LOVE FAILS FOR A REASON

A beautiful smile flashed on your face when you hold my arms

The first day when i said that you're mine,

I wonder if you knew, but this is the first time and so i smell something brand new when i'm around you,

Yet you're my kinda man: sweet, caring, charming and romantic,

Your comely face had ignite my curiosity,

'til the moment i found myself fell in love with you,

Seems like yesterday i smell brand new, yet i'm now comfortable with you,

We've been a beautiful spot light with our friends

And a beautiful nastalgia to our parents,

A white rose in your right hand a love letter in your left hand,

A sweet words of yours in front of my Mama,

The moment that seems like i'm forever livin' in a beautiful beggining,

Though this heart of mine knew it won't always be this way,

Love doesn't chose. However we're still so young to be driven by love and anytime we can be fooled by the uncertainty of time,

You were so good to me, I can't let you be out of my sight, i can't let the day without holding your workaholic hands,

Oh you're my ideal man...

But i have to let my man go, break his heart and act like i didn't mean it,

I numb my heart for a couple of months,

Coz i have to follow what my papa's wants, which i believed for the goodsake of me,

Does my reason's valid? if it yes, why the pain was hunting me every night; thinking how i did broke your heart without you knowing it,

And yes i didn't pinned hard my feelings towards you because i'm afraid to be hurt,

If i'm not in pain?

Then how to stopped myself from waking up late at night with a notebook and ballpen on my hands; writing letters to him with a shaky hand and tears drops on my notes.

Coinscience was hitting me hard everytime i heared you were drunk and still spelling out my name in front of your friends,

A couple of months had passed by yet still you're sleep talking about me everynight.

I knew i left your love hanging by a thread,

However, i'm not so cruel and my feelings for you hasn't fade,

It's just my mind was dreaded to things that was close to an end,

So i closed the door before you could do it.

Before rainy season's end we met each other under the fixing weather; the rainbow was dazzling,

Though your smile was still hurting yet now you understand the ambience around us; where  the field was vast and was greener than before, flowers was ablooming with its different colors and the drying sky was bright while the sunlight was slowly peeking.

How beautiful that is... to see you once again with our heart was mending; gladly we realised that seeds of trees can't grow tall inside the circles.

And that's when we realised that our world was moving slowly like a moving skies; not collide yet a parallel line; we depart with the same feelings yet with different aims in life.