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Shira Pov:

The stillness of my heart beating.

The senerity of the air around me.

The Magic that weave the very breathe that I take.

The power that flows to my core,

Strengthen the very foundation of my being.

I could feel myself flourish in the silent of this space. I feel awed by the amount of power flowing through me as I sit and meditate.

 I use to think I was a fearless being when my parent was alive. I thought nothing could scare me but I realize after they passed even if I never care to admit that fear has become my close companion. I had feared the hard truth I will be made to face if I did. It is easy to evade, when the alternative promise nothing but pain. I decided to take the easy way out.

I thought I did a good job hiding the hurt that made me feel vulnerable. but I think I had always known deep down that I failed miserably. 

I had been able to forget it all even if the time was fleeting, when I was forced to roamed aimlessly in the human world. But even with the escape I always knew something was amiss. I am not being who I am suppose to be.

Fear can be crippling. There is nothing spiritual about fear.

Shira my little girl. I heard my Mother voice call to me. Have I been here too long? Am I so exhausted to the point of hallucinations. Am I hearing things now? 

Silly girl open your eyes, Mother is here. I heard her voice again. I wish to the goddess this is not an hallucination as I open my eyes to see my Mother smiling at me. Mother is this really you? Are you really in front of me and I stretch my arms to hug her but my arms just went through her as though she is air.

She just smiled at my action. My sweet sweet girl. Am so sorry Mother had to leave you all alone so soon. I love you so much my little girl. 

Mother are you really here? How is this possible? Where are you? Am I dreaming right now Mother? If this is really a dream I hope I never wake up.

Silly girl, of course you will have to wake up, the world cannot survive without you. Your brothers needs you too. Mother will always be here with you, I will always be here to guide you.

I immediately feel an immense rush of power run through my core as I felt my Mother place a gemlike thing on my forehead. I felt my body convulse and burn. I feel like screaming for her to stop whatever she is doing but I find myself unable to move any part of my body. I feel like my head is about to explode. What is happening to me? 

I felt the whole sensation stop all of a sunden and I could no longer feel her around anymore. She is gone. I don't know what to make of what just happened. I know she was just here and just like that she is also gone.

When I finally gain some awareness of my surroundings, I guess the recent occurrence shake me to my core. I saw Zozo staring at me and she seem to have grew some inches. 

Master I do not know what just happen, but I feel like I just got a power surge and look at this cool tatoo on my wrist, it just appear out of nowhere. But do I love it? she said wriggling her brows as her green iris seems to glow in excitement, of course I do love it. and the best part is, I have just grown a little more taller. I could hear the joy in her voice, as I stare at the glowing leaflike tatoo on her wrist.

Something really strange just happened here. I feel like my Mother just appeared and pass her powers to me but how is that possible? she died. Or when she died maybe part of her escaped here? Different scenarios was just playing in my head but then I remembered a discussion we once had here in the garden.

Shira, Mother want to tell you something very important, we the daughters of nature blessed by the goddess have a unique trait. We all have to pass down our powers to our offspring when we die. Isn't that cool, that means even if I die. I will always be a part of you.

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Mother why are you being weird. There is nothing cool about that. If I have to loose you so I could get more powerful, I rather stay powerless. Whereas I could even overpower you in time, just watch and see. I don't need your powers, I only need you here beside me forever.

Silly girl, we cannot live here forever you know. We all must die someday. But do not worry my little girl, I am not leaving you anytime soon.

Is this what she had mearnt at that time, I thought she was being weird. So she actually mearnt it. I just stood still feeling perplexed. The whole thing just felt overwhelming. Just as I was debating whether to still stay and meditate some more or give myself a break and just leave. I suddenly felt an immense sadness and pain coming from my soul bond. Then I hear Damien call to me. What could have happened to make him hurt this much. I immediately reached out to the core of the bond our soul share.

I saw him in a place that looked like a cave but a beautiful one. He looked out of place in here, he looked so dejected. My heart hurt for him. Something must have happened to make him this way, it has been long I have seen Damien in this state of mind. I know immediately that what he need is a shoulder to lean on. 

He said he just needed to see me, he sound so hurt and destraught. I could see he had been crying. I know that is quite impossible to feel or touch. We could only see and talk to each other whenever we invoke our soul bond but I reached out as I felt a great need to offer him warmth as I know that is what he really need at this moment.

Shira how are you doing this? How are you able to do this? He sound quite shock. I myself am surprised I was actually able to pull this off. it must be the power surge I just received from my Mother. As I hug him and try to comfort him, I realize that I had also needed to feel his warmth. My head was in a turmoil when I hear him call unto me. Me being here in his arms in this moment is everything and more even when I could feel my energy draining at a fast pace, it has been worth it.

I felt the need to remind him that I will always love him. He deserves all the love in this world. The fact that no matter what we will always have each other. I lean in to give him a kiss but then I felt myself not able to hold on any longer. What a great timing, I had just wanted a Kiss.