Chapter 10

           Chapter 10

        Chuck's Confession

The next day I went to school with bruises on my skin.  My fair skin couldn't hide the black and red  marks I got from the beating.

I have given up on my parents love. I don't care anymore if they love me or accept me.

That night was my rebirth. I was reborn that night. I decided that I will no longer be the school nerd. I will no longer be the girl they tried to bullied to death.

Enough is enough. It's time I show the World who I really am.

"It's time to show the World that I am strong and not some weak girl."

That day at school, I remembered the pains in Cleo's eyes when she saw the bruises on my pale fair skin.

She tried asking me how I got it —because they weren't there went we were together. I told her that I felt down.

I couldn't hide those marks because I didn't have make-up. I don't know how to use them  even up to now.

She tried getting answers out of me but I ignored her.

On my way to the bathroom I was pulled by someone inside the boy's bathroom. My body started to shake in fear. I told myself that night that I won't be afraid anymore but being in the boys bathroom made me afraid.

The person had their hand on my mouth so I won't scream. I tried fighting them off but they told me to shut up. I recognized the voice as Chuck's—he turned me around the face him.

He looked at my face holding my chain as he ran his thumb on the bruises on  my lips causing me to shiver in pain and fear of  what he will do to me.

His eyes looked so gentle. It was the first time for me to see Chuck look at me with care.

After a few seconds of rubbing my swollen checks and running his eyes over the cuts on my hands he asked me holding my face looking me in the eyes " Who did this to you" he said in a whisper.

It was the first time. Why isn't he bullying me? Isn't he used to bullying me whenever I am in pains?

"Why do you care?" I asked stepping away from him.

"I care Isa." He said looking down at his feet.

He cares? Wow this is new. A person who have bullied me from age four till now care! Does he think I want his sick pity?"

"You care?" I say pushing him with anger.  "You care?" I said laughing with tears in my eyes as I punch him in the chest. I am not insane. I laugh when things hurt me badly it is a way of releasing pains.  I didn't care if he will hurt me at that moment. I was angry at him. I was angry for all he put me through over the years. I punched him as I cry. He stood there looking at me with guilt, pains and regret.

After a few minutes, I slide down the bathroom door. He walked to me and picked me up hugging me as I cried out my pains.

It  was actually silly of me to cry in the arms of someone who have hurt me all of my life. It was actually silly of me to feel safe and love in his arms.

Narrator: What! You did that? How could you? You couldn't even tell me about what happened—or come to me and cry out your pains but you when to cry in the arms of someone who had hurt you over the years. You are really interesting.

Kiekie:  I know it was silly of me but I did feel safe after he hugged me. I am sorry I didn't tell you about the encounter in the boy's bathroom. But now you know right?

Narrator: it's late alright. However I accept your apology.

I cried till my big doll cat eyes where red and puff. After I was done crying and messing up his uniform. I came back to realization that I was hugging someone who had messed up my life.

I turned to go out of the boy's bathroom because I didn't want someone seeing me there and think wrongly—or report to the principal..

Before I could open the bathroom door Chuck pulled me back.

"What?" I said with anger.

" I am sorry Kiekie. I am sorry Isa for everything I have putting you through. I am sorry for bullying you. I am sorry for making you feel worthless. I am so sorry Kiekie. I didn't know you were being abused at home emotional. I didn't know that what I was doing was causing enough damage to destroy you mentally like your parents. I am sorry Kiekie. I am sorry. I was always jealous of you. I was jealous of you back in kindergarten because I couldn't speak another language like you. I decided to bully you because I knew I couldn't be like you. I was jealous Isa. I was jealous. I was jealous because I can't be as good as you are in chemistry. I was jealous because you are smarter than me. I knew that by bullying you because of your gap tooth and your smartness will make you feel worthless.  I was jealous because my daddy always praise you. He always compare me with you. That made me angrier so I started it lie to your parents that is why their hate grew more for you."

"I so sorry Kiekie but half of my life I have lived in your shadow. I felt really guilty when I found out what—  I did caused your parents to blame you more for something that you did when you were little."

"I like you Kiekie. I like you but I felt inferior to you that how my like for you turned to jealousy. I know we are still young and in high school but I love you till my love turned to hate and anger because you only focus on your books."

" I know I have caused a lot of damage but I told your family the truth this morning. That's why I came late to school. I told them not to blame you for something that an infant did. I am sorry Kiekie. I know you don't like me back because I have destroy you. I will tell Annette, Anna and Amanda to apologize to you. All of what they did was because of me. I am sorry. I promise to live the rest of my life making it up to you for the pain that I have caused you." He said as he held my leggings crying.

Kiekie: He did live up to his promise. He is living up to his promise till how.