Here was an amazing person he chanced upon. Someone who had been through hell and pulled through with everything intact and more. Someone good, kind and steadfast.
Out of his reach. But Takumi would do anything to keep him in his orbit. 
[Note: If you've read my other novel Capture, this is Takumi's and Akira's story.]

After being raced by a condescending hypocritical, party crazy mother sense birth, Brian had gone to hell and back. When he  finally got his freedom after going to college. He meets the boy who changed his whole life completely by erasing  all the horrible  scars gained from his horrifying past with the people who supposed to be his family.  

Fallow Brian as he straggles with the hatred he still harbors for his paternal grandmother and his father also the life he lived thanks to his irresponsible mother how he  learns to  survive from a very young age in a darker then black world until love healed his bleeding heart. 

BY THE WAY THE BOOK COVER IS NOT MINE IT BELONGS TO IT'S AWNER

This is a BL fanfiction about Saint and Zee who played Tutor and Fighter in the Thai BL WhyRU? It follows them from their first meeting to falling in love. This story is in English and is on going

this is a bl novel about Misaki and his love who went away 5 years ago


A U T H O R ' S N O T E :
~ Before reading, I want to remind everyone a few things. My girlfriend is a BL Writer is a 18+ content. It may contain smut, mature themes, that is not suitable for young readers. This is my first adult romance that I wrote, i hope you guys enjoy it. Feel free to vote and comment guys. Active & Silent Readers are very much appreciated.
D I S C L A I M E R:
~ The names, events, places, and happenings are only made by the author's imagination. Don't take this seriously. My girlfriend is a BL Writer talks about a girl who's a personal assistant of the Vice Chairman of the Wei & Hua Group who's a secret BL Writer which she uses her boss cute face into her bottom character in BL. Any resemblance to the actual person, events, living, or dead are only coincidence.
~ 18+ content ~
Plagiarism is a crime. No parts of this story may re-produce without the author's permission. I wrote this for weeks at if ever may magtatangka man, mahiya kayo. This work is mine alone. I hope everyone understands it, thank you. Anyways, enjoy everyone.
written by: MissNerdyGirl20
All rights reserved 2020
Copyright MissNerdyGirl20 



