The night seemed almost surreal like it wasn’t happening to me but to someone else. I felt disoriented and out of my depth, and everything around me seemed to be coming from a distance. Even words sounded like they were passed through an echo chamber before they reached my ears. I couldn’t imagine, even with all that I’ve been through, that days like this really do exist.
One minute I was laughing and teasing Chantal while we both cheated at scrabble, and the next, I was standing over my mother in a hospital bed. I’ll never get the look of her out of my head, never erase the image of her lying there broken with tubes going in and out of her. Hearing the doctor’s words had filled me with cold dread, and I’ve been numb ever since.