 

"What is the meaning of your life?" someone repeated the question. 

"I'm going crazy." he told himself. 

"You've lost your mind long ago." said the voice. Now the voice sounded right under his ear. 

Looking around, Lei suddenly began to feel suffocated and the rocks around him seemed to begin to approach, wanting to squeeze him until the atoms split. 

"I have not lost my mind. I have not lost my mind." Lei repeated until his voice sounded so loud that somewhere in the distance the flapping of the wings of birds was heard. 

"Are you so sure about this?" again the question. 

Walking quickly forward, Lei did not notice how he walked completely barefoot, he looked like he spent an eternity in a desert forest. 

"What is the meaning of your life?!" the voice repeated its first question. 

Covering his ears, Lei tried to ignore the fact that someone was walking around him who was definitely a figment of his imagination. But knowing, feeling that his imagination will not leave him just like that, he replied, "The meaning of my life, meaning, there is no meaning." 

"What about love? Lei, what about love?" a voice asked him and Lei could hear a certain laugh that was fraught with mockery. 

"Leave me alone!" Lei shouted, waving his sword around. 

"The meaning of your life is love. The meaning of your life is love." 

"Shut up!" 

"The meaning of your life is Longwei. His soft skin, his red lips, his beautiful eyes in which you see the whole universe. The meaning of your life is his breath, his arms that wrap around you when you are so close to him." 

"Stop it! Stop it!" Starting to run as fast as possible, Lei bumped into the rocks and fell to the ground. Standing up, he kept running until the maze penetrated his whole mind. 

"The meaning of your life is another person. But what a pity. What a pity." the voice spoke incessantly. Sounding from the front, then from the side, or even somewhere far away. 

Stopping, Lei closed his eyes and tried not to think about anything, thereby remembering the words of the spell. 

"Three roads, a turn. Three roads. I need to find three roads." he kept repeating to himself. 

Suddenly feeling the icy, but not the usual cold winter wind, Lei felt someone's presence behind him. Not daring to turn around because knowing that if he does that, he will certainly see someone, he whispered, "What do you want from me?" 

"You made another person the meaning of your life. But what a pity that this person will soon die." said the voice. 

And then, inside Lei, something clicked, something changed, and he rushed forward without wasting time showing his anger. 

Leaving narrow paths behind him, he seemed to know where to go. 

"The meaning of life. Longwei. Life. Three roads. Road." He repeated so as not to hear that voice. 

Not paying attention to the pain in his feet because of small stones stuck directly into the skin, he ran, ran as fast as possible. 

"Three roads!" 

Seeing in front of him three perfectly flat paths that were sprinkled with smooth stones, Lei suddenly heard Longwei's voice somewhere far away. 

"Longwei?" 

"Lei! I'm here!" 

"Longwei!" 

Not knowing where to turn, which path to take, he hesitated in his choice until he remembered the words from the spell, "Turn." 

But which way? 

"Longwei, where are you?" he asked but there was no answer. 

"Turn. Need to turn." Looking at the paths that were to the left and right of him, following his instinct, he chose the turn that led to the left. 

"You chose love. This means that your life will be difficult." this was the last time he heard a voice that now sounded far behind. 

Walking at a brisk pace along a path around which strange plants grew, Lei finally saw someone at the end of his journey. Although the road was long and there was a feeling that the further he walked, the longer the path became, he still knew that at the end Longwei was waiting. 

"Yun Qi." he whispered upon seeing a graceful figure in the fog. 

For the first time in his life, feeling a sense of peace and complete happiness, he suddenly wanted to fall asleep. Looking at Longwei and Yun Qi who have become his home and now returning to them, he realized that, the meaning of his life was love. Love in all its forms.

First thing you should know before reading this novel. It is BL story. Here, you will find a romance between two male leads. If you are okay with that, keep reading. 

This story takes place in a cold world which has nothing but a curse and a strong blizzard.

Here, on Frosty Mountain Peaks, live only warriors.

Their goals are to stay alive as long as possible and protect their lands from the furious beasts.

For many centuries, warriors were the only inhabitants of this world.

Until one day, the day when the warrior named Longwei creates someone who can change this world and destroy the curse.

But before Longwei can fulfill his plans, he must go through a lot of dangers. And also, he is going to find his soulmate in spite of the fact that here, among warriors, to love someone is not permitted.

This is the story of suffering, happiness and how it is like to dream and stay alive in the middle of the endless war.

When we got home, in the living room, I came across an elderly man named Adelard. 
I was surprised to see him here. 
 
He was sitting next to Nico, talking about something. 
Judging by their manner of speech, they were good friends. 
Seeing me, he jumped up and on his face was the surprise too. 
"Professor! That's a surprise!" 
 
Adelard looked at Nico then at Leon. 
 
"Professor Adelard,  Leon whispered softly and slightly tilted his head. 
 
"So, you're friends?" 
 
"Yes," he said.
 