5 years passed
Nagsimula ang lahat sa hindi inaasahan na love story. Satsuki Fukumoto is only a normal girl who knew what kind of dreams that she wanted to have. To be a BL Writer, that's why she had to sacrifice everything. Since the dream that she wanted to do is not something that could be appreciated by everyone. After all, who would understand a fujioshi like her?
Until one day...
Her boss found out about her secret. That she used him as her ideal bottom in her BL series that she's writing. And para manatili siya bilang isang BL Writer, she begged him to be her reference kahit na may kapalit yun. To have a secret relationship with her boss, so that she won't be able to ask other guys about her BL and to perform a BL cosplay with them. Chang Heng prevents it so that he's the only one who can touch her. Right now, Satsuki is invited in Comicon, due to her hard work as a BL Writer she is given a chance to have a meet up and sell her works in other people. She didn't give up in her dream, and even her husband couldn't take it when she's fanatazing into her BL so much, sinuportahan pa din niya ito. Dahil ito ang gusto ni Satsuki.
He has no idea what kind of event this is. Nagpasama siya kay Harumi dahil siya lang naman talaga ang nakakaintindi sa kaibigan. He put on his cap at halos hindi siya makapali, "Damn, it's too crowded." He hissed at natawa na lang si Harumi, "Masanay ka na. Your wife is a BL Writer, normal na lang na maimbitahan siya sa mga ganitong event." Bakas sa mukha niya ang pamumutla dahil kanina pa sila nakakakita ng mga ilang fujioshi sa paligid.
Well, only an otaku would definitely understand her. Kaya nga tinawagan ni Chang Heng si Harumi because she understands his wife the most kapag tungkol sa bagay na ito. Ginulo na lang niya ang buhok niya at napabuntong hininga na lang, "I know." He said at napapikit na lamang siya 
Nung makapunta na silang pareho and when they find Satsuki's place, hindi mapigilan ni Chang Heng na mapangiti sa kanya        
Nung makapunta na silang pareho and when they find Satsuki's place, hindi mapigilan ni Chang Heng na mapangiti sa kanya. She is doing what she loves, at katulad dati she's his assistant and a BL Writer. But she's not just his normal assistant, she's his Executive Secretary now. Satsuki still works for his company pero unlike before nabawasan ng kahit papaano ang magdamagan niya na pagtratrabaho sa kompanya, of course they have kids who are waiting for them.
Nung napansin ni Satsuki ang asawa niya kasama si Harumi, she cupped her face at hindi niya mapigilan ang ngiti sa mga labi niya.
At katulad ng dati, girls are still after him
At katulad ng dati, girls are still after him. Hindi na yata maiiwasan yun sa kanya. Well for someone who has amazingly handsome like her husband, she'd understand why. Pero kahit ang dami pang nakatingin kay Chang Heng, his stares remain on his wife. Para sa kanya, siya lang ang babaeng titigan niya ng walang sawa habang buhay. Binitawan muna ni Satsuki ang pen niya at agad-agad siyang dumiretso at tumakbo agad ito papunta kay Chang Heng.
"Waaah!!!" Napatili na lang si Satsuki and she can't believe that she sees him in this comicon, this means a lot to her and for her to see her husband in here napakasaya ng pakiramdam niya. "Hubby!" She called him at agad siyang sumampa dito and then she cupped his cheeks and she kissed him.
"Baby," He whispered at ngumiti naman ito sa kanya at inalalayan niya ito and then he kissed her. Ang daming nagsigawan nung nakita nila that their favorite BL Writer has a handsome husband. Pinulupot na lang ni Satsuki ang kamay niya dito and she kissed him even more, dahil nga naka-focus siya sa comicon due to Mamoru's orders halos busy din siya nitong araw. But she appreciate that Chang Heng is being a supportive husband to her, nuon pa lang ganito na siya kahit nung dating pa lang silang dalawa.
"I really missed you. Nagpasama na ako kay Harumi dahil wala naman ako alam about this comicon. At gusto ko na ihahatid kita pauwi, Mrs. Wei." Sabi ni Chang Heng and he got closer to he whispered, "I told you right? Dito pa lang nagsisimula ang forever natin. I'll make sure that you fall for me harder baby."
Halos araw-araw nang ganito si Chang Heng with his wife. He make sure that she got in time in the office, at lalo na kapag magsubmit siya ng chapter at kapag kailangan niyang pumasok in publishing company. Of course, hindi na talaga maiiwasan ang pagiging seloso nito. Mamoru used to like her, kaya hindi pa rin talaga siya mapanatag when he is around. Iniisip niya kasi na baka agawan pa ulit siya nito. But, nah. He already move on, sa katunayan he is also married at si Fortuna na ang asawa niya.

"I knew it, sensei's husband is really a hottie!"
"Kyaaaah!! Bagay na bagay talaga sila!"
"They looked so cute together!" 

Hindi ito ang mga bagay na inaasahan nila marinig. They never had intention to go back in Philippines pero gusto talaga dito mag-aral ng mga anak nila. Dahil naging maayos naman na ang kalagayan ng mga bata ay napag-isipan nila na bumalik na rin dito. Parang kelan lang, the people used to hate them both at kung ano-anong paratang ang mga sinasabi sa kanila pero dahil sa pag-amin ni Cheng sa totoong ginawa niya back then, kaya nabago ang tingin sa kanila.
At kung ano mang kasiyahan ang natatamo nila na natatamo nila, they deserved it. Being married to Satsuki is not enough, Chang Heng is always serious into his words. At ngayon na nabigyan sila ng pangalawa pang pagkakataon, there's something that he needs to do. He will make sure to make her fall in love with him more. "Be prepared, I won't let you escape. I'll make sure that I'm the only guy that you can think of." He said and he put up her chin at halos ikinapula ng buo niyang mukha ni Satsuki.
Will she be ready to fall in love with him even more? Stay tuned.

Here are some facts you probably didn't know as I make this novel:

1. There was actually supposed to be no James.
-The story should actually just be about Arthur and Mint. Arthur was suppose to be Mint's long lost lover.

2. Chapters are published during birthdays.
-Chapter 1 to 4 were actually published last March 20, 2019 the day Perth Tanapon was born a thai actor. I realy admire Perth. Chapter 5 and 6 were publihed last March 21, 2019 and chapters 7 - 10 were published at March 22, 2019 the day Ohm Pawat was born, a thai actor too

3. Most of my supporters are from a society.
-It's true, without them, this novel will be so impossible. They served as my inspiration. But my main inspiration in writing a bl novel is actually LoveSick The Series. LoveSick made me obsess with them so I decided to write a bl novel of my own.

4. I stopped a certain bl for this.
- For those who doesn't know, the very first bl I've wrote is actually Desperate Love. I stopped writing that novel and replaced it with this instead.

THERE WILL BE MUCH MORE VOLUMES, PLEASE STAY TUNE! 

