Annihilation: The Prologue (8)

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~Mary POV~

I don't want to be a product of my environment. I want my environment to be a product of me.

I believe that we human beings, or any living being in general, should be the ones who determine what will happen in the future.

I believe that we human beings should not be the ones that change due to the environment, but we should be the ones that change the setting because that is our purpose.

In this world, everything has a purpose.

After all, had you ever heard about the four causes?

Matter, form, agent, and purpose.

Those are the four things that genuinely made us living beings.

Matter or the material cause is the aspect of the change or movement determined by the material that composes the moving or changing things.

Form or the formal cause is a change or movement caused by the arrangement, shape, or appearance of the thing changing or moving.

Agent or the moving cause is consists of things apart from the thing being changed or moved, which interact to be an agency of the change or movement.

Lastly, is the end or purpose, a change or movement for the sake of a thing to be what it is.

All things exist before the purpose or so. That is what Aristotle said, but I can't entirely agree.

Aristotle said before anything come into existence, there must be matter first, then come the form of the thing, which will lead to cause by its an agent or the moving cause, which will result at the end of its purpose.

But I'm afraid I have to disagree.

I believe that, before anything can come into existence, all things must have a purpose first before the matter can come into existence.

You see, what come before egg and chicken is not either of those, but it's the omelette.

Why? Because the omelette is what gives purpose to the egg and chicken.

First, come the omelette, which will give purpose to all of the chickens in the whole world.

Second come to its matter, which is, of course, the chicken, its human desire to create an omelette that makes an animal known as the chicken.

As a result, the egg would be the form that will shape the purpose.

Finally would come the agent or the moving cause, the third benefactor that would change the egg into the omelette, which none other than humans themself.

Of course, people would say that the omelette would come last because that comes after the egg, but let me ask you this...

Do we humans raise and collect chicken and egg for the omelette, or do we humans, want the omelette, so that is why we raise and collect chicken and egg?

I would say it's the ladder, which would mean that the omelette would come before chicken and egg; after all, the omelette gives reason for the chicken and egg's existence, and I believe that one cannot exist without a purpose.

That is why everything in this world comes into existence because it has a purpose, no matter how small it is, and that purpose that we have is to change this world, all so that what I thought.

I became a scientist because I believe that it's our, no, my purpose of changing something about this world and improving it.

But when I did, all I learned is that we scientists only want to discover something new about this world and learn about the unknown so that we can learn about its purpose, but we never look back and learn about our purpose?

What truly is our purpose?

That is why I quit being a scientist and became a doctor; I thought that becoming a doctor would give me a purpose, and that purpose was me saving people, but I quickly lost myself in the role and started to ask the question, is this truly my purpose of this?

I could do much more in the world than save people; I could do much more.

And that is when he comes, the devil.

I still remember his appearance. A male with red skin wearing all red clothing with blood-red cape, the devil calls himself Mephisto and ask me do I want to make a deal with him or not.

And the deal is simple, and he said, "If you make a deal with me, I will give you the purpose that you always seek."

It sounds great at first when I hear it; with that deal, I can finally realise my true purpose of this world and why I came into existence in the first place.

After all, since I can remember, I was always alone, as an orphan who had no family or friend, so that is why I spent most of the time learning and reading, gaining all the knowledge that I could, to the point where I can become both scientist and a doctor.

But since I was a kid, I have always asked myself, what is my purpose? And I never have the answer until the devil himself finally come to me and tell me that he will say to me what my goal is.

But in the end, after quite some time of thinking, I refuse the deal because the moment I see that there is indeed a devil in this world, I feel like something in me finally click and finally realise my purpose.

I want to become something much more. No, I need to become something much more than a human. I want and will become something greater than God; I want and will conquer the devil.

I want to change the whole world to something much more than it currently is. I want to create the perfect world for all things living inside it.

That is what I thought because deep down, I knew that I still had no idea about my true purpose, but in the end, I finally decided that, since I don't have the purpose for my existence in this world, why don't I create it myself.

That is why I decided that, from now on, my purpose is to change the whole world into a whole new direction, whether it's good or bad, it doesn't matter for me, as long as it changes, that is all its matter.

That is why to change the world, I must first know how to create it, and to do it, I must become God before surpassing him and become something much more to change the current world.

I know I am lying to myself about my purpose because that is not what I am supposed to do, but for me, it's doesn't matter.

After all, my purpose might be a lie, but all I have to do is make and change that lied to become the truth itself.