Buying food for Carl at the convenience store
Ava asked Zenaida "Does Roy always treat you that well? He seems to be worried about you before same as me and he even said those words to make you less worried."
Ava wanted say that Roy seems to be treating you like a small kid and he seems to adore you too.
But she didn't say that out because she was worried that Zenaida wouldn't like to hear it in that way. So, she decided to ask her about Roy in this way.
Zenaida nodded her head at Ava and said "Hmm.... That's true. He is always treating me well and he is really friendly with me all the time too."
After saying that, Zenaida said to Ava again " We need to go to the convenience store. I have to buy food for you and Carl."
"For carl? Why do you need to buy food for him? " Ava asked zenaida in a surprised voice.
" He didn't finish his lunch before and he will feel hungry later in the middle of the class, if he wasn't going to eat anything at all. He didn't eat because of me and I would feel guilty of that, if he was to starve at the class." Zenaida said to Ava in an aggrieved voice.
Ava stared at her friend's face for few seconds and said to her while sighing " You always put Carl first and completely forget to care about yourself. Don't you? You should care about yourself too."
Zenaida looked at Ava with a question mark on her face.
Why is Ava saying this kind of thing to her now?
What is the relation between buying food for Carl and not caring about herself?
Ava knew at once that Zenaida has completely forgotten that she didn't eat anything for her lunch either.
She tapped the back of Zenaida's head with her hand lightly and said to her " What about you starving in the middle of the class? Aren't you going to buy something for yourself?"
Zenaida who has completely forgotten about the fact that she didn't also have her lunch today, grinned at Ava and said " I should buy something for myself too."
After that, they both left for the direction of the convenience store to buy their necessities.
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Roy observed his friend's current expression. He noticed that Carl has come back to his usual neutral nature after calming down his previous hidden anger in his heart.
He seems to wondering about something in his mind while pursing his lips.
Roy remained silent without saying anything to Carl while allowing him to have his own space. But he didn't forget to take a glance at his friend before looking away from him.
Carl looks like a very lonely person when he is being all serious like this.
Roy thought in his mind about Carl in that way before he looked away from him.
He is truly a lonely person because he doesn't let anyone to get close to his heart. He would talk or smile with a person while drawing a huge line between them in his heart at the same time.
Roy knows that Carl is not even letting him inside his heart too. Although, Carl would do anything for him because they have been together for more than a decade since their elementary school time. He is more like a family member to Carl.
Carl is not showing his emotions or his weak side to others at all. Even Roy doesn't have any idea of what is truly going in his life because Carl never talks about himself with him. Roy was sure that if he was not to approach Carl, He wouldn't even come and look for him at all.
How could a person live while not sharing his pain or happiness with others?
Shouldn't everyone have atleast a one person to share their life burden?
How could a single person carry all his burden by himself without the help of an another person?
Wouldn't it be too lonely?
Wouldn't he want to look for a person to share his life with?
But Carl doesn't seem to bother about that at all and he seems to be all fine by himself.
Is he truly feeling in that way in the depth of his heart too?
Doesn't he feel lonely at all?
Doesn't he feel the urge to reach out for someone else is in his life?
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Chapter 16- Carl's parents are the worst parents in the world