UP NEXT SEQUEL:

HEARTBEAT: MELODY OF LOVE

Ever since he entered 7th grade, Mint had a crush on Arthur. Both being guys, Mint had to face each consequence that must come just to prove is love. However, on the other side, Arthur have always been naive about love because he knew that the time will come. Mine knew that Arthur will never look at him the same way he looks at Arthur. Because he knew, this isn't those kind of fairy tales with a happy ending. On the other side, someone from the past came back. As he loved Mint before, he wanted to fulfill his long lost promise. Will Mint remember this person whom he had loved before? Or would his new love win over someone he had loved before?

TITLE: I was only an EXTRA but the Villain and Male Lead tries to pursue ME?!
WRITTEN BY: B_A_DG_R
COVER ILLUSTRATION BY: B_A_DG_R
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CHAPTER 5

She's the BL fangirl!!

I'm right, right? Right??

Alright, stop saying right.

She's happily interacting with the other nobles and even making jokes with them.

"She's quite a joker"

Lianne commented giggling. She's referring to the letter she sent us.

Greetings Lady Delie La Eclaus,

I'm writing this letter to you since my father told me so hahaha. I don't know how to write a proper invitation so just pretend that it's a formal letter. Anyway, my family will be hosting the upcoming tea party next month! There will be other noble girls there that you can interact with! There will be sweets and teas there! Have a good day!

Sincerely yours,
Anne Vi Claross

Does her parents even now what kind of letter she sent?

"That's how sociable she is"

Phia said then continued.

"Although when it comes to serious conversations and etiquettes, she's really mature"

That's true.

I like how she handled the situation earlier. If I were in her stead, I might argue with Daphne and use swear words if I can't take it anymore.

The author of the novel I'm in must really like Anne's character. Maybe she's an important character here? She might also be the heroine of this novel! 

"Everyone, please go to your tables so we can start our tea party!"

She gestures everyone to go to their tables. 

She noticed me staring hard on her which made her look at my way and gave me a warm smile. 

Huh? She doesn't recognize me? But we only met a week ago...

Maybe she's not the same person? Or she's just pretending like she doesn't remember me.

...

"Lady Delie, I didn't know you can eat a lot"

Phia commented when she saw how many desserts I devoured, yes devoured. A pile of dessert plates are right beside me.

Darn! If I eat more, my other clothes might not fit me as well!

"I was just lost in thought..haha"

I scratched my head. 

I am lost in thought, I've been looking at Anne who is having a conversation with other nobles that I didn't realize that I'm eating a lot.

"Pardon me, but I need to go somewhere for a bit! You can continue to enjoy our snacks and tea! You're all also free to explore the manor!"

Anne told everyone before going inside their manor, she looks like she is in a hurry.

"Delie? Are you listening?"

Lianne tapped my shoulders while my eyes are busy following Anne. 

"Sorry, I think I need to go to the restroom for a bit"

"Sure...we'll be waiting here"

Valerie nodded before I went down from my chair and went to follow Anne. I need to confirm if she's really the girl in the market last week.

I asked one of the maids who are busy taking the dirty plates from the table where the restroom is.

"It's in the third door after the hallway, young lady"

"Thank you!"

"Do you want me to accompany you?"

"No thank you! I can go there myself"

I'm just busy following Anne. Besides they are all busy and I don't want to disturb them. 

"Okay, young lady but if there's anything you need, just call one of us here!"

She said before taking the plates and going inside. 

I went inside and saw Anne heading to the hallway.

I'm silently following her and I kept glancing at my back to look if anyone sees me. I even hide on the large vases and figurines of their house so no one can see me.

"The coast is clear"

I mumbled looking behind one more time. I was about to go when I bumped into someone who came from the side behind the wall I'm hiding.

"Ouch!"

My face hits the person which causes me to sit on the floor and hold my nose.

"Sorry about that, are you alright?"

I looked up at the boy reaching his hand and recognize him. 

He is Anne's older brother earlier! The one who has a frown expression and doesn't smile.

His voice sounds concerned but his face is completely neutral.

"Thank you, I should also apologize! Pardon me!"

I didn't take his hand and I stand on my own before patting my clothes. He looks confused for a bit and kept looking at his hand.

Oh yeah! I need to introduce myself.

"My name is Delie La Eclaus, I'm the second child and eldest daughter of the La Eclaus count family! Pleasure to meet you!"

I gave him my best smile to the point where my cheeks are hurting. I need to greet him as best as I can, he's the future marquis after all!

