Hard feelings

"Why were you not wearing more clothes or even carrying an umbrella with you? You could have at least hid under a shelter to cover yourself, or even called me, you knew I was close by to get the color I needed for my painting, so why didn't you? You need to take care of yourself more!" He spoke too rapidly, it was impossible to keep up with what he was spouting.

He looked pale after a while, had to catch his breath, he inhaled deeply followed by an exhale and gave Adrienne a chance to explain later on.

"Sorry about that, forgive me okay?" without waiting for his reply she kept going... "Zozo, know what happened", she asked him. "Al-" she started, but he immediately interrupted her. "No, don't change the subject" he looked helpless.

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I think an earthquake occurred. I felt suicidal. My heart was bleeding and my feet could barely stand on ground for any longer. None of us says any more and the conversation died soon after. I want to vomit. It hurts, it really hurts. I get a stomachache just thinking about it.

We live about 15 minutes away from each other. He would usually walk me home and continue to his house but this time around was different.

The silence before parting ways was too long and too quite. "Bye" he says very briefly before he left. "See you later" I replied. It seems like he is going to take another route, probably a shorter and faster one. I know the weather isn't a suitable one to be taking a walk. But I still felt disappointed. I wish he had walked the same way as usual or that he would have said goodbye while looking me in the eye.

Before that, I hope I tried talking to him as soon as the atmosphere began to feel cold but my stubbornness got the best of me.

I arrived at home. After nearly an hour, I found that I had a fever. It wasn't a very high between 38 and 39 degrees, perhaps. I felt a slight headache - my room was spinning, my legs were numb, I did not have any appetite and lastly, I felt lightheaded.

About the cause of it - I'm not certain. It is possible that it turned out like this because of our episode or maybe I appeared in the rain for way too long. I can't think of another reason, it's one of the two. Perhaps it is even both.

It's almost midnight now, I wonder what he's doing at the moment. I'm guessing he started painting when he arrived home.

The color he wanted... did he get it in the end?

I can't sleep and tomorrow is school day. Is he also up..?

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Zachary is a great painter, I always look forward to see the results of his paintings. He look like a total different person when he is standing in front of his canvas and painting. Unlike in class - he is always focused. He would always carry that smile and have sparkles in his eyes when he is caught up painting, supposedly looking at the girl he likes. Obviously showing interest in her. I am starting to get jealous.

My eyes are beginning to feel heavy, I guess I'm tired after th...