Adelard put his hand on my shoulder and said with a smile, "Come on, make us company. I want to ask you again about free will." 
 
I sat down by the fireplace and the crackling of fire pleasantly filled the silence. 
 
After riding a horse, I felt a slight pain in my legs. 
 
"Well, professor, how long have you known Nico?" 
"Actually, it's only a day." 
 
"What?" he looked at Leon, who looked at his grandfather with an indifferent expression. "You must be a friend of Leon's." 
 
"Did you show him the Thunder and the Flash?" Nico asked. 
 
"Yes," he replied. 
 
"Judging by your face, you had a good day."
 
"That's the way it is. This area is simply designed to contemplate nature and ride a horse." 
 
Stretching my legs forward to the fire, I allowed myself to feel tired. 
 
"Are you tired, professor?" holding out a cup of tea, Nico asked. 
 
"A little bit."
 
"I didn't think I'd meet you here," Adelard said still surprised by the fact that we met a second time. 
 
"I am happy to see you." 
 
"Well so professor, let us hear your lecture on free will again," Adelard said, even though I didn't want to talk much. 
 
And to be honest, I didn't have the strength to lecture. 
 
I rather wanted to take a shower and go to bed. Or maybe write down my thoughts. 
 
But Adelard and Nico's gaze convinced me that a few words would not hurt me. 
 
"About free will, I almost know everything. Better tell us about the meaning of life," Nico said covering up with plaid. 
 
"Yes. That's right. What is the meaning of life?" 
 
I sat down more comfortably. The heat from the fire was felt on my skin. It was a bit dark in the living room and everything was so cozy that I wanted to stay here for longer. 
 
In front of me sat three people on a cozy sofa and around us there were books and pillows. 
 
I loved that feeling of home comfort. 
 
And then I realized that all this time I lacked this feeling of comfort. 
 
"Talking about the meaning of life, isn't that too naïve?" Leon asked, looking at me with a cursory glance. 
 
"Professor, please tell us of your opinion."
 
"If we talk about the meaning of life, it is worth mentioning that a person has destroyed the whole meaning and takes everything for granted." 
 
"What do you mean?" 
 
"Imagine an aquarium with a fish. What is the meaning of its life? Fish is fed every day, water is changed. And the fish can only swim, only live. It doesn't have any sense of life. And everything around, the person who feeds, the water, the fish takes for granted. So is the man, he lives, breathes, goes to work, thinks. He takes the whole for granted. He does not attach any importance to his thoughts, his life. He just lives because he's alive. Like fish, humans don't feel any meaning. Well, at least they destroyed any meaning." 
 
"The meaning of life, it is what give taste to your whims and desires," Leon said holding Dreamer in his arms. 
 
"You're right Leon. And it is worth extracting from it that a person does not appreciate anything. Because it's all for him to say it's supposed to be. The whole life of a man, for him is not the meaning, and due. But when a person starts to appreciate something, as it immediately becomes the meaning of life." 
 
"So, you want to say that the meaning of life is the ability to be grateful," Adelard summed up everything I said. 
 
Noticing my sleepy face, Nico said, "Perhaps it's time for our Professor to go to bed." 
 
"Yes. He is tired." Leon muttered and not paying attention to the others, he took my hand and led me towards the stairs. 
 
As soon as I sat down at his desk and started writing down my thoughts, all the sleep was gone. 
 
While I was sitting and writing, Leon began to read. 
 
I liked the comfort that we created just by being busy. 
 
The rustle of the pages of the book, the sound of the pen moving on the surface of the paper, the sound of the wind, the purring of the cat, is it enough to feel so happy? 
 
When I closed my notebook, I looked at Leon, who was sitting leaning against the pillow, and kept reading. 
 
I lay down next to him and I started falling asleep, feeling his hand on my forehead.

Imagine the world where all people live like they want to live, where people work in their dream - jobs, where they don't have to struggle with their unwanted jobs and do what makes them unhappy. 

Just imagine the world where people can easily reach their dreams... 

What about this book? 

Here is the answer... 

The man whose name is Skyemoone, who can't love or be happy, lives his own life and spends his days by writing and talking to his students. 

He has a good life. But one day, he gets tired of everything and he writes a book. 
The book which will change the whole world. 

Why it will change the world? 

Because after people read it, they suddenly understood that they were living the life which they didn't dream of. 
Suddenly, everyone leaves their jobs. Stops what they were doing. 
And for what? 

To make their long forgotten dreams come true. 

Now, everyone begins to live how they wanted to live but never had a courage to get up and reach their goals. 

People became free and everything is possible. No one can't stop them. They can commit crime, do many things and nothing can stop them.


And all because Professor Skyemoone opened their eyes and showed them that Person should live and achieve his or her goal no matter what. 

To live like you want to live. And no one will stop you. Isn't it happy world? 

And now answer, do you think you are strong enough to dream and live like your heart tells you?

Because in the end, everything changes so quickly that people can not control their dreams and who they have become.

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