"I'm Arthur Vi Claross, the eldest child of the Vi Claross family...it's also a pleasure to meet you"

He bowed for a bit before asking me a question. Again, his face looks completely neutral.

"Why are you here? Shouldn't you be in the tea party?"

He asked me. He is staring right into my eyes which is a bit disturbing for me, did he realized that I'm hiding?

"Uhhmm...I'm actually here to use the restroom but I got lost"

I lied. He puts his hand on his chin for a bit while looking down before he looks back to me.

"Hmm..the restroom is that way-"

He pointed the way behind him. 

Why did he think so hard? Doesn't he remember his own restroom or is he thinking of something else?

Anyway, he is quite mysterious. 

"Thank you so much!"

I thank him and hurriedly moves away from him to follow Anne.

I can feel him staring at me from my back but I just ignored it. Anne is already out of my sight!

As I was looking for Anne. I saw her went out of a room and was wiping her hands. So the thing she said that she urgently need to go is the restroom.

I went to hide in an another wall and saw her let out a deep sigh.

"Ahhh! I want to finish reading pure love now!"

She complained. 

So she really is the BL fangirl! But why did she pretend she didn't remember me?

"Good day!"

I suddenly greet her with a wide smile which made her jump in surprise.

"Oh my goodness!"

She exclaimed then she suddenly realized something and coughed before smiling at me like she didn't react a second ago.

"Good day to you too! What are you doing here?"

"I'm actually looking for the restroom"

"I see...."

She's really smiling like she doesn't know me.

"Soooo...you're the BL fangirl last week, right?"

She looks surprised for a moment but still tries to compose herself. 

"Hehehe, what are you talking about?"

She looks nervous.

"I know you, your red hair and green eyes is exactly the same as the girl last week!"

Except that she's dressed fancier today with her blue dress and blue accessories. 

"Maybe you're making a mistak-"

Then, we heard a voice of a few young girls talking to each other.

"Alright, let's go inside first!"

She suddenly drags me inside the restroom to hide. She peeks outside the door and saw other noble girls passing by the room we are in before she sighed in relief.

"I hope they didn't hear us"

"Pardon me but can I ask why you drag us here?"

I asked her with a bit of an annoyed tone and arms crossed.

"Umm...you see...uhh...I am the girl you saw last week"

She shyly said touching both of her index fingers together. 

"But no one should know my addiction towards BL"

She whispered to me. 

"Why?"

"Why? Well my parents also sees me as a joker so when I send the letter to your families, they got angry at me"

"Oh really? and?"

"Do you think they will support their daughter who is addicted to BL? No!"

"Does anyone in your family knows about this?"

She shooks her head.

"No...my brother would tell my parents!"

"Then, your friends?"

"I don't have one"

A long awkward silence. 

I coughed to break the silence and asked her why.

"Why don't you have one? You're Anne Vi Claross!"

I mean many girls earlier admires her. So it's given that she must have many friends!

"That's exactly the reason! I'm Anne Vi Claross! I need to be perfect and be an example! That's why I need you to keep my addiction a secret!"

She pleads to me even putting her hands on my shoulder to shake me. 

"Of course, I won't tell anyone! So please don't shake me anymore"

"Oh! Sorry!"

She finally stops shaking me. I feel my eyes circling bbecaue she shook me really hard.

"You see...a real friend is someone I can talk to someone with my best interest like how I like BL! I'll talk to someone who won't be weirded out of the BL!"

She proclaimed.

"But a friend is someone who will accept you even if you don't have the same interest"

I told her.

"Then, can you be my friend?"

She took my hands and gave me a puppy-eyed look. She's a bit taller than me which made me look up.

"S-sure!"

I replied before she sniffs while smiling.

"I also think BL is special!"

I said.

Yeah well, BL is quite popular in my past life. I think I also remembered a friend of mine liking BL too but of course my awful memory can't remember.

'Princess? What are you doing? We've been waiting for you! Let's all watch BL together! I heard there's a new one in netflix!'

My eyes widen in surprise. I heard an unknown voice from someone.

It's like a small fragment of memory in my past life where four girls are calling out to me to watch BL.

Who's Princess? Why do I feel like I'm the Princess they are calling? Am I a princess in my past life?? 

Lol. Dream on.

"Ummm...lady Delie?"

Anne noticed that I'm thinking of something which made her very nervous.

"Don't tell me you're thinking that I'm weird and that you're reconsidering being my friend?!"

She's too paranoid. From how she acts, she feels familiar to me like I've known her a long time now.

"No...I'm just thinking of something else"

"Good!"

