I Am Perfectly Okay
??? POV III 2/2
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So much pain…
Pain, pain, pain, pain…
I have only known pain my entire first life…
Stranded by tubes and pierced with hundreds of syringes.
Was I even alive back then?
Ahh…
The bright light.
It is so blinding, it burns my eyes.
The men wearing weird suits are opening my body again, taking things out of it, and putting other things inside.
It hurts…
Kill me…
Just kill me already…
"Kill… me…"
I muster those words, as the crimson-eyed man glares at me with contempt.
"Miranda, you have to look up for life, you know? We can't simply get rid of our bright star. You are the reason I wake up every day so happy… It is thanks to you that everything is possible… You don't know how grateful I am of you…"
"Kill… me… Kill me…"
"No, no, no! I cannot kill you, young lady. You are an important part of my plans. You and I will stand atop the world one day. I assure you. A new era, a new beginning. And it all starts with you, my dear Miranda…"
"Why…? What… What am I?"
"Oh? It seems that she's gaining more consciousness despite the mold. This is good progress…"
"Tell me… you bastard…"
"Hm? From where did you learn such a word, young lady? Hey, who had been swearing while working?! Don't infect Miranda's mind! If I catch one of you swearing ever again, you are getting fired!"
The man talks incoherencies as he yells at the men wearing suits…
And then, he glances at me once more with… those sick crimson eyes…
I hate him…
I hate him so much…
He's the one… that did all of this to me…
"Ah, Miranda, don't get like that. Who are you? That's quite the simple answer. You are a Goddess! Your power can cure diseases, heal any type of wounds, and enhance any person to become Gods just like you! You can do everything and more. You can become everything too… And be everywhere as well… Don't you understand your own capabilities? Well, you are still developing… But you are way more than what you think of yourself, dear Miranda. You are a goddess! My goddess…"
He begins to caress my hair… as he smiles eerily.
Behind that mask I can easily see his sick smile, it curves and makes the skin below his eyes yet wrinkly.
Bastard…
I am not a Goddess… I am… a normal person…
Right?
I am… a normal person…
I am…
"Sir, I don't think it would be too good to talk to her, you seem to stimulate her brain too much, she might burst into a berserk-like state again, please refrain from talking with her," said one of the men.
"Hah? She's my goddess! I can talk as much as I can with her! Right, Miranda?"
The man asks me directly as if I could even answer…
But I somehow muster the words coming from the depths of my heart.
Hatred.
"Kill…"
"Hm? What did you say?" he asked.
"Kill… you…"
"Talk louder my dear…" he asks.
"I am going… to kill you…!"
The man suddenly glares at me with contempt, as another smile emerges, and his eyes shine brightly with fascination.
"Why yes… You are going to kill me…" he said, as he pets me and walks away…
I am going to kill him.
Kill.
Kill.
Kill.
Kill.
Kill.
Kill.
Kill.
"S-Sir, her heartbeat is accelerating to a great pace!"
"She's losing it! The mold is taking over her again!"
"Run!"
"KILL, KILL, KILL, KILL, KILL, KILL, KILL, KILL, KILL, KILL."
CRASH!
Suddenly, a strength I never thought I had surged through my entire body.
My skin is covered in slimy black substances, as I manipulate them at will…
Ah, I see!
I see how it is!
"HAHAHA…! HAHAHAHAHAHAH! DIE! ALL OF YOU WILL DIE! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!"
I swipe my hands as their heads fall apart and a shower of red blood covers my body.
Hahh…
SO THAT'S HOW IT IS!
HAHAHAHA!
DIE!
ALL OF YOU DIE!
DIE!
DIE!
DIE!
Ungh…
A sudden piercing pain hits my neck, as the red-eyed man catches me from behind.
A strange liquid enters my body and all the power I had disappears like ashes.
"Bad girl… You should stop doing that, it is not good…" he said.
My mind becomes numb, as I fall unconscious.
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Ah…
I open my eyes lightly.
I was having a nightmare again.
I am… not that person.
I am not like that anymore.
I am… away from those people too.
I am in another world…
I am nowhere like that anymore…
I glance at my hands, they're blue…
I am fine…
Haha…
I am fineeeeee…
Yes…
Ymir…
Bless me…
I am completely okay.
In fact, I have never felt this good before.
I don't know how many months… I think it has been many years, in fact…
Through all these years of escaping and living in the wild, I have grown so skeletal…
Hahaha…
But I have felt this happy, what is this?
I feel so fine!
I am actually super fine!
What has gotten into me? This is not me..
No! I am completely fine, in fact, why don't I just go crazy a little bit?
No… Wait!
Wait? Why would I wait? I am super okay right now! I feel like I can just do whatever I want!
Hahaha…
I can't help but laugh…
It's all so funny.
Like a comedy.
Yes… Come back to me…
No! Stop!
STOP!
Why would I stop?
Isn't this what you want?
This is what I want…
No…
Stop!
Black sludge begins to emerge all over my body, as my sight turns completely black.
Isn't this what you wanted, Miranda?
No…
Stop…
STOP!
Why? I am already happy.
You are already happy.
Why don't you go to sleep? I can take care of things for you from now on…
No… Wait…!
Wait for what? I am you, and you are me.
Stop…
Don't…
My name is not Miranda…
My name is…
Your name? What is your name?
My name is…
Is…
I don't… remember?
Of course, you don't, we are simply Miranda and nothing else!
Now, good night!
No…
Wait…
Bye, bye…
I fall into the abyss, to never wake up from it ever again.
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