Harnessed power
Yuan Xuelan's entourage told him that he was being hasty. That there was no reason to work himself sleepless.
But he was of another opinion. The sooner he got this whole ordeal over with, the faster he could retire from the bone aching stress. The faster he would be able to steal Liu Sumeng away and sail off into a far off land and find some peace and tranquility.
However, the Yuan Xuelan now had lived through a whole lifetime in the mind of his previous incarnation and found that he was a lot more self-aware. He understood his unreasonableness and did all that he could to prevent himself from spiraling out of control. After all, that had been a stark habit of his.