She smiled.

"Anyway, you can be yourself towards me! We can watch BL together!"

I guaranteed to her. There's nothing wrong with BL! 

"Yes! BL! I love BL!!"

Anne responded with a jumping joy. She's really happy.

She took the knob of the door to open  it which reveals Phia, Lianne and Valerie outside smiling.

"Did someone say BL?"

Phia grinned.

They overheard us!!

No! Anne wants it to be a secret!

I looked at Anne since I'm worried at her reaction and saw that she became white like a statue, I can even see her soul getting out of her body.

Oh gosh...

...

They told us the reason why they were outside is because they noticed me taking my time in the restroom and follow me to see if I'm alright and if I have any trouble doing my business (you know what I mean).

They suddenly overheard the part where I said that I will watch BL with Anne.

Currently, we're in their living room on the sofa with Anne still stoned white. 

All of us expect Anne kept exchanging glances on what to do. Valerie is the one who breaks the silence by asking Phia a question.

"So...have you read the latest volume of Pure Love?"

Valerie asked Phia who nodded.

"Yup! I heard they run away together but was followed by Lennon's sister!"

Phia told Valerie. Lianne suddenly jolted up pouting.

"Don't spoil! I still haven't read the book that far!"

They laughed.

"Yes! Please don't spoil!"

Whoa! Anne suddenly gains conscious!

I think I'm surrounded by BL fangirls. But it's a good thing since Anne is interacting with them well.

"Kyaaa!!! Rajan proposed to Lennon?!"

Valerie squealed after Phia spoiled the ending of volume three.

"Don't spoil!!"

Anne and Lianne complained. I'm here busy eating snacks and having small opinion about BL.

I think I should really watch BL too...

The author of the novel I'm in is quite peculiar.

~Meanwhile at the garden tea party~

"Just how long lady Anne will come back?"

One of the girls asked another girl who are waiting for her to come back.

... 

"Thank you everyone for coming today!"

Anne finally ends the tea party successfully. She was mildly scolded by her father for not getting back at the party.

In the end, Anne confessed her addiction to BL to her parents with us but they just laughed and patted her head.

It seems that her mother is also reading BL. 

It's a good thing that her parents are now aware of her interest and that they accepts it wholeheartedly.

"Goodbye! Take care!"

Anne went to Phia, Lianne, Valerie and me before we head to our carriage to go home.

"Thank you for the time!"

She gave us a small bow. 

"Let's have a tea party in my place next time! I'll recommend some good BL"

Phia told us.

"In my place too!"

I told them. 

Anne told us that she'll be sending us letters soon. Before getting inside my carriage, I noticed her brother peeking outside the window on the third floor.

I gave him a small wave but he just closed the curtains.

What a snob child. But he's quite cute though! It feels like I have found a little brother.

As I was going home, I can't still help but think of the scene I recalled in my head. It looks like a small fragment of memory in my past life.

Anne...

She feels so familiar to me...

Her actions and behavior greatly reminds me of someone.

Not only her but Phia, Lianne and Valerie too...

I was an ordinary college student studying nursing in a university. I love reading stories about reincarnation and isekais, my friend suddenly thought of making her own novel so I tried to read it.

As I was reading the novel, my head hurts so I decided to take a nap. When I opened my eyes, I was in a child's body! A daughter of a count. I'm already aware that I'm inside a novel but I don't know what novel I'm in since my memories from my previous life are all foggy and my head stings in pain whenever I tried to remember it.

After a few years living in my new life, I came to realize that the plot is exactly like in my friend's novel where my character who has the same name as me in my past life died because the main villain, Cain El Blanc's power lost control and I was one of the innocent students who died!

The story revolves around the heroine, Cordelia Si Flora, a poor baron's daughter and Angeal De Abel, the crown prince who both fell in love with each other and Cain El Blanc is the main villain who fell in love with Cordelia. It mostly revolves around a ridiculous love triangle.

In order to avoid my death, I need to befriend the villain before he turns evil! I still have two years before the heroine enters the academy! But why did the villain said something like this to me?

"Please stay by my side, forever"

Not only that, the male lead also took an interest in me!

"You're interesting..."

I don't need the spotlight! I only want to live a luxurious life and survive! I was only an extra but why does the villain and male lead tries to pursue me?!





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Greetings! B_A_DG_R here! This story is my first official one. English is my second language so you can expect that there's a lot of grammar, spelling and punctuation errors while reading the story but I promise I'll edit everything that needs to be edited, that's all hehe.

