Painful damage

(trigger warning suicide and depression)

Slowly Sung was having damages mentally which affects his emotions too. All the pent up frustration that he currently had might have just slowly affecting his emotions. When he was with his parents, he had to show them his fake expression he would put on in order to not for them to get affected by his toxicity.

This in turn made him emotionless when he was alone. Loneliness also starts to looms around him as all of his friends had either gone out of the countries or either already started their offline university while Sung was still waiting for Japan borders to open.

All the waiting he had been doing also takes a toll towards his physical health as he stressed eat which he never had done. Slowly his health were deteriorating as he couldn't even took care of his physical, mental and emotional health.

Sung : Why do I want to die so much right now? Why do I feel like no one cares about me?

But then as he chat away with the community, he realizes that if Japan economy would collapse, then there would be a chance in which Japan could open back up. However those selfish thoughts of him made him more toxic than before.

One of the ways he tries to not show his toxicity and made his emotion a little bit more stable was to forget about all of his problems and just bottle all of his emotion in his heart. This in turn made him felt more suffocated but he also didn't had any other choice as he doesn't really had anyone to rely to for his mental health issues.

Another way was for him to did exercises to get rid of all his stress and it did kind of work. But in the long term the exercise didn't really helped and in fact it got a lot worse as he was adding all of his mental stress and physical stress together. Another way was to just to attempt suicide multiple times and ended up much more depressed too as if he was having a painful life.