A Past I Would Rather Not Recall
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This is why I don't like to think about my past because I always remember these little bits that always fucked me over… I don't want to blame it all on looking ugly. I was also pretty introverted, and that only made it worse… Maybe even if I was ugly, if I was an extrovert, I would have ultimately made friends anyways… But things were not as easy for me.
It's not easy to jump from an introvert to an extrovert, and it is a very gradual transition. Without friends, it becomes even harder, so I guess I was never able to do it… well, until now. I had just realized it, but aren't I a big extrovert in this life? Is it because I feel "free"?
Indeed, since I came here and became a ghost, I simply let most of my thoughts get out of my mind. I often talk about what I think without realizing it. I know I've always been a klutz, but I never used to do this in my previous life.