Some characters here are actually inspired by the people around me hahaha. I just wrote this for fun :D but I hope you guys can enjoy this. Thank you so much for stumbling in my first official story, this is actually more like a prototype kind of story and don't expect to update so fast since I still have loads of schoolwork hehe.

Hello and welcome.
(I just found it funny to write 'read this' in all caps, well at least I made you read this, so it was worth it. Please DON'T leave. haha, well if you do, can't even blame you (I would want to leave at this point too.))
WELCOME/ WARNING to the readers: This novel will be a BL novel!
I would recommend people who like BLs to read it, but of course, even if you don't or you're not sure, you should give it a try! ;)
I think exposure to things that some people don't necessarily like is essential and necessary so that our world can become a better and more accepting place.
As for the people who do like BLs (or like me, loves them), you should share this love with the people around you (don't force it on them though) so that they can become more loving and accepting people (plus you'll be able to fangirl (or boy) about BL with them).
So you should share this novel and support it (this is just shameless advertising from a shameless author at this point)
Who knows, maybe one day, you'll be the minority, hoping that someone will come to understand and support you, even if they are not like you.
Well, that is my reason (well more like an excuse) for writing this BL (the truth is I just love BL, but I want to sound like I have a grand plan to change the world)
The Novel Young Master Wei and His Lover, Damien is closely connected to my other novel To Live Again, For the First Time! So you should check that out to get a better understanding of this novel. Both main characters have already been introduced there. (more shameless advertising, but I can do that because I'm advertising myself (why does that sound like I'm selling my soul...))
(DISCLAIMER: I expose myself so that other people don't expose me)
The upload schedule has yet to be decided...

Damien is a Freshman at Dong University, currently ranked 4th in the world, majoring in finances as he aspires to build his own empire, yet his own family has become both his obstacle and his motivation.
His personas could not be counted with one hand, so much so that even he didn't know for sure, which was the real him.
Damien has a lot to hide, but in front of Nathen Wei, he's like an open book, with pages that even he himself didn't know existed.
Nathen is a third year college sports superstar, who Damien later finds out, is even more mysterious than himself.
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Nathen walked up to his roommate and casually took off his thick glasses and fiddles around with them
"You really think you can hide behind these? Your eager eyes seem to be magnified through these lenses."
Nathen stares into the pool of deep waters inside Damien's eyes. "What do you say?"
Damien was still trying to process everything that was running through his mind and racing through his heart.
"I think I'm gay." He responds after a long pause.
Now it was Nathen's turn to become speechless. 
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For more reference go check out my first novel:
To Live Again, For the First Time!- Ongoing
The characters will overlap! (both Damien and Nathen have been introduced in TLA)

This does not belong to me. It is translated by Piglike Teammate Translation

Warm sunlight penetrates into the classroom, and the scene of gentle breeze swinging the curtains could be seen after school. Adding the comfort of being wrapped in my comfortable uniform, they induce drowsiness.

As I said goodbye, the hustle of my classmates discussing where to go play after this could be heard in the background. The same ordinary day, I thought while yawning.

"Akira-kun!"

That was when I heard a classmate stuttered out my name with a somewhat happy spirit.


I somehow had a guess of what business this girl had with me… It must be 'that' again, right? Something that I've gotten used to from doing it time and time again over the years.

In the meantime, I'll just put on a friendly facade and face her.

"What is it?"

Even though I'm certain about my guess, let's just hear what the other party is going to say first.

"Um… the thing is, can you help me pass this to your big brother?"

...… I knew it.

I looked at the pretty flower-patterned envelope in front of me. It isn't necessary to ask what the content of the letter is.

"If it's just giving it to him, okay then."

Same given reply to the same given task.

"Really? Thank you! Please make sure to pass it to him!"

I watched her back as she turned around and run, leaving me to deal with my own thoughts.

My upright big brother will absolutely reject the confession again this time.

It's always that way.

For my classmate to develop a romantic feeling towards that big brother of mine, I really felt that it was a waste of time.

Because you see....

I really want to break this news to every girl out there who harbors feelings for my big brother.

My one and only big brother, Amachi Makoto, is actually, gay.

And no, it's not just your typical gay. I have to set this straight in fear of the possibility of boys coming to chase my big brother instead of girls after this. Because the case is, not just any man will do.

"The person I liked happened to be a man."

Yes… that's that.

What beautiful words that resonate with one's heart!

Thanks to that, up to this day, the me who is living as a healthy boy but secretly wielding a fujoshi heart and soul, always lived a heartfelt and fulfilling life every day.

…. Ugh, forgive me!

I, Amachi Akira, am indeed experiencing what you would call, a 'Reincarnation'.

Right now, I am actually living my 'Second Life'.

My memory of the previous life is a bit vague. Information such as age, name, where I lived, or the cause of my death, all of them were forgotten. However, I remember that I was a fujoshi who loves Boys Love, "BL", and the knowledge and memories associated with it.

The fact that the BL-related memories were kept and important things like personal information and family were forgotten… I actually wanted to scold myself a little.

Too bad… but that's it.

For a fujoshi to be reincarnated into the world of BL game, sounds too good to be true, huh? That's right, what I'm talking about is the same 'reincarnation' that you all think about.

Beginning always comes with an end, just like life and death. The dead can't be brought back, and second life is believed to be impossible.

Let's say, for example, a person is drowning.

Driven by a very strong will to survive, that person was given a 'second chance' to live and therefore born again or reincarnated. Pretty common premise used in anime, novel, and manga, right?

But it is really happening to me.

Moreover, I was in the best position as the world's observer, I was reincarnated as the protagonist's younger brother! Which could only be described as the most blessed spot for a hardcore fujoshi like me!

I have no idea why I was reincarnated, but I am vaguely thinking that I have either done good deeds in the past or was too obsessed with BL up until my death resulting in the soul clinging to the BL world.

..... Most likely the latter.

Perhaps in the afterlife… I won't ever be able to cleanse my soul to go to heaven and end up becoming a wandering spirit who shouts homohomohomo.

Or I can also consider a career as a Yaoi Goddess who lives off the faith of fujoshi all over the world, spreading the goodness of homo nyan nyan—-okay, stop.

By the way, although my gender became "male", I am not gay. I've never been in love, I'm not interested yet, but probably the target is a girl. I still do not understand well, but  I think it's only natural to go for a girl since I'm a boy now. Because to me, boys' love is limited to enjoying 'seeing it' rather than 'becoming one'.

Because I can't fangirl over myself! The joy of being a fujoshi is to observe and worship the beautiful pairing made of gorgeous males! Yes! To! Observe!

Seriously speaking, my current male physique is a lot better than the previous life, that unspeakable place down there is also quite admirable… I think?

Well, that's why I am enjoying this super rewarding 'second life'.

I only have one regret.

I was too late in recalling memories from my previous life, and only remembered the similarity between this world and the BL game of my previous life after a certain occurrence.

And when I realized, my brother was already head over heels with his sweetheart. Too bad… it's really too late. I can only curse my bad luck and force my pitiful self to move on. Even if this regret will haunt me forever.

I'm such a fool!

Such a good treat and I actually missed it!

What a disgrace for a veteran fujoshi!

….. Well, although I'm no longer a girl.

Oh, Evil Eyes is also known as Rotten Eyes, which is only able to capture the deliciousness of BL. It is also equipped with the 'Fujoshi Filter'. To put it simply, everything is BL-ized.

Its function includes taking only two seconds to determine which one of the passing high school boys riding a bicycle is the uke and seme also to immediately make up delicious bed scene scenarios without wasting any second.

Nowadays, even a special function of personifying things and making them gay is installed. How convenient. The terrifying switch to accelerate delusions is also automatically turned on.

It's very difficult to turn OFF once you activate it, so be extremely careful. I tested it myself, so bear that in mind.

Ah, sorry for being distracted!

Okay, let me tell you about that certain occurrence which helped me remember that this is actually a BL game world.

※ ※ ※

I have two big brothers.

The name is Amachi Makoto. He is good-looking and good at sports, totally suited to the title 'protagonist'. He has a tall physique with natural brown hair and sharp double-lidded eyes.

When I saw him all sweating from playing tennis, I repeatedly reminded myself that I was not looking at a scene from some movie, and it was just my brother playing tennis in the schoolyard. Blame that unnecessary sparkles surrounding him.

Again I must say… totally befitting of the title 'Protagonist'.

Although this is a BL game.

And…. a Rated one at that.

Aside from that one important detail, I remember the game itself is known to be relatively youthful. And even though the R-scenes were said to be quite intense and there are some dark scenes in some routes if you get the bad ending, the heartwarming scenes are more popular between players and got the highest rating most of the reviews. I remember researching the information before I decided to play the game back in my previous life.

That very moment, as if struck by lightning, I was frozen from head to toe. The scene that triggered the revival of memories was also shocking, it was like I got struck twice by lightning and was shocked beyond words. I still get a headache remembering it even now.

That day I came back from school and was about to go straight to my room as usual. Passing by my big brother's room, I heard the voice of my brother's classmate and our childhood friend, Haruki Sakurai. I knew that he was coming to play because I saw his shoes at the entrance.

Haruki is my other big brother. We've known each other since we're little kids and I've adored him ever since. I believe that our love for each other isn't less than that of actual siblings.

Haru-nii is taller than my big brother and the ace of the basketball club. He has short black hair and a manly pair of eyes. He is also very popular which makes me proud to have such a great pair of excellent big brothers. To the point, I will secretly enjoy the envious gaze of others when Haru-nii teaches me basketball.

I really like Haru-nii because it always excites me whenever he comes to play in our house because I get to see him. When I have some time to spare, I will even go to my big brother's room to join the two of them.

My brother's room is on the second floor, it's next to my room. It was usually merry whenever the two of them were playing. But that day… my ears only vaguely caught muffled voices… it was strangely a little too quiet… how unusual.

Maybe they are studying, I thought, as I approached the room quietly so as not to get in the way. I noticed that the door of the room is a little open and there really is a sign of people inside.

I decided to take a peek, and then….

....!!!

Big brother and Haru-nii were kissing in the room!
It was in a position where big brother is beneath Haru-nii!

A pretty promising pose, indeed. If they keep this up, maybe… I don't want to say it myself but the mood clearly tells that they're about to do 'it'.

Whoa… I can't believe this… big brother is gay.. and not just my brother. Even Haru-nii is gay… double gayness… is this real…

They are gay… what will happen if our parents learn of this? What will be of their friends' reaction?

I can't think of anything… right now, the inside of my head is filled with the word 'homo'. The shock is too great for me to function properly.

And it was exactly at that precise moment the pain as if I was struck by lightning attacked me. Amidst the headache and panic from the newly-found secret, I tried hard not to make a sound by covering my mouth and slowly walking backward.

I must avoid being close to this room, it was the only thing in my head that I forgot to take notice of the stairs. I soon loses balance and fell.

—- OUCH!

I reached out to grab the handrail but failed miserably and ended up going down the five stairs left with my butt. Don't ask whether or not it was painful because it sure is! Terribly! I feel like my butt is about to break.

"Aaaa— ouch! Ouch! Ah!"

It was impossible not to shout. Oh, I think it's really broken. My ass is torn to pieces.

"Oh!?"
"What happened!?"

It was big brother and Haru-nii. I seemed to have interrupted their love affair. However, I feel that my brother's clothes are disordered. Looks like he was in a hurry and might not have time to fix it. I've seen something I shouldn't see…

"Um… it's nothing! I just fell off the stairs…"

"What are you doing, really…"

Big brother and Haru-nii quickly helped me up, but the awkward feeling within me still hasn't blown away, so I said that I would like to go to the washroom to avoid facing the both of them.

I sit in the bathroom and hold my head. I'm getting dizzy from various shocks. I even started to hear noises. I thought that everything was caused by the shock, but something is not right. Like running lanterns, various scenery and scenes run through my head. I also saw the shocking scenes of my brothers which I witnessed a while ago.

But no… it's certainly similar, but not the same scene. The scenes in my head are clearly drawings, and there are also options visible on the screen… just like a game.

"Ga…me…?"

At that moment, I felt that things that were messing up in my head were being organized at once. The voices. The music playing in the background.

I remember all of them.

And I understood.

This is the world of the BL game 『Flowering Season ―A Study of Black Rose―』.

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I remembered. In my previous life, I was referred to as a fujoshi. And that this world is a BL game I have played back then. Not to mention.. my big brother is actually the protagonist! What kind of blessed life is this?!

However, it’s a pity that my brother is already in a secret relationship with his childhood friend. When all is said and done, I can only watch as the game’s main story timeline came to an end. Isn’t this basically the God amusing oneself by messing with this poor soul?! Really?? God?? When I can finally witness a real life BL, why must my joy be tempered with?! God! Ain’t this a bit too cruel of a treat!

Well, it’s alright I guess. In fact, to be able to experience this is already totally amazing. And the delicious treat is already served! Therefore, I will feed myself by observing the capture targets that was not tied to my brother!

… And that would be the first blunder I made. How could I forget… the fact that I looked so much like my brother–!

Author(s)
Hanaka Yui
花果 唯
Original Publisher
Kadokawa
Associated Names
ＢＬゲームの主人公の弟であることに気がつきました

This translation was found at :
https://www.novelupdates.com/series/i-noticed-that-ive-become-a-bl-game-protagonists-younger-brother/?pg=3

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